The Female Alpha You Can't Tame

Chapter 10: Chapter 10 Not today, mate

Love. What does it mean? Does it hold any significance? How does it feel to be in love? Do you live and die for that person, even breathe for him? How does one feel love? Perhaps by touch, a kiss or a hug. Can you buy love? Can you...

"Alpha!" Elriam’s voice breaks me free from my thoughts. "Are you alright?" She questions me, eyes holding worry. She has never seen me so distracted before.

"I am sorry, I just don’t feel like running today. Perhaps, some other time Elriam." I voice out my thoughts of her idea of us going out for a run together. Her eyes cast downwards, lips in a pout. She’s upset, she wanted to spend time with me.

"Do not fret, Elriam. I just don’t feel well today. My thoughts are consuming me, I need to rest my mind. A run will only make it worse." I try to cut through her disappointment. My answer making her eyes widen.

"No, I understand Alpha. Please rest. We will definitely go another time." She leaves with a bow. I did not go in for training today, I do not wish to see Deimos. I need some time to think. To calm my heart down. His words from last night stirred me more than I thought they would. How do you put a wall around your heart from your mate? It’s just not possible and so I must bear all the hurtful words he hurls at me.

A pup stops my path home. She carries a flower crown in her tiny fingers and peers up at me. Her eyes sparkle whilst she shows me a wide toothless smile.

"Luna, I make you this. It be pretty, like Luna." Her bubbly voice fumbles around with words to speak correctly. She gestures for me to lower myself to the ground. I gradually kneel tilting my head towards the little creature questioning her antics. She delicately places it upon my head fiddling around with my hair.

"Thank you little one." I smile at her. A genuine smile, she made me content. This little gesture brought peace to my heart. My smile disappears to the sound of a click from a camera. I look to the side, Ragon with his phone pointing at me, mouth open and Deimos by his side, just staring at me with some sort of yearning. I bow my head down, a fervent blush creeping up my cheeks.

"Don’t you think she is beautiful Alpha? I have never seen her smile like that." Ragon questions Deimos. However, he does not answer him merely keeps looking at me with those longing eyes. Not today Deimos, today you and I will not have a staring contest. I casually get up dusting my hands over my dress and clutch onto the tiny palm of the little pup.

"Come, let me take you back to your mother." I walk with her back to the packhouse without sparing him another glance. I neither wish to see nor converse with him. Today is going to be my day. I shall focus on myself.

Dropping the little one with her mom, I hurry towards the library excited to pick out a new book to read. I haven’t had many duties to do in this pack, largely cleaning, helping the females with cooking and looking after the pups. I guess that’s what Luna’s do. Is that what I want to do? No. I was born and trained for different purposes, definitely not this.

Swiping my fingertips along the shelves, eyes scanning for something to grab my attention. I stop midway, feeling warmth encompass my back. It is him. Can’t this male just give me some time to spend alone? I gasp when he settles his hands on the shelves caging me in his arms. He takes a deep breath in sniffing my hair. He waits for me to turn around but I don’t. I will not abide by his wishes.

"Turn around and look at me, mate." His voice strained as if he is controlling himself. Brushing my hair to the side baring my neck to him, he takes another deep sniff groaning his constraint. My scent is his drug and he is an addict.

"I will not repeat myself, mate." His voice growing louder. Not wanting to anger him and bring forth destruction, I turn around. Eyes meet eyes.

"Finally." He murmurs to himself. "It suits you quite well." My eyes turn questioning. What suits me well? He understands this and points to my head. "The flower crown." He answers. My eyes widen, my hands reaching to remove them. I forgot about it. He grabs my wrists stopping them from removing them.

"Don’t, it suits you and me... I like it on you." My eyes enlarge. Is this a compliment? Did he just compliment me? But why? I try to get away from his arms. But this male gives me no chance to run. He keeps me caged in, encaging me within his warmth. His eyes keep darting back and forth from one eye to another, eyebrows pulled down in a frown.

"You haven’t spoken a word to me today. What is the reason?" He questions me.

Is he seriously asking me this? Does he not know? I scoff turning my head. This angers him. Grabbing my chin in his hand, he turns me to face him. "Don’t tell me, your actions are based on our conversation last night?" I choose not to reply to him, earning a snarl in return. "Answer me." He growls.

"I do not know what you are talking about." I give him a short and frank reply.

"Do not lie to me. You will not like the consequences it will bring." He warns. I look into his eyes; he speaks the truth.

"Yes," I tell him the truth as well. My answer making him sigh. He slowly walks backwards freeing me from his hold.

"Are you a pup, mate? Is this your way of pouting?" His question sparking anger within me. Gritting my teeth I snarl at him.

"I am no pup; any mate would have done the same if their partner spoke your words." I show my anger walking towards him in huge strides.

Grabbing my hips, bringing me towards his chest. "Calm down, I said I will protect you. What more do you ask of me? Is my protection not enough to satisfy you?" His question adding fuel to the fire growing within me. This male sure loves to pull my strings. Shoving him backwards I walk away from him.

"Your protection is useless to me and you know what I want. Alpha." With one last look at him, I leave the library slamming the door on my way out showing my distaste for his words. A pup? Was that a joke? I have been so obedient to his wishes, is it bad to wish for something in return? Is it wrong to want to be loved?

Trotting back to the packhouse, wanting to spend some time with my females, needing their comfort. My path is blocked by Ragon. His chest heaving up and down taking in gasps of air. Sweat dripping down his cheek, his hands moving about panicking, trying to inform me of something.

"Breathe, Beta. What are you trying to tell me?" I am slightly wary of what is to come. His eyes hold uncertainty and fear. What is happening to instil fear within this male?

"L-Luna! You need to get to the safe house. Now."

"What? And why must I do that?" I don’t understand, is this some sort of drill? Unless it’s an attack, I mean who in their right mind would attack Deimos’s pack unless they have a death wish.

"We are under attack Luna, it’s one of the Alphas from the council. The females and pups have already begun boarding and you must leave right away." Ragon rushes softly pushing me towards the direction that leads to the safe house. How can this happen in a matter of minutes?