Chapter 432: Depression
Inside his residence before a small table that only contained two cups on it, one almost empty and another that was almost full, Khal sat alone on the couch with a rather heavy expression on his face.
[Don’t give it too much thought. Just give her enough time.]
Inside his head, Nova tried to cheer and raise Khal’s spirit, but unfortunately to no avail as Khal just closed his eyes and sighed, one that was completely different from the previous times, one that was invisibly and also incredibly heavy.
Silence fell on the small room and by the Khal opened his time the tea in the cup long ago got cold while the sun outside have already vanished from the sky, giving its temporary role to the beautiful silver moon.
"Are you not even surprised even in the slightest?" Khal decided to ask Nova.
Just a few moments ago, he has revealed his biggest secret not only to Liza but also to Nova, someone who despite being with him since his very first day inside this new world knew nothing about his true origin.
Yet, while Liza was completely shocked and brought to utter disbelief to the point where she excused herself and left, until then Nova seemed indifferent about the whole matter almost as if she didn’t even hear a thing!
This slightly confused Khal, hence why he decided to ask her.
[Why should I? Just under a single day, I have learned that I am currently trapped in a relic that was created by people who are not even from this world and discovered the Supreme Existence of the Zero Realm was the Lord of all the Seven Realms who also seems to like you. After all this why should I be surprised over your little secret?]
’Little secret...’ Khal didn’t know whether to laugh or cry but when the abrupt image of Liza’s pale face popped up in his mind his mood quickly turned to the worst.
"Sigh... I tried to tell her everything as carefully as possible, but it seems the truth always hurts no matter how one serves it."
Khal told everything to Liza, including their past in their previous lives, how she and he died, how he got ’transported’ into this world and into a body that is not even his, and how he was trying to find answers to everything that happened to them.
He also told her that the dreams she had been seeing in the past and perhaps even until now were the memories of her past self and everything she saw in there actually happened.
He even mentioned the not long ago acquired piece of knowledge about the bracelet and the Otherworlders that Hale has told him, but it seemed that was the last drop in the cup as the very moment he finished talking Liza immidieatly stood up and stormed out of the building.
Yes, he could have given these pieces of information bit by bit to her, but after seeing her feelings for him, which in truth were directed at the true Khal, Neo, and not him, he decided to draw a line between him and her.
This will help her keep her distance away from him and at the same time keep her feelings for Neo until he won’t find a way to gain himself a separate body and give his current one back to its original owner.
Yes, he knew it was easier said than done, but Khal knew or at least had a hunch it was not impossible. He felt that if he finds these Otherworlders that Hale has just talked about he was sure to find answers to his questions and solutions to his problems.
Also...
When Khal reached this point of his thought a slightly sad and depressed sigh escaped his mouth once again.
He didn’t want to accept this as Liza, no, Nancy was the sole individual that kept the soul in him during the darkest moments in his past life hence was the only one Khal loved even until now, but Khal had to realize she no longer was his nor she was in love with him, Cal, but with someone else who although having a slightly similar name, was a completely different person.
"Damn... So this is how it feels to let go of someone you love?" Khal mumbled as a piercing pain that was indescribable by words assaulted his chest every time his heart throbbed.
It was akin to hundreds of swords getting stabbed into his heart and pulled out from time to time. The feeling was truly like torture.
"Huh?" raising his hand before his face, Khal touched his cheek only to feel as his fingers became wet from the tears that uncontrollably flowed out from the corner of his eyes and down his face.
It seemed the things he didn’t wish to acknowledge when he found out Liza in truth was Nancy and as a result has pushed them to the very deepest part of his heart, now had been freed in their entirety, causing tears without any control to flood his eyes and gush down his cheeks.
For the first time in his new life, Khal felt truly heartbroken, and not only because he finally admitted that Liza no longer loved him as her expression told him everything when he confessed the truth, but because he realized just how pathetic he truly was.
Pathetic to the point where he tried to hide from reality just in the hope that maybe, and only just maybe he will have the chance to regain his past happiness. However, despite trying to go with the new world’s flow which resulted in his personality changing slowly but surely, Khal still couldn’t make himself lie to Liza and pretend he was someone who he in reality was not!
In the end, no matter how much he was trying to deny it as he was trying to live a different life but at the same time trying to keep his happiness from the past selfishly, he still was Cal with nothing left but his past personality, beliefs, and memories!
He was not Khal Nevio, a young man who just in a few days will become 19 years old and everyone was looking at him as a genius cultivator, but Cal.
He was a no-one... A ghost, a lost soul trapped in someone else’s body and reaping the rewards that were meant for someone else!
