Chapter 255: Heretic / 1.16 : Special
Lucian explained as Kian sat up:
"It allows you to recover energy faster after using such a powerful spell. I just need to make a cut on your hand, then hold it. You’ll absorb my essence and feel better."
Kian looked at Lucian and his eyes darkened. He yelled:
"Even now, you keep lying to me!"
Lucian asked:
"What are you talking about?"
Kian said:
"I know that this is to transfer half of your life to me, I’m not stupid despite what you think Lucian."
Lucian felt stunned that he knew of that practice. It took him days to find it since it’s ancient. Maybe Kian found it when he searched for a way to keep living, despite being a heretic.
Lucian said:
"With it, you won’t die in a few weeks."
Kian asked:
"Do you think I would ever accept your help? Are you insane?"
Lucian said:
"I’m just trying to help you. Then, if you want to stay away from me, it’s fine."
Kian’s hands tightened into fists.
"Do you think I don’t already know how much you disdain me? I would rather perish than take your help when you’re clearly after something. All you’ve done since we met is lie."
Lucian’s eyes turned cold. He never lied to Kian, only today because he knew he would never accept his help. He doesn’t understand why he is acting this way. He’ll just force him to take half of his life and leave him alone.
Lucian got on top of Kian at the speed of light and held both his wrist above his head. Kian struggled to get free but couldn’t. Why is Lucian so strong? He’s supposed to be the strongest in the universes.
It’s probably all the powers he used to kill the Jiaolong. He yelled:
"Get off me."
Lucian ignored him and after holding one hand he grabbed the other and moved it toward his fangs.
Kian immediately started to panic and struggled desperately. When he felt his fangs touch his hand, he cried and begged:
"Please stop!"
Lucian froze when he saw how fearful he was. He put his hand down and closed his eyes. He can’t do it if it’s not what he wants. That means he’ll lose him. Then again, he isn’t his to lose.
Lucian opened his eyes and looked at Kian who was still crying, when he calmed down, he asked:
"Why do I want you to live more than you do?"
Kian yelled:
"Just stop lying! You don’t care about me, and you never have. Like a fool, I thought you were different, but you’re just like everyone else!"
When he saw that Lucian was about to bite him, he became panicked because it would mean that he would lose half of his life and he didn’t want that.
He didn’t want that when Lucian hates him. How pathetic is that? Lucian studied Kian. Is that what he’s been thinking, that he was lying all along? Lucian said:
"I only did what you wanted me to, Kian."
At those words, Kian became furious. His murderous aura filled the room.
"Did I tell you to stop being my friend and act the way you did with Serena?"
He thought he was special and that he was the only person who made Lucian smile, but he was wrong.
Lucian’s feelings for him only lasted hours, and he moved on in a heartbeat. Clearly, they weren’t strong feelings. The fact that he stopped being friends with him because he didn’t return them and then moved on so quickly is like a slap on his face.
"I can’t be just your friend when I have feelings for you."
Kian laughed.
"Your feelings for me were gone the second you laid eyes on Serena after you left my chambers. You ended our friendship when you moved on two minutes later."
Lucian tilted his head. He asked:
"You told me we were only friends, I thought you would be happy If I moved on."
Kian felt like slapping him. He’s not a violent person, but this whole thing is making him. Lucian is infuriating.
"You never cared about me or our friendship. I thought..."
Kian looked away and swallowed heavily. His eyes filled with tears again.
"I thought I was special to you, I thought you only smiled for me and that your feelings were genuine."
He’s the first person who made him feel special.
Lucian stood up from him. He sat down and pulled Kian onto his lap. He wiped his tears, but they kept falling.
"My feelings are genuine. I just thought if I kept my distance from you and acted close to Serena, I would be able to move on from you."
Kian looked up to see if he was telling the truth.
"But I couldn’t. I kept thinking about you dying and searched for a solution to make sure it wouldn’t happen. I didn’t care that you would never feel the same way I do, I just wanted you to live."
Kian felt his heartbeat quicken after checking Versem. He watched as every night Lucian would look for a solution to his problem until morning. He even saw him force himself to smile before entering any room Serena was in.
He also saw him talk to his parent and then repeat to himself that he won’t die. He never cared for Serena. Knowing that made him feel happier than he had in so long. He shouldn’t care this deeply, but he does.
He feels confused, but right now, all he cares about is that Lucian truly has feelings for him.
"At first I was obsessed with making my vision come true."
"What vision?"
Lucian caressed his cheek and said:
"The night we met, I had a vision of you and me spending the rest of our life together."
Kian blinked and his cheeks flushed. He could see how happy just the thought of it made Lucian.
He looked down and asked:
"Do all your vision come true?"
"They do."
Kian’s heart pulsed out of his chest. Why does he feel happy about it? He couldn’t help himself from smiling. Lucian lifted his head and his eyes softened when he saw his smile.
His cheeks were a lovely shade of pink, and Lucian felt that it would be best to see him like that every day. His smile faded when he realized that he wouldn’t. Kian doesn’t want to live. Kian frowned and asked:
"What’s wrong?"
Lucian answered:
"For once, my vision won’t come true. You don’t feel the same way as I do, and you would rather not live."
Kian bit his lip as he looked at him.
Honestly, he isn’t sure how he feels about Lucian. Numerous feelings he had like jealousy, aren’t something a friend would feel for another friend. But he’s sure he’s straight, he likes girls, and he is attracted to them.
But he also thinks that Lucian is handsome, and he thought about their kiss almost every day. And it was just a small kiss, but he still liked it. He keeps thinking about his soft lips and his beautiful smile.
He likes that Lucian has feelings for him and that he’s the only one who makes him smile. Just seeing him smile at Serena and sit on his lap infuriated him. He needs to talk to Eden, he might be able to help.
Meanwhile, he’ll deal with half of the issue. He murmured:
"I have something to tell you."
