The need they felt for each other was palpable and Xiao Rufeng wondered if Yan Xiuchen was going to take back his words, but as his lips continued to claim hers, tongue sweeping inside her mouth, fighting for domination, she knew she really had it bad for him.
Other women would have fled the moment they'd seen his face, but she didn't. Xiao Rufeng wasn't one to believe in love at first sight. Heck, she refused to believe in love after her fall-out with Jin Qiu, yet the moment she had seen Yan Xiuchen's scarred face, something about him drew her to him.
He was so different from all the men she'd ever met and dated. Yan Xiuchen fascinated her in a way that made her think of him more these days. She must be really losing her mind if she found his scars attractive and hot at the same time.
It didn't matter to her if he was scarred and broken. She would have him regardless. Xiao Rufeng knew that it wasn't her job to fix him, but she was willing to help him see that there was more to life than lurking in the background, denying himself the happiness he deserved.
Their kiss was a bit sloppy and awkward due to Yan Xiuchen's inexperience, but Xiao Rufeng noticed that he was quite a fast learner. Her pulse fluttered with excitement at the thought of Yan Xiuchen wanting her as much as she wanted him.
Suddenly, she found herself burning, in need of him. She wanted him to push her down on this very couch and ravage her, claim her as his. She was so engrossed in their kiss that she didn't notice that she had moved over his lap and straddled him.
Yan Xiuchen stiffened, but didn't pull away. His kisses started to slow down and became more gentle, while his hands rested on her hips as they continued their kiss until he eventually pulled away. His eyes were a bit dazed when he looked at her.
Xiao Rufeng heaved a deep breath and rested her forehead on his shoulder, trying to hide the intense redness on her face. Yan Xiuchen must have realized the awkward position they were in now, but didn't push her away. She felt his hands move from her hips to her back and slowly rubbed it in circles. She could feel his chin resting on top of her head as he held her close.
"You aren't going to take back your words, are you?" She asked.
She didn't have the courage to look at his face, fearing what she would see in his eyes. Before he arrived, she'd been pondering how to confront him about what they had, afraid that he would reject her.
When she remembered the first kiss they had prior to this, Xiao Rufeng thought that he would use it as an excuse to touch her, kiss her unbridled, but none of it happened as Yan Xiuchen would always keep her at arm's length whenever they were together. It frustrated her and made her yearn for him at the same time.
There were times when she would shamelessly dream of kissing him for hours. Nothing else than losing themselves in each other's company, exploring each other's lips, not caring even if the world burned around them.
"I won't. I'll be with you for as long as you want me." Yan Xiuchen replied.
A smile curved her mouth.
"Then you are bound to stay with me for a very long time." She giggled.
Yes. She wanted him. Wanted to be with him. Whether she would regret this decision or not, she would leave it to the sober Xiao Rufeng in the future to deal with.
He chuckled, amused at her words. He could see that she wasn't repulsed by his horrendous scars, in fact she hadn't backed away and was eager to touch them.
"Sounds like a plan to me."
Xiao Rufeng sighed and parted from him. She found Yan Xiuchen watching her cautiously, his eyes never leaving her. She realized that she wasn't the only one who was afraid of this sudden change in their relationship.
"I'm new to this." Yan Xiuchen started, admitting his lack of experience in terms of relationships and intimacy. "You will have to forgive me if I do things that may upset you, but I will do my best."
Xiao Rufeng said nothing and looked at their intertwined hands. His hand was larger than hers, and it felt warm and comforting. While her entirety was rejecting another man's touch on her, she was eager for Yan Xiuchen to put his hands on her.
'Ridiculous.' She mocked herself, but then she realized that Yan Xiuchen had been waiting for her response.
"I really don't mind being with you." She repeated. "Do you trust me?"
Yan Xiuchen didn't respond immediately, but he nodded his head shortly, much to her relief. Xiao Rufeng knew that this wasn't easy for him, that he was practically stepping out of his comfort zone to be on the same page as her.
"I've already declined the invitation to attend my dad's birthday party." She told him. "But Dad insisted for me to have dinner with them before the event."
She lifted her gaze and observed him warily. "Do you want to come with me?"
She knew that the thought of them being seen in public was still putting Yan Xiuchen ill at ease, but if they were going to pursue a relationship with each other, Xiao Rufeng wanted him to get to know her better.
"So, just us and your family?" He asked.
"I suppose so, but Jin Qiu might be there. I know Xiao Yunyao wouldn't miss the chance to rub her engagement in my face at any given chance." She chuckled.
Yan Xiuchen's expression hardened. Being reminded that Xiao Yunyao would be there, there was no way he would allow Xiao Rufeng to be bullied again by her sister.
"Alright. I'll come with you."
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