My System Forces Me to Live off Women

Chapter 598: Chapter 365: The Downfall of Self-Will (Part 2)

"Actually, I know why you like her."

Human Realm Two Winds: "We’ve never even met, but you seem to know me so well?"

Li Peifeng is slyly identifying someone...

Yun Xin Yue Xing: "Boys generally like older sisters, and she’s your mentor. You want to snuggle in her arms, have your mentor comfort you with a warm smile, shelter you from the wind and rain with a mature body, and guide you through the rest of your life with a calm mind and a magnetic voice."

Yun Xin Yue Xing: "In this way, you can graciously enjoy the benefits of relying on her and feel less burdened by the hardships of struggle. This is the root of why you like her. You yearn for growth but fear responsibility."

Li Peifeng assumes Old Zhao got a bit too worked up and dropped the pretense in his critique, which he considers a good thing.

After pondering for a while, Li Peifeng doesn’t type anything but connects with Zhao Qingge via [Heart-to-Heart], communicating all his thoughts, emotions, and the things he wants to express in this way. He plans to formally expose Yun Xin Yue Xing’s true identity...

[Some are born in Rome, while some remain laborers their whole life; some marry and have children in their early twenties, while some are over thirty and still haven’t found themselves, wandering in a maze; some struggle for a lifetime for a house and a car, while others travel the world on a bicycle, seeing all the beautiful rivers and mountains.]

[Life is a long road, life is a hurried road. Everyone in the world has their own role to play, and you can become anyone you wish, as long as you don’t regret it. Whether you’re a general, a thief, a philosopher, or a wanderer, they’re all experiencing life in their own way.]

[You don’t need to think I’m childish and confused for liking a woman who is older than me and also my mentor. Besides, you may not necessarily be more mature and resolute than I am; otherwise why can’t you enter the room and communicate with me face-to-face? Always chatting with me incognito and masked, is that a sign of maturity?]

[True maturity is realizing independent existence and having the ability to independently think and strive. I believe I possess these qualities, with no prejudice externally and no arrogance internally, and bravery in my heart.]

[This bravery is knowing I might fail before I even attempt something, yet I decide to go for it regardless. I will see it through to the end, irrespective of success or failure, despite unexpected challenges and doubts, and I am willing to endure infinite solitude and take responsibility for those involved. I will be accountable... Otherwise, I wouldn’t consider getting everyone’s red certificates.]

[Coming back to the question of why I like you, or what I like about you, I don’t know how to express it in words. I just feel pain and discomfort at the thought of leaving you; I constantly long to hold you, to touch you physically, feel the heat, vibrancy, and trembling; to see your flushed cheeks, those annoyed yet confused eyes, pretending to be calm but with a look of disdain. I want to tease you... yet I don’t want to tease you, it’s inevitable, every time I see you, my self-will just uncontrollably drowns in you.]

[I know this goes against ethics, I know my actions are wrong, no matter how I argue, it can’t cover up my selfish and shameless sins, but I really can’t do without you...]

Speaking aloud would be lengthy, but in the mind exchange, it happens in an instant, with Zhao Qingge receiving the intense and complicated emotions, leaving her unsure how to respond, sending back similar frustration and resignation, with a bit of embarrassment at being exposed...

[Who let you reveal it?!]

In the next moment, a "click" is heard as the bedroom door opens.

In the darkness, Li Peifeng’s figure gradually approaches, Zhao Qingge turns off her phone, places it by her bedside, speaking calmly: "I’m going to sleep, leave."

"Can you really sleep?"

Li Peifeng teases: "Aren’t you chatting with people online? What sleep?"

Speaking, he heads straight to the big bed, even though the lights are off and the curtains drawn. The room is nearly pitch black, yet in Li Peifeng’s brilliant eyes, the dark room appears bright as day. After sitting at the bedside, he reaches out to take Old Zhao’s phone...

"Let me see~"

"What are you doing? I’m not giving it!"

Zhao Qingge is very cautious, pretending to grab, but she’s a beat slower and can’t compete with Li Peifeng; eventually it’s snatched away.

"Give back the phone to me!!"

Zhao Duoduo sat up angrily, raising her hand to fiercely attack Li Peifeng’s back.

Li Peifeng doesn’t mind the harmless attacks but the phone is locked with a password...

"Lend me your finger, Yun Xin Yue Xing, hurry, let’s meet in person today, pretending any longer is unnecessary!"

Li Peifeng grabs Zhao Qingge’s hand, pulls out her index finger, trying to unlock the phone, yet not using too much force to avoid hurting her, mumbling.

"I told you to stop pretending, I’ve wanted to expose you for ages, and now you’re purposely chatting next door with the TT... let’s meet in person! Hurry and meet me in person!"

This gave Zhao Qingge the chance to retaliate; her index finger about to light the screen, she nervously hooks her finger: "No, no face-to-face, I disagree, return the phone to me!"

Li Peifeng laughs: "Admit it, right? You confessed without me!"