Chapter 146: Do It With Me
"Why are you sweating buckets?"
Night was still grasping for air as if he ran here. "I apologize for my crude action. Are you mad?"
See? I knew he was going to apologize for what he did. His face looks like he was devastated, and I’m not fond of seeing him like that.
"I’m not mad." I held his hand and pulled him towards our room in the other building. "Don’t apologize anymore."
As soon as we entered the room, I felt Night’s grip on my hand tightening, making me turn to him. "Is there something wrong?" I asked.
He was looking down at the floor while still holding my hand, and to be honest, it was so adorable it almost made me grin. "I couldn’t control my emotions. I shouldn’t have done that, and in front of you too."
I smiled after hearing that. He’s contemplating what he did, and he realized that it was wrong. I’m proud of him.
"I should have talked to her in private and made her realize her wrongdoings." His eyes looked like they were full of bloodlust, making me frown.
I gulped. "You’re not planning to hurt your classmate, aren’t you?"
Night tilted his head innocently. "Why? I should give her back the pain she inflicted on you."
"No!" I knew it. "I already slapped her back so if you hurt her, it’ll be unfair."
I grabbed him by the face and forced him to look at me. "You shouldn’t do something like that to a civilian. Am I right?" He nodded.
"Are you mad at me for what I did to that girl?" That girl? Does he mean Bethany? Does he even know her name?
I stared at his face. It’s fascinating because it is the first time I’m seeing him look guilty about something. "If I am, what are you going to do?" I’m just curious about how he’ll handle the situation if I am indeed mad at him.
"I’ll do whatever you want me to do for your forgiveness." Wow, that’s a bold choice of action.
A random thought suddenly came into my mind making me smile as I crossed my arms. "Then, will you do it with me?"
He raised an eyebrow. "Do what?"
"Sex."
Silence took over after he heard that. "What?" Night asked as if he didn’t understand.
"I said, have sex with me."
His eyes widened after making sure and he quickly moved away. "No!" He said making my forehead crease.
"Why not? Aren’t we married!"
Night slapped his forehead but his face was turning red reaching up to his ears. "That’s— we don’t need to do something like that."
"Something like that?" I scoffed. The first time he rejected me was when we were in the submarine, but the thing is, I’m used to being rejected. And I don’t want to be rejected anymore! "Don’t you see me as a woman at all? Was it because my chest is small? Would you rather do it with a girl with big boobs?"
"Of course not!"
"Then why?" I couldn’t help but raise my voice.
Night avoided my gaze. "I-It’s something personal."
"What do you mean? You don’t want to do it with me but you used me as masturbation material?"
We were both surprised by what I said. ’Uh-oh... I wasn’t planning to tell him that.’ I gulped as I tried to lighten the atmosphere. "I-It was an accident okay? I didn’t mean to see that."
Night suddenly crouched making my eyes go wide. "Are you okay?" I asked but he didn’t respond.
"That was so embarrassing." I heard him saying. "I apologize for doing something vulgar like that. You even witnessed it."
No! Why would he apologize?
"If you’re really sorry, then do it with me." His eyes can’t look straight at me after I said that. "Andy said that maybe you did something like that because you wanted to have sex with me."
"They even know about it?" Night can’t believe what he heard. "I’m ashamed of my past actions."
Hearing that made me pout. "Do you hate doing that with me?"
"Of course not! We haven’t even done it yet."
I sat on the floor to meet his eyes. "Then why? Why don’t you want to do that with me?"
"It’s not that I don’t want to."
I tilted my head. "Then why?"
Night still couldn’t look me in the eye and he keeps avoiding my gaze. Is he uncomfortable with me? But why? I stopped for a moment and then I realized something, what if Night really hates doing that with me and he just can’t admit it because it might hurt my feelings? I shouldn’t be forcing him to do things he hates like how he’s not forcing me.
"Ah!"
Night flinched. "What is it this time?"
I smiled. "I just remember that it is bad to force someone to do something they don’t like." I giggled. That was really stupid of me. "Now that I’ve calmed down, it doesn’t matter anymore. Let’s just watch some movies and eat popcorn."
I stood up from the floor. "Should we go and—"
I blinked lots of times after Night pulled me into a hug. "It’s not like I don’t want to do it." He whispered into my ear.
Did I pressure him that much? Now I feel bad. "It’s fine. I shouldn’t have forced you like that. I’m sorry."
Night pulled away from the hug and stared at me. "It’s not like I hate it. I want to do it too. You don’t know how much I control myself around you." Hearing that made me all baffled and I don’t know how to respond. I know I should just change the topic, but now I feel curious.
"Then why?"
Night took a deep breath with his face flushed. "Despite how I acted that time when Makoto drugged you, I have no experience with such things."
"Ha?"
His face keeps turning redder as I asked him. "I said I have no experience with those things. I haven’t done that with anybody. Even kissing was a first for me."
"What!? Kissing? Then I’m your first kiss?"
Night nodded while covering his mouth with the back of his hand. I can’t believe it... this handsome and cool person doesn’t have experience in that field? But he was really good at kissing? Just by his soft kisses I already have my knees feeling weak.
"Why aren’t you saying anything?" He asked after I was frozen still due to shock.
I blinked lots of times again. "I-It’s because it’s unbelievable."
"What is?"
I sighed. "That you haven’t slept with anyone before me. And worse? I’m your first kiss. How could you kiss like you were a playboy in your past life?"
"Huh? What do you think of me? I don’t like most people."
That makes sense.
"Then... you want to do it with me, but you’re being careful since you don’t have any experience?"
Night nodded and took a deep breath. "If you’ll allow me, but I must warn you that I am clumsy too." He said with a formal tone. ’It’s funny how he changed his tone like that even though he usually speaks rudely to me before.’
"Let’s do it."
Night raised a brow. "Right now?"
I nodded. "You don’t want to do it today?" I’m also afraid of what might happen, but I am more curious as to how it would feel.
Night quickly walked towards the bedside drawer and opened the upper drawer. "I need to go somewhere." He said. I don’t know what he saw inside the drawer. "Wait here." Night left without explaining anything to me. What did he see?
Even though I’m clueless, I sat on the bed and waited for Night patiently as he told me to do. "Where did he go?" As time passes by, I ended up lying on the bed due to tiredness while waiting for Night to come back.
As I was about to close my eyes to take a nap, the door opened causing me to get up due to surprise. "Oh? You’re back." I said as I saw Night huffing for air again while sweating buckets. "Where did you go? And why are you gasping like that?"
I noticed that he was holding a plastic bag and his face was flushed.
"I bought this." He showed me the plastic bag he was holding.
"And what’s that?"
"Protection."
I couldn’t help but laugh after hearing that. Was that the reason he checked the drawers?
"The condoms that were supposed to be in that drawer are missing." He said as he pointed to the drawer he opened before. "I’m going to take a bath since I became all sweaty." I nodded and stopped myself from smiling. Night looks so cute as if he’s excited.
Should I also take a bath? I actually don’t know what to do and my heart’s starting to thump louder and faster. ’I’m getting nervous.’ But I also want to do it with him. Are we even allowed to do it? I mean, we are married, and we’re both adults now... but I just became an adult.
Is this really okay?
I quickly shook my head. "Why am I starting to ask questions now?" There’s no backing out now.
When Night got out of the bathroom, he was topless and the towel was only covering his lower half.
"Should I dry your hair for you?"
Night looked at me with a flushed look. "I would rather do something else." He said as he walked towards me with his eyes focused on me.
I gulped as I felt Night’s hands on both of my arms and he gently pushed me onto the bed. His hair was still dripping wet but I couldn’t take my eyes off his face despite some water dropping on my cheek. He looks so handsome even with that sheepish expression. ’Is he feeling shy right now?’
"How should we—"
I grabbed onto his neck and pulled him closer. "How about a kiss?"
He showed me a sheepish smile as he leaned to my face and was about to kiss me until...
