Chapter 94: Chapter 93: Exhausted
The subway platform was crowded with evening commuters. Aria found a spot against a pillar and waited for her train, her mind numb with exhaustion.
Her phone buzzed. Marcus.
How was day one? You alive?
She typed back: Barely. Completely exhausted. Failed spectacularly in a board meeting. Had to stay late to fix it. But I survived.
His response came immediately: That’s my girl. Knew you could handle it. Get some rest. Tomorrow will be easier.
She hoped he was right.
The train arrived and Aria found a seat, grateful to finally sit down without a computer in front of her. She leaned her head against the window and watched the city blur past.
Her reflection stared back at her. Pale. Hollow-eyed. Exhausted.
But there was something else there too. Determination. Pride, even.
She’d survived her first day at Blackwood Enterprises. She’d made mistakes, but she’d corrected them. She’d been humiliated, but she’d endured it. She’d been pushed to her limit, but she hadn’t broken.
Tomorrow, she’d do better. Tomorrow, she’d anticipate his needs before he asked. Tomorrow, she’d prove she could handle this.
Her phone buzzed again. Her mother this time.
Are you on your way home? I made dinner. You need to eat properly.
On the subway now. Be home in 30 minutes. Thank you, Mama.
I’m proud of you, baby girl. Whatever happened today, I’m proud of you for not giving up.
Tears burned behind Aria’s eyes. She blinked them back.
I love you, Mama.
Love you too. See you soon.
Thirty minutes later, Aria dragged herself up the stairs to her mother’s apartment. Every step felt like climbing a mountain.
Mei opened the door before Aria could find her keys, her face creasing with concern the moment she saw her daughter.
"Oh, Aria. You look...."
"Exhausted. I know." Aria stepped inside, dropping her bag by the door. "It was....it was a lot."
"Come. Sit. I made your favorite....chicken soup and rice. You need real food."
Aria sat at the small kitchen table while Mei bustled around, serving up steaming bowls of soup. The familiar, comforting smell made Aria’s eyes water.
"Tell me about it," Mei said, sitting across from her. "Everything."
So Aria did. Told her about the intimidating office, the glass walls, the impossible deadlines. About failing in the board meeting and having to stay late as punishment. About Damien’s coldness and the brief moments of warmth.
"He’s testing you," Mei said when Aria finished. "Pushing you to see if you’ll break. To see if you’re serious about earning his trust back."
"I know. And I understand why. But Mama...." Aria’s voice cracked. "It’s so hard. Being so close to him but having him be so distant. Seeing him every moment but not being able to touch him. Working for him but not being with him."
"That’s the price you’re paying. For the betrayal. For the lies." Mei reached across the table, took Aria’s hand. "But baby girl, you survived day one. That’s what matters. You didn’t quit. You didn’t run. You stayed and fought. That’s strength."
"I don’t feel strong. I feel like I’m barely holding on."
"Strong people often do." Mei squeezed her hand. "Now eat. You need your strength for tomorrow."
Aria ate, the warm food helping to settle her stomach, to ease some of the exhaustion. Her mother watched her with those knowing eyes.
"Are you going to be okay doing this?" Mei asked quietly. "Every day? For however long it takes?"
Aria thought about the glass walls. The constant supervision. The impossible standards. The cold professionalism masking the love she knew was still there, buried deep beneath his hurt and anger.
"I have to be," she finally said. "Because the alternative is losing him forever. And I can’t....I can’t survive that."
"Then you’ll find a way to survive this instead." Mei stood, started clearing the dishes. "Go shower. Get some sleep. Tomorrow you’ll do better."
"How do you know?"
"Because you’re my daughter. And Chen women don’t give up."
At 9:30 PM, Aria finally collapsed into bed, every muscle aching, her mind still spinning with the events of the day.
She set her alarm for 5 AM. Six and a half hours of sleep if she fell asleep right now.
She pulled out her phone one last time, opened her messages.
No texts from Damien. Not that she’d expected any. At work, he was her boss. Period.
But her fingers hovered over the keyboard anyway, wanting to say something. Wanting to bridge the gap between the professional coldness and the personal connection they’d once had.
She typed: Thank you for giving me this chance. I won’t let you down.
Stared at it.
Deleted it.
He didn’t want her gratitude. He wanted results.
Instead, she set the phone aside and closed her eyes.
Her last thought before exhaustion pulled her under was of his face when he’d said, You did well today.
Not warm. Not loving. But not completely cold either.
It was something. A crack in the ice. A glimmer of hope.
Tomorrow, she’d widen that crack. Tomorrow, she’d prove herself a little more. Tomorrow, she’d take another step toward earning back what she’d destroyed.
One day at a time. One task at a time. One moment at a time.
That’s how she’d survive this. That’s how she’d prove she was worth the risk.
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DAMIEN’S POV
Damien sat in his study at home, a glass of scotch in his hand, staring at nothing.
It was past 10 PM. He’d left the office an hour after Aria, needing the drive home to decompress, to process the day.
Her first day.
He’d pushed her hard. Harder than necessary, maybe. The ninety-minute deadline for the board briefing had been deliberately impossible. The punishment of staying late had been calculated to test her commitment.
He’d wanted to see if she’d break. If she’d quit. If she’d prove that her promise to do "whatever it takes" was just empty words.
She hadn’t broken.
She’d struggled, yes. Failed the first task, yes. But she’d corrected it. Stayed late without complaint. Redone the work to his exacting standards.
And when he’d seen her at 8 PM, swaying with exhaustion, her face pale and drawn, something in his chest had cracked.
She was destroying herself for this. For him. For the chance to earn back his trust.
Just like he’d been destroying himself for the past month.
They were both idiots. Both so damaged they didn’t know how to do this any way except the hard way.
He pulled out his phone, looked at her contact.
Wanted to text her. Something. Anything. You did well today. I’m proud of you. I know this is hard. I’m sorry for being so cold.
But he didn’t.
Because this was the deal. Professional at work. Personal when he decided. And he wasn’t ready for personal yet.
Wasn’t ready to let down his guard and risk being hurt again.
So he’d keep pushing her. Keep testing her. Keep watching her through those glass walls to make sure she wasn’t hiding anything.
Until one day....maybe....he’d be able to trust her again.
Until one day....maybe.....he’d be able to love her without fear.
But not yet.
Not yet.
He set his phone down and took a long drink of scotch.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow he’d push her again. Test her again. See how much she could handle.
And she’d endure it. He knew she would. Because she’d promised.
Whatever it takes.
He just hoped they both survived the process.
