Chapter 162: Chapter 162: Bitter Revelations
SONIA’S POV
A tear rolled down my eyes, but in annoyance, I slapped it away. The salty drop stung my cheek as I wiped it roughly with the back of my hand.
What was there to cry about? Before there was me, there was always Lorena. Her presence loomed over everything like a shadow I couldn’t escape.
She was his first everything. The fact that it had taken her this long to even get pregnant for him, was strange. The thought twisted like a knife in my gut, sharp and unrelenting.
Once more, I was reminded of what I truly was.
A placeholder to what really mattered in the grand scheme of things. The realization settled heavy in my chest, making it hard to breathe.
I continued going through my closet in search of something to wear, my fingers brushing against soft fabrics that suddenly felt foreign. It was as if all the clothes Ivy got me had disappeared.
There was nothing that wasn’t nightwear to wear. The silky materials slipped through my fingers like water, offering no comfort.
I sighed, and dropped on my bed. It had taken a miracle to get me out of the bathroom, and into the room. The steam from the shower still clung to my skin, but the warmth did nothing to chase away the cold knot in my stomach.
I could have been satisfied with remaining in the bathroom forever, letting the water drown out my thoughts.
Showing my face was like wallowing in my shame. The idea of facing anyone, especially Ramon, made my skin crawl.
I hated this situation so much, and there weren’t a lot of things I actually hated. The bitterness tasted sour on my tongue.
He knew, and that was the most devastating part about this entire thing.
He knew, and didn’t have the decency to tell me.
Rather, he laid me under the witness of the sky, and its stars, and we consummated our bond.
I could still feel the pressure of his largeness in between my legs, the soreness a constant reminder of how completely he had taken me.
Deep in my core was still so sore. I had barely recovered, and now I had to deal with an extra pain of the obvious.
As long as alpha Ramon was concerned, it didn’t matter what the moon goddess designed.
I was always going to be his number two. The thought burned like acid in my veins.
"You said you weren’t going to give up," a voice in my head reminded me, soft but insistent.
I knew I said that, but maybe I was just getting ahead of myself.
Why did I think I could change his mind? Who was I, anyway? Why did I even matter?
I felt the onset of tears again, and cleared my throat to wade them off, swallowing hard against the lump in my throat.
The door suddenly opened before I could compose myself, and Ivy walked in.
"Pretty girl, are you alright?" She said, jumping on the space beside me, the mattress dipping under her weight.
"I’m fine, why?"
She gave me a once over, and frowned in disapproval, her eyes narrowing as she took in my disheveled state.
"I mean you do look clean now that you’ve bathed, but your face has lost its sparkle. Tell me, did something happen while I was away setting the table?"
I knew it was easy for people to withhold, and hide things from people they cared about, or people that cared about them.
I personally just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t let the weight of this burden sit in my heart for too long.
"I was going to lie and say I’m like this because I couldn’t find any of the clothes you lended me in my closet."
"I would have told you I washed them this morning, when I woke up confused about your whereabouts, and looking for something to distract me from Lorena’s condition," she replied, her voice gentle but probing.
"What happened to Lorena is not the entire reason why you were so ashen in the face, last night, was it?" I asked.
I held my breath, hoping she didn’t lie to me.
It would make it hard to believe anything she said, going forward.
She searched my face closely, and signed. In a startling action, she pulled me in for a hug, her arms wrapping around me tightly.
"What’s this for?" I asked, totally confused, my voice muffled against her shoulder.
"I didn’t want to ruin your joy, last night, and most especially, this morning, Sonia. Please forgive me for not telling you immediately?"
"Telling me what?"
"I have a feeling you already know about it, but you deserve to hear from me. When I encountered Adelaide, when she was on her way to Alpha Ramon. She told me she had received a summon from Ramon, to check on Lorena. She said she had been expecting that call, because it was clear to her, Lorena is pregnant. She didn’t even know about the attempt to take her life by then," she explained, her voice steady but full of sympathy.
"So that’s how you found out?"
She pulled away, and looked at me with sincere eyes, her hands still holding mine.
"I was almost sure the alpha would tell you himself, that’s why I didn’t bother to tell you. I’m surprised he didn’t."
"Yeah I was at first, but it tracks. He has never taken me seriously, why should he now?" I scoffed bitterly, the words tasting like ash on my tongue.
"Don’t say that, Sonia. I’m sure he just felt unsettled. Isn’t that why he sought solace in your arms? I know how you must feel right now, but I think you’re getting it all wrong. Alpha Ramon does care about you, even if it’s hard for him to admit it."
"You always talk like you know him so well. I don’t understand your relationship with Ramon. I just don’t get it."
"You need to eat, Sonia. You’ve barely eaten well. Eat first, then we can discuss everything else later. Deal?"
I nodded, even though I didn’t exactly feel like eating anymore.
I had lost whatever huge appetite I had this morning, all thanks to Ramon and his never ending connection with Lorena.
I didn’t want to hate anyone, but sometimes, I hated her.
"Hey, snap out of your thoughts, and wear this."
I looked up, and saw she had left the room, and returned with a shirt.
Funny how I didn’t hear her make a sound, because my thoughts had once again consumed my mind.
"Thank you," I replied, accepting the big shirt.
She stepped out to allow me dress up. I wore the big shirt, and an undergarment.
It stopped just below my thighs, so I was grateful I wasn’t going out of the house.
I allowed my hair to fall to my back, next. Despite its length, it was still growing. Soon, I’d barely be able to manage it.
Done with dressing up, I turned around, and walked to the living room.
I wasn’t hungry, but I needed all the nutrients I could get if I was going to get my wolf back.
A scent hit my nose as soon as I stepped in. Two familiar scents actually.
My heart skipped a beat when I saw Ramon seated on the ground. Next to him, was alpha Liam.
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