Chapter 375: Chapter 375: The First Time Ji Hanyu Cried
So, no matter how painful it was, he let her go.
But letting her go didn’t mean he had to stay away from her world.
Ji Hanyu watched Bai Haoxue every day, from where she couldn’t see him.
Ji Hanyu knew what Bai Haoxue did every day, he also knew that Ye Jinyan took her to the hospital for an abortion.
It wasn’t that he didn’t feel heartache.
That was his child, of course he was reluctant.
But Ji Hanyu understood better that aborting the child was the best for both Bai Haoxue and the child.
Xiao Bei said that if the child was born, there was an eighty percent chance he would carry the virus.
Eighty percent.
This number meant that his child would endure the same pain and suffering as him.
He was still a swaddled baby, how could he possibly withstand that?
And how could Bai Haoxue endure it? Her child carried for ten months, having to face life and death torment, with a high possibility of dying because he couldn’t bear it.
It was too cruel for both Bai Haoxue and the child.
When Ye Jinyan took Bai Haoxue to the hospital, Ji Hanyu actually followed behind in his car.
He wanted countless times to stop them, to take her away from that ghastly place, the hospital, regardless of everything.
But, at the thought of the consequences, he backed down.
He didn’t dare!
He couldn’t bear the consequences.
Watching Ye Jinyan and Bai Haoxue enter the hospital, Ji Hanyu didn’t follow them in.
He didn’t dare!
He didn’t dare go in.
If he went in, he was afraid he couldn’t control himself.
He couldn’t guarantee what he might do.
Ji Hanyu just sat in the car.
Quietly sat in the car.
Slowly, tears began to slide down Ji Hanyu’s cheeks.
Slowly, he could be seen leaning onto the steering wheel, his head buried low, his body trembling, and faint sobs could be heard.
That was the first time Ji Hanyu cried!
And from the moment Bai Haoxue went to the hospital to abort the child, Ji Hanyu left S City.
First, there was indeed work that required him to leave; second, he wanted to leave temporarily, to go outside and clear his mind.
So, at that moment, Ji Hanyu didn’t know that Bai Haoxue didn’t actually abort their child.
Four years later, when Ye Jinyan sent these things to him, he very well understood Ye Jinyan’s intent.
It was nothing more than to stab another thorn into his heart!
However, Ye Jinyan underestimated him too much.
He had long known about the child, moreover, he supported Bai Haoxue’s abortion.
No matter how painful or reluctant, he still supported Bai Haoxue’s decision to abort the child.
Of course, if she didn’t want to abort the child, he wouldn’t force her.
Any decision she made, he supported and understood.
If the child was really born with a problem, he would make every effort to treat him (or her).
If it couldn’t be cured, whatever there was to bear, he would shoulder it all, never run away.
But Ji Hanyu knew that Bai Haoxue wouldn’t keep the child, after all, she hated him so much.
However, knowing was one thing, but four years later, seeing the things that Ye Jinyan sent, especially the baby’s ultrasound, the color Doppler.
His heart couldn’t possibly not be stirred.
But that was for the child.
For their poor child.
Their child, who hadn’t had the chance to glimpse this world.
He hadn’t even held him once...
Listening to Ji Hanyu’s account, Bai Haoxue collapsed into Ji Hanyu’s embrace, sobbing uncontrollably.
Her heart was filled with pain for Ji Hanyu, along with the longing and guilt for their child.
Ji Hanyu just quietly held Bai Haoxue, gently patting her back.
How could his heart not also be filled with pain for Bai Haoxue and the longing and guilt for their child?
