Chapter 1680: Chapter 1679: Please, Don’t Love Me Anymore
It’s laughable that I can’t even manage to blame myself. I’m a cold robot, utterly unworthy of having such a good wife like you.
So I became increasingly indifferent to you, hoping perhaps you’d realize the mistake and choose to divorce me. But you never did...
And at that time, I was a bastard too, selfish and cold, completely unable to understand or care for your feelings. I only wanted to find my emotions again, so when I met Shao Yingying again, I thought I had grabbed onto another lifeline.
Because she was the only woman I ever liked, I still remember the feeling of liking her, yet I couldn’t generate it anymore.
I approached her just to reclaim even a shred of human emotion. I never even considered that doing so might hurt you.
No, I knew it would hurt you, but I felt nothing. I didn’t even have a guilty conscience, which made me hate myself even more.
And made me more eager to become a living person again.
But I didn’t expect that during the time I was in contact with Shao Yingying, an accident would happen to you, one you even hid from me.
Ultimately, I did not recover a shred of human emotion from Shao Yingying, but I did gain an inexplicable heaviness from you.
Indeed, when I found out you had HIV, and that you and the child might die, I finally felt a heaviness in my heart.
At that moment, I didn’t know whether to be happy or sad. Tragically, I couldn’t feel either. But I understood a truth—regardless of whether I love you, I can no longer hurt you.
I am willing to do anything for you, willing to forever care for and guard you and the child, willing to do everything for your happiness.
Except that I cannot love you...
I don’t know if what I am doing can make you happy. But it’s the only thing I can do for you.
I also know that this is not what you want, but it’s all I can offer. From now on, my purpose for living is for you.
However, when you read this letter, I am already dead.
I can no longer continue to protect you. I think this is heaven’s punishment for me.
Xia Pu, please do not mourn for a person like me, it’s not worth it, because I don’t love you.
And please, don’t love me anymore.
Written by Pei Yuanze.
Seeing these contents, Xia Pu was utterly shocked, and her tears had already overflowed.
When she saw the last sentence where Pei Yuanze told her not to love him, she couldn’t help but burst into tears!
Clutching the letter he left behind, Xia Pu’s cries were heart-wrenching.
She had never felt such pain before.
Not even when she found out she had HIV did she feel this despair.
Why does the heart hurt so much?
Not knowing these truths, she wasn’t this hurt before, but knowing them, she felt as if she might die. It turned out Pei Yuanze didn’t not love her; he just couldn’t love her.
He endured so much, yet said nothing. While she was busy considering whether he loved her or not.
Xia Pu felt her love was too selfish and narrow.
She also deeply sorrowed for all Pei Yuanze had gone through.
Now, sacrificing his life for the country, he lost not just human emotions but his life too. This made Xia Pu feel deeply distressed for him, and she felt even more guilty about the reproaches she had for him in the past.
If possible, she wished he was still alive and had human emotions.
But it will never happen again...
