The Female Alpha You Can't Tame

Chapter 83: Chapter 83 I will never leave you

I pay heed to him and finally close my eyes awaiting the peaceful sleep I haven’t had for a long time. I waited patiently for the nightmares to come take me, for me to submerge in misery. But it never came and I slept peacefully clutching onto the warmth I was surrounded by.

I had no dreams only a peaceful silence and I slept like a pup. I sometimes heard faint chatter of wolves but a sudden command of an Alpha would shut them up. I slept well a part of me knowing I was being protected. That I was being loved.

The soft thud of something falling to the ground awakens me. I get up swiftly looking around, sleep disappearing running like the wind. I look to my right to find it empty, my eyes widen. Why is it empty? I am pretty sure that... that he was here.

Goddess, please! It was real, my male breathes. Was it? My mind plays with me. I gasp as tears threaten to fall once more. Since when have I become so weak? I quickly place my feet down and walk with trembling legs to search for him. To find at least some proof of him.

My eyes scan the living room, the kitchen, the bathroom. I walk in circles checking each place twice. He isn’t here! He... he was supposed to be here! He promised. Tears stream down my cheeks as I slide my hair back frustrated. How much longer must I keep doing this? How much longer must I keep yearning?

My quivering legs take me to the back porch but with my blurry vision, I stumble and fall to the ground landing hard. The pain hits me and I cry harder. My nails scrape against the wooden floor. I know I am not emotionally well and that I need to go away for a while but I... I need to be near him.

"Lumina!" The worried voice of my male calls out to me and I flinch startled, finally looking up at him.

Ragon and Elriam are up on their feet watching me surprised. Deimos walks to me slowly and I sob further. I see him. I can see him.

"Oh, Goddess! Alpha." Elriam whispers her palm placed over her mouth watching her Alpha bawling upon the ground.

As Deimos comes stands in front of me I look up at him. He tilts his head with sad eyes whilst bending down he places his palms under my armpits and carries me helping my feet to clamp around his waist. I hiccup and press my nose into his neck inhaling his scent. He is real. He is here.

"We shall discuss this after a few days. As you can see my female is unstable. She needs me. Ragon whatever it is handle it as I would." Deimos says walking inside without looking back.

Wrapping my hands around his neck I find that he struggles to walk. My strong male has grown weak over these months and it hurts me deeply. I snuggle deeper into him as he pats my back softly and I close my eyes, my hiccups dying. Walking into our room he softly places me on the bed.

I begin to whimper and whine loudly through my nose as he takes a step back. I begin to get up so I can go to him but stop halfway once his eyes find mine. "Stay." He speaks through those eyes. My whines increase by sound as he strips himself off his shirt and wipes his body with a cold drenched towel.

Close. I want him as close to me as possible. His actions are calm and composed but I know he listens to every sound that leaves my mouth and watches my every action. Washing his face and hair he finally walks to the other side of the bed.

Lifting the thin blanket he lies down and gathers me in his arms. "Hush now. I am here aren’t I?" He asks softly trying to ease my whines and whimpers. My wolf curls up tail tucked under engrossed with the warmth her male provides.

I look up at him through my lashes as he peers down at me. I keep staring at him and so does he. His eyes move around my face taking in every feature as if he is engraving it deeper in his memory.

Lifting my trembling hand towards his face I place a finger on his lower lip. The warmth of his flesh spreads through me like wildfire. My lips wobble and a stray tear rolls down my cheek. My male closes his eyes after he followed the tear and a soft whine leaves his lips.

Bending down he places his lips gently upon mine and I gasp with the contact as my mark sizzles. Our connection resurrects to a newborn one. Reborn. That was what you could call our connection at this very moment. I place my palms over his cheeks and bring him closer to me pressing my mouth deeper into his.

He welcomes my lips as if it was his. As if it was what he craved with every last breath. Biting down on my lower lip he sucks it, nips it, and finally licks it. He takes my lips over and over. More. I need more. I push him back a little to convey my wish.

"I want to feel you. I want to feel you, Deimos." I whimper. He looks down at me with a look of understanding.

"Whatever you wish, my female." He whispers. Quickly he pushes his pants and boxers down until they remain at the back of his knees. Bringing me closer he removes my shorts and throws it to onto the floor. Spreading my legs he slides my panties to the side baring my core to him.

Placing his elbows on each side next to my face upon the pillow whilst looking deep into my eyes he thrusts his cock in one push deep into me. I gasp feeling him fill me whole within. He slides his slick hard cock halfway out only to plunge back with force.

There is no gentleness, no lovemaking. This was neither seduction nor fucking. This was comfort. The comfort we both desperately need. Grasping my wrists and placing them above my head he thrusts harshly into me. I moan loudly as with every thrust hard grunts leave his chest.

His eyes never leave mine. My fluids slide down my thigh and pool down to the sheets. Back and forth he moves his lower body pounding deeper and deeper into me. I clutch his hair and bring his face to my neck.

My tears fall onto his neck and slide down his torso. The feeling of him inside me destroys my every fear and anxiousness. His thrusts make me think of nothing else but the reality we are swimming in. My moans are mixed with loud sobs that leave my lips.

His hands grip my wrists tighter as his cock pummels into me with full force. They are restricted, not staying for a second longer so he can return with more vigor. I take what he gives swallowing him whole. My walls clench around him tighter so he can feel me more.

Lifting my thighs he encircles them around his waist and shifts placing his ass upon his heels. Hoisting my hip upward he plunges deep and takes me over and over. My nails scrape into his flesh and he groans my name. The sound of our flesh meeting and the sound of the headboard banging against the wall strikes through the silence.

"Lumina." He keeps calling the name he gave me. I wrap my legs harder around his waist my heels placed upon his ass cheeks bringing him closer so he can impel deeper.

His thrusts grow faster and my moans grow louder. Soft growls are poured from the bottom of my male’s chest. My fingers clutch the sheets tight and I move my head to the right immersed in the pleasure he provides. The pit of my stomach trembles with euphoria for I will find my release soon.

"No. Look at me." His voice is deep and dominating as he grabs my jaw turning my face, making me look at him. His eyes meet mine and with fast quick harsh thrusts, he moans loud and deep, mouth open wide. Eyes drowning in a sexual haze, he embeds into my soul. My core clenches around him grasping him tightly as it releases soaking him.

Quickly removing his cock slick with my fluids he releases semen all over my stomach. Hidden disappointment floods me as a part of me wished him to cum inside me for that is what I have been aching for.

My chest heaves and so does his. His eyes go back and forth from his semen on my stomach and my eyes. He looks at my tears and my heaving breasts. He takes them all in staying in the same position for a while.

With a soft grunt, he gets up and heads to the bathroom. Getting a fresh towel he heads towards me and cleans my stomach as well as my leaking core. I strip myself off my shirt and innerwear and lie back down under the warmth of the blanket. After cleaning himself he walks back to me naked as well.

"Come." Is all he says and I jump into his open arms and sink into his chest.

"I missed you... so much that I wished to die." I whisper and his hand pats the back of my head. "I thought you were going to leave me, perhaps already did." I continue.

"I will never leave you, Lumina. I will fight even with the moon goddess for us." He says.

My eyes begin to flutter close, tiredness taking its toll on my body. The sound of his heartbeat lulls me to sleep further.

"I dreamt of you. Every time I closed my eyes I was haunted... by your blood." I whisper.

"I am sorry, my female." He whispers, lips softly kiss my forehead.

"What about you?" I ask him curiously.

His chest rises as he takes a deep breath through his nose looking up at the ceiling. Clutching me tighter to his side he whispers, "You."

"What?" I question again as my ears begin to tune out for sleep gets a hold of me.

"You. The sight of your tears. The music of your laughter. The sound of your anger. All I saw, felt and heard was you, Lumina." He whispers his truth.