There was a knock on her door and Bai Qingyue lifted her head up to see who it was. Her agency and her manager didn't have any idea of what had happened, and surely no one would come to see her. Not even her husband.
"Come in." She said, and the person stepped inside at once.
Bai Qingyue would have never guessed that the person who came to see her was her ex-lover. The father of her child, Qiao Fengying, whom she hadn't seen or talked to since their break-up.
"What are you doing here?" She frowned, disliking how vulnerable she looked right now.
Qiao Fengying remained standing at a safe distance from her. After not seeing her for so many years, he was oddly at peace now. Perhaps it would have been a different matter if he hadn't found out that Su Xiaofei was actually the daughter he was frantically searching for. He might still hate her till this day if that was the case.
"I heard what happened from Feifei. I just came here to thank you."
Bai Qingyue blinked twice and looked at him confusedly, wondering if she had heard him right.
"Yes, I'm thanking you on Feifei's behalf. I know why you did it, and we're forever grateful for what you did for her."
The actress scoffed at that and looked away.
"It doesn't seem like your daughter shares the same sentiments as you."
"That's because you lied to her. You are always like this, Lan Xi. You always say the wrong things instead of making things right." Qiao Fengying furrowed his brows, clearly displeased with her.
Bai Qingyue shot him a glare. She hadn't been called by that name for a long time, but she didn't dare to correct Qiao Fengying.
"What is it about you and your son-in-law accusing me of lying? What if I only did it because I want to get rid of her from my life for good?" She challenged him.
Qiao Fengying sighed and went to stand next to the window of her hospital room, seeing that the sun was already high up in the sky. He remained silent as he reminisced about the past.
"If you didn't care about Xiaofei, then why do you have such a pitiful expression on your face?" He finally said after a long silence between them.
"I do not!" The actress exclaimed in rage. Did Qiao Fengying come here to argue with her or what?
"You aren't the only one to blame, Lan Xi. I know you wouldn't have to abandon Xiaofei if only I was a man you could rely on during those times. I know now that you did what you tought was best for the three of us, albeit I still don't approve of it."
Bai Qingyue remained silent and didn't dare to meet his eyes.
"I know you volunteered to donate for Xiaofei's sake. If she were to lose Yun Qingrong, you know what would happen to her, and you want to avoid that. So, please stop pretending that you didn't care about her or that you hate her when you don't. You wouldn't have chosen to give birth to her and leave her at the orphanage if you don't feel anything for her."
"It still doesn't change the fact that I robbed you and her of the chance of being together as a family." Bai Qingyue replied. "I wouldn't be able to give back the lost time for the two of you, and I won't be able to be the mother she needed."
"So you really don't hate her."
"Hate her?" The actress snapped her head to look at him, her eyes pooling with tears once more. "How could I hate her? Could you?"
Qiao Fengying pressed his lips into a thin line. Of course, he couldn't. That was his daughter, alright!
"I gave birth to her, yes, but I left her at that horrible place. Do you know how much I regretted it? Do you know how hard I tried to find her, only to be told that she was gone? It almost drove me insane. She was so small that she barely fit my arms when I held her the first time."
By now, she was a crying mess as she remembered those times. She would sneak out of her filming sets to find the traces of where her daughter could be, but she would always come back empty-handed.
"And then one day she showed up in front of me, smiling, looking at me like she could see past my facade. I must have been insane to think that she was my daughter, and I have kept an eye on her since then. I went to see her during her university entrance examinations, I even went to her graduation ceremony, looking at her smiling face as she walked up to the stage. Su Xiaofei… this young lady… I don't know what kind of feelings she instilled upon me that I couldn't stop thinking of her since I met her."
Qiao Fengying looked at her in shock. He couldn't believe that she'd been paying attention to Su Xiaofei for years now. The more shocking was the fact that Su Xiaofei might have known Bai Qingyue was her mother even before he found her.
"And then when I saw her wedding photos at Mo Yuchen's office, with you posing with her and her husband in a photo, I knew then that she's mine. I came to see her, but I didn't expect that she would lash out at me like that." Bai Qingyue laughed at herself. She should have known that Su Xiaofei wouldn't treat her kindly after what she had done to her.
"I knew right then and there that I could do something for her, and it didn't matter what she thinks of me after all of this. Of course, I don't hate her. I only want her to move on with her life and forget that she has a useless mother like me. She needs Yun Qingrong. That's the least I could give her."
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