When Su Xiaofei woke up, it was already past noon and her husband was nowhere to be seen. Not that she found it unusual, since she had no doubt Lu Qingfeng was working again. She went to the washroom and freshened up, then glanced at her reflection in the mirror.
She had never thought she would find herself in the same situation again. Not only did she find herself pregnant, but she was also poisoned by the same one that killed her in her past life. Su Xiaofei found it unfair, thinking how twisted her fate was.
Four days ago, she woke up with a really bad cramp and realized that she was bleeding. She checked the calendar and saw that she was two weeks delayed from her expected monthly period. Su Xiaofei didn't think much about it since there were times that she would miss her period entirely or it would come a little later than usual.
However, as her day progressed, the pain started to become more intense. This was far from the menstrual cramps she usually had and she considered the possibility of her being pregnant.
Was this the price for trying to change the course of her life, avoiding the misdeeds she had done in her previous life? Was this some kind of punishment for being selfish, for loving Lu Qingfeng with all that she had, that she had to lose her child again in order for her to survive?
No. This can't be. She refused to experience that empty, hollow feeling inside her ever again. Su Xiaofei didn't know how she managed to leave the hospital with a sane mind days ago. It killed her to know that the little life she created with Lu Qingfeng would need to die for her sake.
'No! This can't be happening to me again!' She screamed in her mind.
She was so afraid, and she didn't know how to break the news to her husband. Su Xiaofei assumed that Lu Qingfeng would agree with Han Zijun's suggestion to terminate the pregnancy so she could get treated by him. But how could Su Xiaofei allow that to happen? She would rather die than to let her child be taken away from her for the second time.
'Is it because I've done too many bad things in my life that the heavens decided to treat me this way?'
Su Xiaofei allowed herself to cry this time. She didn't cry often, even during her toughest times. It was truly rare for her to break down like this. But finding out that she had to lose her child again made her cry painfully. It seemed that no matter how she lived her life in this lifetime, she was still destined to be killed by Ye Mingyu.
Once she calmed down, she washed her face for the second time and decided to find her husband. She went to the study and didn't find him there, which she found weird. Was Lu Qingfeng not home? She wondered.
She went back to their room and checked her phone for any messages he might have sent, but there was none. Where could her husband possibly be at this time?
"Do you know where A-Feng has gone?" She asked Zhang Ling when she found her assistant, lounging in the living area and conversing with her elder sister, Zhang Lan.
"I'm afraid not, Madam." Zhang Lan answered instead of her sister. "He went out in a hurry an hour ago. Should I give Mr. Nine a call to ask their whereabouts?"
Su Xiaofei shook her head, ignoring the confused look on the Zhang siblings' faces.
"No, there's no need for that." She replied. It was rare for her assistants to have a break like this and she'd rather not ruin their day.
Instead, she went to the kitchen and requested a late lunch. With her mother gone and her husband not around, Su Xiaofei realized that she didn't like being alone. It's been a very long time since she felt this kind of loneliness and uncertainty.
After her meal, she decided to finish some work while waiting for her husband's return. It must have been something really urgent if Lu Qingfeng had to leave in a hurry and not notify her of his whereabouts.
'It's not like you are being completely honest with him too.' She reminded herself.
She unconsciously rubbed her flat stomach, the thought of hurting her husband and losing her child was tearing her apart.
But how was she supposed to share the news with her husband if she knew that it would break him? Lu Qingfeng had experienced enough trauma in his life and she didn't want to hurt him more.
Night came, but Lu Qingfeng has yet to return home. Su Xiaofei ate her dinner alone, but she didn't have any appetite to finish it. She gave Xi Qian a call, but she couldn't reach her best friend either. Was there something she was missing? Even Lu Qingfeng wasn't picking up her phone call.
She retired for the night, hoping that her husband would be home soon, especially now that she was dealing with something so serious. Su Xiaofei knew she needed to inform her husband eventually and they needed to make a choice very soon.
Su Xiaofei wept silently on their bed until she fell asleep, with her last thoughts on how unfair the fates were to her and Lu Qingfeng.
An hour later, the door of their bedroom opened, revealing her drunk husband, looking disheveled and uneasy at the same time. He looked at his sleeping wife and almost broke into tears but didn't. He allowed himself to slump on the cold floor, running his fingers through his already messy hair.
Su Xiaofei stirred on their bed, slightly rousing from her slumber. She cracked her eyes open and looked up, then her eyes shifted around their room, finding her husband on the floor. She sat up and their eyes met. There were no words needed to explain what was going on.
"You knew..."
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