Chapter 802: Chapter 803 – Top Hat – Part 18.
<<I don’t think I was sane.... Or even in control at that point.>>
<<Every single soldier of the New London that was present there.... I just killed them.>>
<<I’ve ripped apart their bodies.>>
<<Their organs.>>
<<Their limbs.>>
<<It was everywhere.>>
<<Heck, I didn’t even thought when I was grabbing and throwing their helicopters or when I.... I ripped out the blades of the aircraft and used them to cut apart the people that were running away.>>
<<Nobody escaped.>>
<<Even when their helicopters took to the skies, I’ve hunted them down.>>
<<I’ve destroyed everything....>>
<<...>>
<<When I finally somewhat regained my mind... I was standing on top of their remains.>>
<<Not like corpses.... No... What I did to them didn’t left any "corpses".>>
<<...And... I saw the corpses of the refugees.>>
<<I wished that it was nothing more than a bad dream.... But it wasn’t.>>
<<This was... Beyond sudden.>>
<<We just left them for one moment.... ONE FUCKING MOMENT!>>
<<AND THE EXACT MOMENT, WE HAD LEFT THEM, WE FIND THEM DEAD!?>>
<<ALL OF THEM?!>>
<<IS THIS SOME KIND OF JOKE!?>>
<<IT HAS TO BE A ONE!>>
<<I mean.... I mean....This was...>>
<<Way too sudden....>>
<<...>>
<<It was the same.>>
<<It was the FUCKING REPEAT AGAIN!>>
<<FOR THE THIRD FUCKING TIME!>>
<<First it was my kidnapping.... Then it was the Red Dragon’s rampage.... And now.... And now THIS?!>>
<<WHAT KIND OF POORLY WRITEN STORY IS THIS!?>>
<<THIS WAS THE THIRD TIME!>>
<<THIRD FUCKING TIME!>>
<<THIRD MOTHERFUCKING TIME!>>
<<ALL OF THE SUDDEN! MY WORLD FUCKING SHATTERED FOR THE THIRD FUCKING TIME!>>
<<....>>
<<Why?>>
<<Why?>>
<<WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?>>
<<WHY?!>>
<<WHAT DID I EVER DONE TO DESERVE THIS?!>>
<<WHAT DID THESE PEOPLE DID TO DESERVE THIS?!>>
<<WHAT ABOUT THE VICTIMS WHO WERE TURNED INTO RED MONSTERS?!>>
<<OR THE PEOPLE OF THE OLD LONDON!?>>
<<WHAT DID THEY EVER DID TO DESERVE ANY OF THIS?!>>
<<NOTHING MAKES SENSE!>>
<<IS THIS EVEN FUCKING REAL?!>>
<<HOW IS THIS REAL?!>>
<<WHERE IS THE FUCKING LOGIC IN THAT?!>>
<<THE ANSWER!?>>
<<FUCKING NON!>>
<<THERE IS NOTHING IN THAT!>>
<<NOTHING!>>
<<FUCKING NOTHING!>>
<<...>>
<<Just.... Why?>>
<<That is the only question I’m asking.... Why everything is happening right now?>>
<<And why is it happening so suddenly one after another?>>
<<I didn’t even had time to grief before this happened.... Why?>>
<<Time.... I wanted at least some time.... To grief... To cry.... But....>>
<<Why?>>
<<...>>
<<I.... I’ve should had cried back then.... I’ve should had fucking cried....>>
<<But... I broke.>>
<<Again.... I fucking broke FUCKING AGAIN!>>
<<I FINALY STARTED REGAINING MYSELF!>>
<<THE REASON WHY I WANTED TO SAVE THESE PEOPLE!?>>
<<I WANTED THEM TO NOT SUFFER THE SAME FATE AS ME!>>
<<BUT I WAS ALSO USING THEM!>>>
<<Excuse.>>
<<That was it....>>
<<I just wanted an excuse... I just wanted a fucking excuse to somehow be a "human" again.>>
<<I wanted to be normal again!>>
<<I hate this body.>>
<<I despise it.>>
<<No mutations?>>
<<No changes?>>
<<LIES!>>
<<I ONLY LOOKED HUMAN!>>
<<THE ONLY THING THAT WAS INTACT WAS MY MIND?!>>
<<BUT NOW!?>>
<<NOW IT WAS FUCKING GONE!>>
"Ha.....Haha.....HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!"
The woman laughed as she gave into the madness.
It was a pure breaking point for Lucy at this point.
Lost and after lost.
Despair after despair
The woman didn’t cried.
She just screamed and laughed as the madness and despair was mocking her.
"New London?!"
"Old London?!"
"I DON’T GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE!"
"ALL OF YOU ARE MURDERS!"
"YOU KILLED THE FUCKING INNOCENT PEOPLE!"
"AND I’VE FUCKING HELPED YOU WITH THAT!"
"I FUCKING DIDN’T DONE ANYTHING! FUCKING ANYTHING!" – shouted Lucy as she started smashing her head against the ground, over and over again.
"MURDERS!"
"EVERYWHERE!"
"INNOCENTS?! WHERE?! IS THERE ANYBODY LEFT!"
"NON!"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
As the woman madness screamed, her mind was warping....But it wasn’t pure madness or despair... No.
The bloodlust.
The hatred, the rage, the lament... It was giving birth to the bloodlust from within the woman that it was straight up changing her from inside.
However, something wasn’t right either.
"I will kill them all."
The moment those words were spoken, an unholy amount of bloodlust was released from the woman’s body.
But it wasn’t just large amount of it.
No.
It was an amount that should not be physically possible for a human.... No.
For any living being to ever release.
The entire area around her was just getting corrupted by her sheer and pure bloodlust.
And it wasn’t just area around her.
The entire territory where the massacre took place, the entire road and some more distance was completely devoured by that bloodlust.
Any living being that even came remotely to contact with it, be it a small animal or a bird flying by, they were instantly knocked unconscious.... As if they were "killed" by that bloodlust.
But it wasn’t just any living beings that came in contact with that bloodlust that had felt it.
Every single one of the Red monsters out there, every single creature that carries the blood of the Red Man had felt it, even the Red Dragon.
That "Monster".
...
Honestly?
It was bit funny.
The Red Dragon.
The researchers called it that because of the scales that were covering its body.... But later on, it ended up becoming the monster known as the Red Dragon.
And Lucy?
She was called the Red Woman.
Why?
Because she was their best test subject.
A subject that was able to perfectly handle the blood of the Red Man.
A human that was able to conquer the blood of the god.
However, she couldn’t use it.
Or more exactly, couldn’t truly bring out the full potential of her new found divine power.
Because she still had her "humanity".
But now?
When she finally snapped?
Her humanity was no longer able to suppress it, causing the bloodlust to spill out from her body... Which began the transformation.
This unholy bloodlust corrupted the entire land around her, devouring everything and "murdering" anything it came across.
Animals, insects and even grass.
Everything was "murdered".
...
And then there was a silence.
The bloodlust... It was gone.
It didn’t even took a second, but the entire bloodlust disappeared, leaving only those marks of corruption.
Why?
The reason was simple.
Lucy finished her "molding".
Her body was no longer that of a human.
No.
It was a divine body crafted by the blood of the Red Man.
She looked exactly the same... But she was not.
She could no longer be called a "human".
She became what these researches wanted.
The new Red Man.
The Red Woman.
"..."
"Slaughter.... Huh?" – said Lucy to herself as after opening her eyes, a change occurred to them turning them from their jewel like green, to the crimson red.
"I guess that was the only answer from the start... Eh?"
"..."
<<After that bloodlust of mine went somewhat silence... I realized it.>>
<<That I could no longer be truly called human.>>
<<I don’t even knew myself what I was truly.... But I knew one thing.>>
<<Murder.>>
<<This was the only thing left for me.>>
<<The only path.... And the only thing that the monster like me could do.>>
<<...>>
<<But still.... At that time.... I still had some humanity left in me.>>
<<I’ve buried the corpse of the refugees... One after another, creating a graveyard for them in their name.>>
<<I couldn’t protect anybody.... Nor I could make any graves for those who had been turned into the monsters or those who died when the Red Dragon went loose....>>
<<But this time I was able to least bury the dead with some dignity....>>
<<...>>
<<Still... I could had saved them.>>
<<If we acted sooner.... Hell, I didn’t even knew myself that I was THAT strong.... Was I holding back all this time without knowing?>>
<<Because I was trying to stay human?>>
<<Then.... I could had saved... It wasn’t "IF", I had the ability.>>
<<Again.... I was nothing more than murdered than killed them all.... And there was no denning that.>>
<<Even this brat.... Jack....>>
<<He was fucking murdered like some kind of animal!>>
<<He wasn’t given a "human" death!>>
<<He was just a child!>>
<<A CHILD FOR FUCK’S SAKE!>>
<<THEY JUST KILLED EVERYBODY WITHOUT HESITUATION?!>>
<<...>>
<<I wanted that bastard smile.>>
<<He was always smiling, I know that.... But I wanted him to have the real smile.>>
<<The one without any hint of fear.>>
<<But I’ve failed him.>>
<<"Lucy" has failed him.>>
<<...>>
<<No.>>
<<Lucy is no more now.>>
<<I’m just a thing.>>
<<Lucy has died alongside these refugees.>>
<<That is the truth.>>
<<The only thing that was left was a monster with no name of its own.>>
<<...I don’t want the name.... I don’t want it all.>>
<<But.... At the same time.... I can’t forget it.>>
<<That I’m the reason why everybody has died.>>
<<...>>
<<Jack.>>
<<The only thing that I have left of him is that stupid hat of his.... A stupid hat that was too big for him.>>
<<...>>
<<Then let it be a reminder.>>
<<This hat shall be my curse.>>
<<I won’t discard it or destroy it.... No.>>
<<It will remind me of what I’m.>>
<<A monster.>>
<<This hat will be a curse, that will tell me what I’m.>>
<<And.... To remember what I had done.... I will use his name.>>
<<Jack.>>
<<The name of the victim that I had murdered.>>
<<I will use his name as a reminder... That I was the one that killed him.>>
<<That I’ve murdered all of those innocent people.>>
<<I’m a murder and the monster.>>
<<That what I was.>>
<<And that is what I will become to this world.>>
<<If there are truly no innocent people left in this world, then let it burn.>>
<<For I’m the monster, a slaughterer.>>
<<And my name is Jack.>>
<<The monster that stole the name of the victim that I’ve had murdered.>>
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