Chapter 996: Chapter 993: Incredibly, Incredibly Complicated
Then let whatever else may come to mind be left to however it is meant to be thought of! He no longer wants to think too complexly about it.
"Alright, Hua Xiaomo, I know you’re feeling very complicated right now, and I know you’re very confused. Actually, I really want to comfort you, I really want to be by your side, to take care of you and take care of the child. This is truly the only thing I deeply wish for right now."
"In fact, our company’s current state is already quite good, and our company will continue to develop forward. I believe our company will certainly develop well, and eventually will surpass the Qi Imperial Court. Moreover, I believe that as long as we’re together, all our employees will have confidence in us!"
"And this is also the wish of all our employees! They hope the two of us will be together, so it can further consolidate the company’s interests. Also, Hua Xiaomo, I hope you can have some confidence in me, okay? Or, perhaps, shall we get the marriage certificate tomorrow?"
"I truly hope to marry you, and once we’re married, you won’t have these unfounded thoughts anymore. I guarantee that you will calm down because you’ll know what your goal is. I know you will be with me, Hua Xiaomo, please say yes." Zi Yunsui pleaded again, proposing.
A glimmer shone in his eyes.
He simply couldn’t help but think of him, couldn’t help but love him, because this feeling was so deep within him. He really liked Hua Xiaomo, loved Hua Xiaomo, and he hoped Hua Xiaomo could fulfill his wish.
Because she feels that many times, he truly wants to be with Hua Xiaomo, genuinely wants to give her this kind of happiness.
Hua Xiaomo was taken aback upon hearing this, entirely unexpected that Zi Yunsui would say such words, and want to go with him to get the marriage certificate. But he’s really hesitant and indecisive, not knowing how to decide on this matter. However, he actually wants Candy to have a father, and he also hopes Candy could have a family.
But truly, should he obtain the marriage certificate with Zi Yunsui?
Then what about Qi Longbing?
If they get the marriage certificate just like three years ago, then it proves he can never have anything with Qi Longbing again. But since he had promised Qi Longbing, shouldn’t he have faith in him, and perhaps give Qi Longbing some more time?
"Zi Yunsui, don’t say it like that, okay? I feel so confused. Do you really want to marry me? Besides, you’re so young, maybe you could find a girl more suitable for you?" Hua Xiaomo’s head was scrambling, thinking of all that Qi Longbing has done for him, yet simultaneously considering all the good things Zi Yunsui has done for himself and Candy. What should he decide?
He himself is somewhat puzzled, but he truly hopes to escape from this emotional quagmire. He truly does not want to continue in this confusion, because the more it continues, the more it gives him headaches, the more he is unable to truly feel joy.
Zi Yunsui said nothing; instead, his eyes revealed a hint of darkness. He didn’t say anything because he knew he couldn’t speak openly about these matters with him. Yet, he sincerely does not want Hua Xiaomo to be unhappy.
He truly likes Hua Xiaomo and loves Candy. He genuinely wants to give them a home, give them warmth, give them the happiest life. Give them the most precious things in this world.
But he continues to evade, time and again, causing him to feel more and more agitated.
He truly loves her, but why does Hua Xiaomo keep rejecting him like this? It’s incomprehensible to him whether what he has done could ever measure up to Qi Longbing?
He truly cannot understand, and Qi Longbing doesn’t even deserve her love. Yet Hua Xiaomo chooses to be involved with a married man, accepting this situation? It’s deeply painful for him.
He’s truly very, very unhappy. He desperately wishes she could understand him, could give her a warm home, but now it seems achieving such a wish is extremely challenging. He really cannot comprehend what Hua Xiaomo is thinking in her heart.
With such love and concern for her, thinking of her at every turn, yet what she gives him in return is outright rejection, a pain that cannot be expressed, making his heart hurt so much. He truly doesn’t want to experience such feelings anymore — it’s unspeakably painful.
"Alright then, I won’t pressure you anymore. Do whatever you’ve planned before. Hua Xiaomo, I’m really sorry for disturbing you for so long, so I’ll end the call now. Please rest early. Oh, and don’t stand on the terrace for too long at night; you should head inside the room and get some sleep, then go to work at the company tomorrow morning!"
"Okay, that’s it, I won’t say much more. I know that whatever I say is useless; your mind is made up, and your feelings are forever unchangeable, a sense that brings pain, a taste so painful. Alright, then, goodbye." Zi Yunsui quickly hung up the phone, but his eyes revealed a sense of despair.
He truly feels that this kind of feeling causes him so much heartache, but he can’t change this situation, because deep down, it seems he is constantly resisting, afraid of making any commitment to him.
Yet he loves him so much, likes him so much; he truly hopes Hua Xiaomo can be with him, together, to truly have a family.
But Hua Xiaomo doesn’t want to give him this family, nor does he want Candy to have a normal family. He truly doesn’t know what he is thinking deep inside.
Would he rather continue to entangle with that married man? Would he rather be his mistress? Such an abnormal life is indeed deeply painful.
Alright, regardless of the future, he chooses to walk his own path, he will never regret it. He believes that in many instances, only by being true to himself can he live up to his own standards.
