Immortal God of War

Chapter 1204: Chapter 1139: Emptiness and Belonging

"Every day..."

Qin Feiyang’s whole body and mind trembled as he gazed at the woman in white.

The woman in white smiled and said, "Now that you’ve grown up, there’s not much I can do, but I can still make these for you."

"That’s enough for me."

Qin Feiyang nodded vigorously, his voice choked as he struggled to hold back the emotions threatening to overwhelm him.

Don’t think this is just a small matter.

Anyone can do it occasionally.

But day after day, year after year, I believe that aside from a great mother, no one could manage that.

Every one of these pastries represents a piece of longing, a bit of maternal love!

Glancing at Qin Feiyang, the two maidservants remained silent, quietly tidying up the pastries on the table, feeling saddened.

Qin Feiyang and the woman in white remained silent as well.

The atmosphere in the hall felt somewhat heavy.

Suddenly.

Qin Feiyang gritted his teeth, looking at the woman in white, and said, "Mother, join me and leave!"

The woman in white was taken aback and shook her head, about to speak.

Qin Feiyang continued, "I know you have your reasons, Mother, for not being able to leave the Imperial Capital, but leaving for a short while should be fine, right? I just want to spend some time with you alone, even if it’s just for a month or even half a month."

The woman in white lowered her head, remaining silent.

"Sigh!"

At this moment.

A sigh was heard.

Immediately after.

The Kylin Army Commander walked into the hall and said to the woman in white, "Your Majesty, if it’s just for a month or so, it should be fine."

Qin Feiyang, the woman in white, and the two maidservants all immediately looked towards the Kylin Army Commander.

The Kylin Army Commander said, "As long as nothing major happens, neither the emperor nor the State Preceptor will come here, so as long as we don’t tell, no one will know that Her Majesty left. During your absence, I’ll also do my utmost to stall them, to prevent them from coming here."

"But what if it’s discovered?"

"Not only would you be implicated, but they too would be held accountable."

The woman in white said.

"Your Majesty, we are not afraid."

The two maidservants immediately spoke in unison.

The Kylin Army Commander laughed and said, "I’m not afraid either; at worst, I’d just be dismissed."

The woman in white shook her head, looking at Qin Feiyang, and said, "Feiyang, Mother wants to go out with you, to see the world, but I’ve already caused the deaths of Qin Zhong and Qin Yi; I can’t implicate them further, do you understand?"

Qin Feiyang closed his eyes, nodding in pain, and said, "I understand, Mother."

"Your Majesty..."

The two maidservants wanted to say more.

But the woman in white raised her eyebrows and shouted, "Do not forget your place!"

The two maidservants’ faces turned pale, not daring to persuade further, and turned to leave with the pastries.

Although the woman in white was gentle now, when angered, not only these maidservants, but even the civil and military officials would be terrified.

The Kylin Army Commander sighed deeply and, without saying more, turned and left silently.

The woman in white looked at Qin Feiyang with guilt, smiling as she said, "Child, forgive your mother, will you?"

"Mother, you are too kind."

Qin Feiyang forced a strained smile and asked, "By the way, how is that little prince now?"

The woman in white smiled and said, "With your father caring for him and looking after him, he’s doing well."

Qin Feiyang suddenly stood up and said angrily, "He is not my father!"

The woman in white’s smile froze.

Qin Feiyang immediately realized his outburst and quickly lowered his head, saying, "I’m sorry, Mother, I shouldn’t have taken it out on you..."

"It’s okay."

The woman in white waved her hand, but her eyes looked somewhat dispirited. When would this father-son feud ever be resolved?

Before long.

The two maidservants returned with two plates of steaming pastries.

The woman in white picked up a piece of pastry and handed it to Qin Feiyang’s mouth, smiling as she said, "Have a bite quickly."

Qin Feiyang nodded, taking a small bite, and tears instantly welled up in his eyes!

It was still the taste from his childhood, unchanged.

"If you like it, eat more."

The woman in white smiled and said.

"Okay..."

Qin Feiyang, suppressing his emotions from collapsing, picked up the jade plate, stuffing the pastries into his mouth one by one, even after his mouth was full.

He didn’t know what to say.

But he knew he had to finish these pastries.

Because they were made by his mother, they embodied her love for him.

The two maidservants watched this scene, silently shedding tears.

Feeling indignant for Qin Feiyang.

Why did the emperor have to treat such a good prince so heartlessly?

He didn’t ask for much!

He just wanted to be with his mother.

And in this world, what child wouldn’t want to be with their mother?

Yet the emperor even wanted to take that away, having them to sneak around just to meet, how cruel.

The whole two plates of pastries were thus devoured by Qin Feiyang.

He put down the jade plate, wiped away the tears on his face, stood up, and said to the woman in white, "Mother, I have to go."

"So soon?"

The woman in white was somewhat caught off guard.

"I have something very important to do,"

Qin Feiyang said.

The woman in white stood up and said, "Alright, take good care of yourself out there, don’t wear yourself out."

"I know."

Qin Feiyang nodded, turned to the two maidservants, and bowed, saying, "I’ll need to trouble you two sisters to take good care of my mother."

"We will."

The two women nodded.

Qin Feiyang knelt down with a thud, kowtowing three times before his mother, then resolutely got up and quickly disappeared from their sight.

"It’s not that the Prince has something important to do, but he doesn’t want to stay any longer."

One maidservant sighed.

"Indeed!"

"His Highness’s love for the Empress has penetrated deep into his bones; he’s afraid that the longer he stays, the harder it’ll be to leave the Empress."

Another maid sighed deeply.

Listening to the two women’s words, the woman in white trembled, murmuring, "Feiyang, I’m sorry..."

...

As for Qin Feiyang.

He quietly descended the staircase.

As the two maids said, he didn’t want to stay longer because he feared he wouldn’t be able to part from his mother.

He was reassured knowing that his mother was living well now.

"Why did you come down so quickly?"

The Commander of the Kylin Army stood in the center of the hall, watching Qin Feiyang and asked.

But upon seeing the tear stains on Qin Feiyang’s face, he regretted asking.

Qin Feiyang didn’t reply, saying, "Help me keep an eye on her; I don’t want my mother to be hurt again."

After saying this, he opened a teleportation portal.

The Commander of the Kylin Army nodded and asked, "Do you know what you’ll do next?"

"I don’t know."

Qin Feiyang shook his head, his eyes full of confusion, then walked into the portal without looking back.

In the next moment.

He appeared beside a burly man, donned a suit of Dark Iron Army armor, disguised himself, and said flatly, "Let’s go!"

"Alright."

The burly man nodded.

Approximately a hundred breaths later, the two once again landed above Butterfly Valley.

Qin Feiyang removed his armor and scanned the ground below.

The bodies of those Dark Iron Army soldiers killed by Yan Wei were still there, but Wang Hong was no longer visible; he must have returned to State City.

"Can you help me remove the Enslavement Mark now?"

The burly man looked at Qin Feiyang’s back, nervously asking.

Qin Feiyang didn’t answer; with a thought, he instantly wiped out the burly man’s soul.

The burly man didn’t even have a chance to scream before he fell down.

"The world is so big, where do I go now..."

Qin Feiyang stared at the sky, muttered to himself, and then gradually disappeared into the vast sky.

Now.

He was completely lost...

He didn’t know what to do.

He even questioned whether everything he had done and persisted in over the years was meaningful.

Next.

He walked aimlessly like a living corpse...

He went to State City.

He saw Lo Qianxue, he saw Princess Mermaid, he saw Lv Yun, he saw Lin Yiyi, he saw Yan Nanshan, he saw Yin Yuanming...

Everyone related to him, he visited one by one.

Even former opponents or those not closely related to him, like Huang San, who were mere passersby in his life, he visited.

But he didn’t reveal himself, nor did he greet them.

He concealed his cultivation, disguised his face to become a stranger, standing in the crowd and taking a few distant glances...

He didn’t know why he did this, but he felt an emptiness in his heart, wishing to fill it with something.

Then.

He went to Yan City and Black Bear City.

Many familiar faces were in these two places, like Elder Wan from the Martial Palace, the charming Ji Xue, Li Zhi.

Also, the Ling Family, which included the clan of Ling Yunfei.

And the Jiang Family, the clan of Jiang Zhengyi.

He even specifically checked on Lo Qingzhu’s cousin, Jiang Wei.

This person was once an incorrigible playboy but reformed after being taught a lesson by him.

Over the years, Jiang Wei had completely abandoned his former bad habits and become a much-praised young man.

Furthermore, his cultivation had greatly improved; he was now a Nine-Star War King.

A Nine-Star War King naturally could not compare to Qin Feiyang, but among the young people of Yan Province, he was considered a standout.

However.

Qin Feiyang still didn’t greet anyone, like a loner, he walked silently through the streets.

Finally.

He returned to Iron Bull Town.

In a simple tea house, Qin Feiyang wore worn-out burlap clothing, sat by a window, sipping bitter tea while surveying the street outside.

In these past years, Iron Bull Town hadn’t changed much.

Most people remained straightforward and friendly.

But the once-prosperous Lin family had waned considerably since Lin Chang’s death.

The Zhao Family still existed.

This was the family of Zhao Shuang’er.

Yet unlike the Lin family, under Zhao Shuang’er’s grandfather’s guidance, the Zhao Family was now several times stronger than before.

Apart from the Martial Palace and the Elixir Palace, it was the strongest overlord of Iron Bull Town.

"The Zhao Family..."

"Zhao Shuang’er..."

"If Zhao Shuang’er hadn’t died, perhaps the Zhao Family would be even stronger today..."

Qin Feiyang murmured.

The scene where Feng Ling’er, Zhao Shuang’er, Ling Yunfei, Lo Qingzhu, and Jiang Zhengyi were killed by Zuo An and others at the Yan Pan Mountains was still vivid in his mind.

If they hadn’t died, omitting Jiang Zhengyi, based on the talents of Lo Qingzhu and the other three, today they might be, like Lin Yiyi, the pride of the state office!

"Sigh..."

Qin Feiyang let out a low sigh, took out a few Gold Coins, placed them on the table, and left Iron Bull Town.

At last.

He returned to the place where he lived with Uncle Yuan for five years.

Over the years, this place had completely changed.

Even the small wooden building that was burned down had been covered by plants.

However.

Despite everything being long gone, and Uncle Yuan lost without a trace, Qin Feiyang felt at peace upon arriving here.

"Even though I was born in the Imperial Capital, even though my mother is in the Imperial Capital, this is my real home..."

Qin Feiyang stood mid-air, scanning the ground below, a long-lost sense of belonging surged within him.