Chapter 127: I want you, Lucian.
"Getting close to me would put you in danger again and I...
I wouldn’t be able to protect you."
Lucian clenched his fists in frustration and helplessness.
"You are protecting me now."
"It’s different. Right now, I have been told to protect you, it’s a mission that is assigned to me. Once you are safe, once this is all over, they will put me on a different mission, I won’t always be there to protect you."
Lucian explained.
"It doesn’t matter, I am not afraid of danger."
Evelyn answered bravely and when Lucian looked into that shine in her eyes, as he heard her fast, but stable heartbeat—
He realised it as well.
She wasn’t saying it just for the sake of saying it.
As long as she got to stay with him, she really was willing to accept the danger that came with it.
But—
"No."
Lucian shook his head.
Evelyn frowned and he looked at her.
"This is not just about you, Evelyn.
It is about me as well.
You may not be afraid of danger, you may even be prepared to die if it comes to it, but I am not.
I am not comfortable putting you in that situation for my sake.
If something happened to you because you were close to me, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself and I...
And I do want to live.
I have to live."
Lucian spoke.
His eyes shone intensely as he thought about that bastard he was going to tear apart limb by limb, as slowly and agonisingly as possible.
Evelyn looked into his eyes, a little taken aback by the look he had and she...
She turned silent for a moment, as if she was considering everything Lucian said.
When he saw that, Lucian looked slightly relieved.
Maybe she understood.
Maybe that would put a stop to all this, to all the awkwardness that had recently developed between them.
But—
"So you can only protect me as long as you are assigned to the mission to protect me?"
"Yes."
"Till then, everything is fine, correct?"
"What?"
Lucian frowned.
Evelyn however, only looked into his eyes and—
"As long as you are assigned to this mission, you can protect me, right? As long as you are here, the dangers of the world you are in won’t matter."
"It is not as simple as th—"
Before Lucian could even complete his words, Evelyn decided.
"Then let’s do it till then."
She spoke directly.
Lucian blinked at those words—
"What...?"
He muttered, still thinking he heard her wrong.
"Let’s be together till you are assigned to the mission to protect me, once the mission is over, once I am safe, you can leave and you... do not have to come back."
Evelyn spoke with a strong, determined shine in her eyes.
"You aren’t comfortable putting me in a dangerous situation for your sake, correct? Then be with me till I already am in a dangerous situation."
"Evely—"
Lucian tried to explain but—
"I want you, Lucian."
Evelyn spoke as she looked at him with an intense light, her hands moved, slowly holding Lucian’s collar as her lips trembled.
"And I am really pushing myself to the limits here."
Lucian gulped as he looked into her dark, moist and... possessive eyes.
Yes.
Possessive.
Lucian also remembered how Evelyn reacted when he got closer to Sarah and he...
He shook his head.
"Evelyn, I am incapable of giving you what you want, even if I do accept what you said."
"What do you mean?"
Evelyn narrowed her eyes.
"I have Incubus Blood in my system."
Lucian answered honestly.
"When my demonic energy reserves are low, I need..."
Lucian didn’t know how to complete that sentence.
"You need to have sex to refill those reserves."
Evelyn understood.
"So? I don’t see the issue here."
Lucian looked at her, then he remembered what Vivienne said and he—
"I may be fine right now, but as I grow, one partner wouldn’t be able to keep up with my needs."
He lowered his head.
"I cannot be in a normal relationship anymore, Evelyn. I will only hurt you more and more."
Lucian answered with a weak smile.
And he wasn’t lying.
If he chose to have intercourse with a woman and that filled his demonic reserves by half, he wouldn’t be able to fill the rest with the Blank Crucible either.
After all, the Blank Crucible only filled him with Blank Demonic Energy and while Blank Demonic Energy was a sort of Universal Energy for demons, the Energy of Desire would simply devour the Blank Demonic Energy and make it useless.
So his only option would be to fill his energy reserves through intercourse and a normal woman like Evelyn—
She wouldn’t be able to keep up with him.
He would need more.
That was the sort of existence he had turned into.
"I’ll accept that as well."
That was when Evelyn spoke up.
"What...?"
Lucian blinked at those words and Evelyn, she looked into his eyes with an even stronger possessive light and—
"I’ll accept that as well!"
She raised her voice.
Then, she pulled Lucian close to her, so close that their noses almost touched each other and she—
"Anything else?"
"...why are you going so far?"
Lucian couldn’t help but ask.
And to Evelyn, the answer was very very clear.
"Because I know what I want.
And I will fight for it till I get it."
She had lived almost all her life being her parents’ puppet, she had given up on things she always wanted to do, whether it was making friends, going to parties, or riding a bicycle with the girl next door—
Not anymore.
She wanted Lucian.
So she would do everything she could to get him.
She won’t back out.
He wasn’t ready for a long relationship because he was afraid? Then she would make him get into a small one, build a connection from there, then she will make him fall in love with her and make sure he can no longer leave.
She will make him hers.
As for him having other partners?
She simply needed to be better than them, wouldn’t she?
"What? Do you have anything else that’s holding you back? Throw it all on me at the same time."
She spoke, looking at his face that was already dangerously close to hers and Lucian—
"I... don’t have anything else."
He said those words and the instant he did—
Evelyn pulled him even closer through his collar.
Lucian saw it clearly, with his enhanced senses, anything Evelyn did would never surprise him, and even now—
He saw it coming.
He knew what was going to happen.
He could have stopped.
He... should have stopped it.
But for one brief moment, as he looked into Evelyn’s intense eyes, he...
He couldn’t police himself and he...
He let her seal his lips.
