Chapter 76: WAKE UP!!!
š¦ALTHEA
"I sent them to destroy those who stood in your way. To free the ones who suffered like we did. It was all I could do."
The moths swirled around her, glowing faintly.
"But that time is gone."
She stopped pacing. Stood perfectly still. And when she spoke again, her voice was cold. Certain. Final.
"Iām gaining my strength. The wolfsbane no longer taints meānot like before. And another mate has been found." Her eyes found mine. "A true mate. One who didnāt reject us. One who wants us. Even if he doesnāt want to."
The air began to shimmer with power.
"So I will come, Althea. I will rise. I will return and take back every pint of blood weāve lost. Every drop of dignity they stole. Every scream they silenced."
Fear spiked through me. "You canātā"
"I can. I will." She stepped toward me, and the moths followed like a trailing shadow. "And you will help me."
"I donāt want revengeā"
"LIAR." The word cracked like a whip because it was tender, too knowing to deny. "You want it so badly it burns. I feel it. Every time Morganaās face flashes through your mind. Every time you remember Yanaās smile as she died. Every time you think of Dravenās hands on you, his rejection, his cruelty."
She was right in front of me now, her massive head level with mine.
"You want them to suffer."
"Iā" My voice broke. "I donāt want to becomeā"
"A monster?" She tilted her head. "We already are. They made us one. The only question is whether weāll be a monster who diesā"
Her eyes blazed.
"āor one who makes them pay."
I wanted to argue and to say I was better than this. That violence would only breed more violence. That Yana wouldnāt wantā
But the wolfās eyes held mine, trapping my gaze, as she read my soul without speaking a word out loud. She knew I was not yet ready to face what we both knew: that we both shared the same dreams, the same nightmares.
"Burn it," she said softly. "Every bit of goodness in your soul. Every mercy. Every hesitation. Burn it all."
My stomach dropped fast. "What?"
"You must." She pressed her forehead against mine, and I felt itāthe connection. The bond between us. Between wolf and human. Between rage and grief. Between what we were and what weād become.
"Rip out your own heart if you have to," she whispered. "Because when I riseāwhen we mergeāno one will be spared."
Her voice hardened.
"Not Morgana. Not the High Alpha. Not Draven."
She pulled back, her eyes boring into mine. "Not even the innocents who stood by and watched."
"Thatāsā" Horror choked me. "Thatās genocide."
"No." Her smile was terrible. Wolves donāt smile. She was not a wolf. "Thatās justice."
The wolf turned back to the pup. For a long moment, she just stared at it. Then, with infinite gentleness, she lowered her head and carefullyāso carefullyālifted the tiny body in her jaws. She carried it to me and placed it in my arms.
The weight felt so wrong, so light; it barely weighed anything. Yet, I cradled it anyway, my hands trembling as I looked down at the small gray form.
Our child.
The one weād never meet. Never hold while it breathed. Never watch grow. It had inherited the hate and the brutality.
"This is all we get," the wolf said softly, her voice raw. "This moment. This grief. This knowing."
Tears fell onto the pupās fur.
"In the waking world, theyāll take even this from us. Youāll never hold it and never see it. There will not be any goodbyes."
My chest cracked open.
"So say it now," she whispered. "While you still can."
I looked down at the pupāat the child that would have had my eyes, at the future that had been stolenāand something inside me broke.
"Iām sorry," I whispered to the still form. "Iām so sorry I couldnāt protect you. Iām sorry youāll neverā" My voice shattered.
The wolf pressed her head against my shoulder.
"We tried," she said quietly. "We tried so hard. But they wouldnāt let us have even this."
I held the pup closer, memorizing the weight, the softness, the reality of what weād lost. Then, gently, the wolf took it back. She laid it down in the grass. And when she looked at me again, the grief was still there, yet beneath it, rage simmered, hot and boiling over.
"Not Morgana. Not the High Alpha. Not Draven," she said, her voice hardening. "Not even the innocents who stood by and watched."
Then she tilted her head back and howled, loud and high enough to pierce my eardrums. It wasnāt like any wolf Iād ever heard. It was higherāpainful, sharp, a sound that split the air like a blade through silk. A scream and a howl wrapped into one, tearing through reality itself.
The sound shattered everything.
The trees splintered, bark exploding outward. The ground cracked open, jagged lines racing through the earth. The sky fractured like glass, pieces falling away into the void.
I clapped my hands over my ears, squeezing my eyes shut, but the sound was inside me, ripping through my very soul.
Wake up, wake up, wake upā
When I opened my eyes, it wasnāt the forest anymore. My heart stuttered in my chest as the world I knew rearranged itself into something horrible. I had seen it before, in another nightmare. I looked down, shaking, my legs barely holding me up, to see that I was standing in a fresh pool of crimson. I was standing in someoneās blood.
I jumped and stepped on something soft yet hard; it was not solid ground. I screamed as I stared down at the amputated tail, still oozing blood.
I stepped away, and back. Bile rose fast in my throatātoo fast to stop it. I doubled over and vomited, but there was nothing in my stomach; I could do nothing but hack, my throat burning and my eyes watering.
This had to be a nightmare. It had to be. I screamed at myself. I just needed to wake up. This would all be overāI just had to snap out of this place.
WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!
But nothing happened. Yet again, I found myself in a cage that I could not escape.