Chapter 2053: Chapter 1846: Blocking
"Grandpa, did I make her unhappy? Is that why she’s unwilling to come back to me?"
"Yes, you indeed have become more mature now. It’s precisely because you’ve matured that I’m afraid. Why, why did you have to become so mature? If you hadn’t matured, would I have lost every chance? Yet in your heart, there’s never been a place for me. I really don’t understand, am I really that insignificant in your heart?
Why can I never reach the depths of your heart? I truly want to open your heart to see if there’s a place for me, but I can’t. I want you to live happily, not ruin your lifetime of happiness and peace because of my presence!
Zhihan, promise me that no matter what, you must live happily. No matter what troubles you face, at least tell me, if you consider me a friend, don’t stand on ceremony. If you need my help, I will do my utmost to assist you. If one day you do end up with him, don’t forget there’s someone who will always stand behind you, silently waiting for you. Although this relationship has failed, I can’t instantly find another girl to live with. I’m not that kind of fickle man. I have always been consistent in my feelings. Since I’ve chosen you, I will be with you wholeheartedly, please don’t despise me.
I don’t know if your marriage has always been good. Maybe it’s my involvement that caused the situation to deteriorate. I sincerely apologize for this. I didn’t intend to destroy your relationship. I truly couldn’t control my feelings. I just wanted to embrace the woman I love the most. But ultimately, it resulted in such an outcome, causing you and your husband to fight for so long. That’s my fault. I sincerely apologize to you both and hope you can forgive me."
"Chen Gang, don’t say that. Ultimately, this isn’t entirely your fault. I too am at fault. I shouldn’t have doubted you. I shouldn’t have hurt you in such a way. This must have been the most painful for you. The feeling of not being able to hold your beloved girl even when she’s right in front of you. Your heart must feel defeated, but I can’t act against my principles of morals. Since I’ve chosen to live forever with my husband, then this lifetime I can only have him as my man, and I must not get entangled with another man.
You shouldn’t apologize to me. The one who should really apologize is me. I’m sorry for making you wait all these years, oblivious to your waiting. It’s my fault for not being able to give you a complete love, for not being able to give you a complete family. It’s my mistake that wasted so many years of your youth. They say a woman’s youth is precious, but isn’t a man’s youth equally precious? Because of me, you have given up all your youth. Don’t waste all your time waiting for me. Live well for yourself and make plans for your future. Work hard for your achievements and find the girl meant for you, who will stay by your side for life. I hope she can support you in your career. Thank you..."
Zhang Yichen suddenly heard Chen Gang say to him that he was giving up. Why did he suddenly feel reluctant for him to give up? He always thought it was nice having someone here vying to be his wife, that way there was always something to do every day, always having someone to argue with, just to prove who loved their wife more.
"Are you really planning to give up now? Are you really willing to step back and never disturb the lives of me and my wife again? Do you really think you can bear it?
She’s such a perfect girl, after all these years of understanding her, do you think you can sincerely let go?"
"What does it matter whether I let go or not? I remember your wife once said something to me, ’What is meant to be will be, and what is not meant to be will never be. Amongst all the beauties in the world, never act like a fool craving what is unattainable.’
You should understand what this means, right? Since she has said this, what else can I do? I’m powerless.
I’ve never failed so badly in my life. I’ve never been unable to obtain what I wanted. But this time I finally understood that there are things in the world that I can never gain, like your wife, the girl I love the most. Even after I’ve put everything into it, she’s unwilling to live with me. I know from this point, I’ve already lost to you because the girl I love doesn’t want to be with me. But do you know? I wish time could turn back, to a few years ago. If I had honestly expressed my feelings to her back then, would today’s tragedy still occur?
Sometimes I don’t know whether to hate you or thank you. I always feel that because of your presence, I lost the girl I love the most. But thinking the other way around, you have taken such good care of her, caring for her meticulously. This deeply moved me, making my emotions so conflicted. I don’t know what attitude to face you with. I don’t know how to describe this attitude, but do you know?
I just want you to treat her well. Don’t hurt her kind heart. She can’t bear such hurt."
"Of course, I know how to cherish my wife. You truly don’t need an outsider to teach me. Remember, you’ve already admitted you lost everything, lost your qualifications. No matter what you might desire in the future, you can tell me, but you can’t find my wife. Because I will completely cut off the ties between you and her. I won’t let you two meet again.
But thank you. Because of your presence, even though my wife and I quarreled quite a bit, I also have to admit that it’s through you that I realized how much my wife cares about me, about this family. Rest assured, as long as you leave here peacefully, returning to where you were always meant to be, I will certainly treat her well and not disappoint you. No matter what, she’s still my wife. How could I bear to see her heartbroken? Isn’t that so?"
Chen Gang smiled. Since he had already lost, and lost so thoroughly, why continue to force himself? It was time to leave happily, without care.
Sometimes, as time passes, the pain deep inside gradually eases a bit...
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