Chapter 1163: Chapter 357: 3D Experience
Chapter 357: 3D Experience
(Sorry, the kindergarten is on holiday, so I spent some time playing with my child and went out to gather information about primary school registration. There will be only one update today, and no more later.)
Li Yan just let Yue Yao sit with him for a while, but it was apparent that he didn’t want to talk about that person from earlier and seemed uninterested in conversation. Therefore, Yue Yao quietly accompanied him without asking much, allowing him some peace.
After a while, the tea had already cooled, and Yue Yao got up to make a new pot, pouring him another cup.
"Why don’t you ask me?" Li Yan looked up at her.
Yue Yao gently shook her head, "If you want to tell me, you will naturally bring it up. If you don’t want to say it, asking you would only upset you more."
Considerate!
Yue Yao was just too considerate, perhaps knowing him too well. But for Li Yan, sometimes he wanted a different experience. For instance, if it were Yu Xiaodi, even knowing it wasn’t appropriate to ask, she might find some topic to lighten Li Yan’s mood with her youthful energy.
Yue Yao brought the teacup back to him.
Staring at the porcelain cup in her plain hand, Li Yan suddenly felt at peace. He gained a new understanding—Yue Yao was Yue Yao; she just needed to be herself without comparison to others. He shouldn’t compare her personality with others’.
For this girl, who could make him open his heart in quiet moments, Li Yan didn’t hide his feelings as he usually did but prepared to share them earnestly!
Those memories, those matters, had been piling in his life for too long, becoming issues that, even if suppressed, had severe lingering consequences. With the opportunity from the Heart Demon’s aftermath leading to his fainting and the chance to wake up, he decided to confront them seriously—Yes, before waking up, he had faced past scenes again, but it wasn’t a conscious choice.
Only by confronting and facing them could he resolve and let them go! Avoidance would only make it more terrifying...
Li Yan took the tea, holding Yue Yao’s hand with the other. Then he placed the teacup on the table, gesturing for Yue Yao to sit closer.
"The person in this world who knows and understands me the most is you..."
Upon hearing Li Yan’s sigh, Yue Yao felt a wonderful feeling, as if they were connected as one. It was undoubtedly significant affirmation to hear him say so.
"Of course, it’s not that you love to pry. In fact, the opposite is true; it’s just because you’ve been with me for so long and are focused on me. But some things, without asking or saying, even to you, are difficult to understand. For example, my relationship with Yi Xuan and Guan Ziyi..."
As he mentioned it, Yue Yao couldn’t remain unresponsive, nodding and saying, "Like that person just now."
Li Yan nodded, "I’ve told you about the matters with them before, including the leader... But there are some personal things I haven’t revealed."
Yue Yao nodded, thinking that anything he was reluctant to discuss must not be ordinary. She wanted to say, ’If it’s inconvenient, then don’t say it. I don’t need to know.’ But then she thought, wasn’t he now trying to speak up? Encouraging him to talk might make him feel more comfortable!
"That’s because... I used to make myself forget those days, pretending they never happened. Over time, I was even afraid to face them. Now, thinking about it, I’ve avoided it long enough, and maybe it’s time to talk about it." Li Yan took a sip of tea and slowly said, "I’ve always treated you differently from ’them’ because you were trained by me, brought out by me..."
Yue Yao nodded silently. Wasn’t that precisely why she felt differently toward him as well?
"Do you know why after completing a few missions, I had you assist me in managing ’them’?" Li Yan asked.
Yue Yao smiled slightly, "Because I’m yours and would never betray or threaten you."
Li Yan shook his head.
"...?" Yue Yao was a little surprised.
"Although you were my confidant, both a mentor and a friend, whom I knew wouldn’t betray me and whom I could trust absolutely... What truly made me decide to transition you to the background was because... you were trained by me!"
Yue Yao’s eyes widened slightly, looking at him in a little confusion. Didn’t this return to what was said before? Wasn’t the meaning the same?
Li Yan knew her doubts and shook his head again before saying something slightly unpleasant, "Because you were trained by me, I know your weaknesses, that missions would be perilous for you, and I feared for your safety, so I didn’t let you continue with field missions for training!"
So that’s why! Yue Yao chuckled lightly, "So it’s because my abilities were lacking, but it doesn’t matter. I won’t feel disheartened, especially now. I’m even happier! Because... it wasn’t just because you could trust me to manage, but because you wanted to protect me."
Li Yan didn’t hold back, nodding, and asked again, "Do you know why I said you had weaknesses and would be in danger?"
Yue Yao blushed slightly, "Because my physical condition is poor, I can’t compare to you, and my endurance and understanding aren’t as good either..."
"Don’t belittle yourself, it’s not your fault. Actually, it’s... because I held something back!"
"...!"
Li Yan’s words greatly surprised Yue Yao. She never imagined that during his training back then, he still held something back. After a moment, she decisively shook her head, "I don’t believe it! When you trained me, you taught me almost everything, otherwise, even if not on the front lines, I wouldn’t be able to manage or control others."
Yue Yao’s authority in ’their’ group mainly came from three aspects. One was what she said, that Li Yan entrusted everything to her, making her a complete insider, preventing any outsider meddling; another was due to the delegation of authority, where Li Yan gave her all the power, especially over tasks and finances, directly affecting income. Just as a president delegates all authority to a vice president while often staying out of company affairs, unless the VP was utterly incompetent, they could generally maintain stability.
Additionally, Yue Yao’s continuous effort and enrichment contributed. In internal management and external business, she performed better than Li Yan, results of her diligence.
She exaggerated the one-third to be the primary reason because, in her heart, Li Yan remained a flawless figure, and she didn’t want any flaws. Of course, even if it turned out he held something back, she wouldn’t mind.
Li Yan shook his head, "Once you hear my earlier story, you’ll believe..."
He said so much to lead into this rather than abruptly bringing it up. To give Yue Yao some prelude... uh, a groundwork, while giving himself a buffer, adjusting his mindset to a calmer state during the dialogue.
...
Starting from his high school days over a decade ago, Li Yan had only shared the beginning of this story with Qiao Huanxuan and Zhang Yurong before trailing off.
Today, more thoroughly prepared to tell Yue Yao, he could skip past the hazy first love story with Qiao Huanxuan back in high school, directly talking from when he was chosen and abducted, focusing on the story from that hellish training camp.
Due to past lessons, Li Yan was not only better mentally prepared but also took two precautionary measures. One, holding Yue Yao’s hand to remind himself to stay calm; two, having a teacup ready to splash water on his face if agitation became uncontrollable. It might not completely stop him, but it could help him cool down enough to leave temporarily and avoid harming Yue Yao.
But as he slowly recounted, unexpectedly, it wasn’t as intensely stimulating as before. Perhaps the dream experience before waking reduced the shadow’s extent, or maybe the earlier conversation about letting go of past burdens and facing the future subliminally resolved his own attachment in another form!
So, Li Yan narrated the extraordinarily harsh demon-like hell experience, making Yue Yao, who focused more on management and theory with little killing experience, pale with slightly clammy palms. While it was sunny with blooming flowers, she felt a chill!
Their great rapport was not only due to familiarity and understanding but also because Yue Yao often thought from Li Yan’s perspective. Regarding Zhang Yurong, for example, she considered that being with Yurong would bring more happiness than with her; for last night’s situation, from Li Yan’s view, having everyone compete would be better than chaos and fallout; and when not around him, faced with ’their’ issues, she wouldn’t bother him unwarranted, striving to handle things as he would...
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