Chapter 131: If It Wasn’t Me
’D-Did he just called my name?’ I immediately let go of the doorknob and covered my mouth. ’W-What is he doing? Why is he calling my name?’
The way he was groaning, was softer and unlike the way he does whenever he’s having a nightmare. Due to curiosity, despite saying that I should respect Night’s privacy, I peeked to see what he was doing inside.
My eyes widened seeing him butt naked and his arm keeps moving as if he was doing something in front of him. Why is this scene so familiar to me?
’Ah!’
I could feel my whole face heating up remembering what Tomoe taught me before. Even though it was embarrassing, I watched the video Tomoe once told me to watch.
’H-He’s masturbating!’
I quickly ran away from that room with my face red like a tomato. Tomoe once made me watch something, it’s an adult video. Just remembering that makes me feel embarrassed, and now that I witnessed someone doing such a thing, I am more than embarrassed!
’What will Night say if he learned that I breached his privacy like this? He’ll surely hate me!’
Due to panic, I fell face-first to the ground while running in the hallway. "Young miss!" I looked up and saw Rika. "Are you alright? Your face is red."
I quickly got up and pulled Rika away from the 2nd building. ’I don’t want Night to learn that I peeked at him. What if he thinks that I’m stalking him again? It’ll ruin my confession!’ I thought as I ran towards my room while still pulling Rika.
"Did something happen, young miss? Why is your face red?" Rika asked while gasping for air. "Did the young master—" I covered her mouth to stop her from asking more questions since I feel flustered every time I see Night’s huge back.
’I’m so glad I didn’t see his thing down there.’ I shook my head.
"I-It was nothing. Forget about it, okay?"
Rika nodded despite not understanding why I’m acting like this. ’It’s better for her not to know of what happened.’ I sighed as I crawled towards my bed.
It feels like the strength in my knees won’t come back for a while. "I feel so tired."
How am I going to face Night now? I feel embarrassed just thinking that he did that while calling my name. ’Why does he have to call my name like that? I don’t understand.’
"But it didn’t feel that bad," I muttered.
My name is called by Night with affection, it doesn’t feel bad at all. ’To be honest, I felt like I wanted to be hugged by him that time.’
I quickly shook my head as I covered my face with a pillow after thinking like that. ’What am I thinking? I shouldn’t think about something so dirty when I’m not even his girlfriend yet.’
I looked at the ceiling while holding onto my pillow. "Does Night like me that much?" Were the words that came out of my mouth.
Rika was already gone and I’m all alone inside my room. Since Tomoe’s coming, I should probably sleep in that room with Night, but how will I control my facial expression? What if my face gets red the moment I see him? And we’re going to sleep in the same bed too.
’It’s too embarrassing!’
While I was twisting and turning on my bed, I heard a knock on the door causing me to stop and get up. "Who is it?" I asked.
"It’s me, milady." I heard Kenji’s voice which made me tilt my head.
"What is it?"
"The young master had learned that the lady already arrived, that’s why he wants to see the lady." He said which made me hesitate.
’Do I really have to?’
"The lady should go to the dojo and wear your uniform."
So that’s what he meant!
"O-Okay, I’ll go after changing."
After I said that I took a deep breath. I forgot that I forced Night to teach me martial arts so that I’ll be able to protect myself. ’W-With this maybe I could distract myself and stop thinking about what happened.’ That’s what I thought.
THAT’S WHAT I REALLY THOUGHT!
"Hey, you’ll get injured if you’re out of focus." Night said while half-naked and wiping his sweat. "Are you tired?"
I shook my head. ’How am I going to focus if he’s half-naked in front of me?’ I took a deep breath.
"I-I can do it."
"That’s the spirit." His voice was so gentle that I almost got distracted again. It’s so different than when he was talking to those girls from his class. "What are you doing? Show me what you got."
"So you guys are really serious about this?"
I couldn’t do what Night told me to do when we heard Makoto’s voice. "Aren’t you guys being cold? Tomoe’s here to visit you know." He said and that’s when Tomoe greeted us from hiding behind Makoto. "Don’t you think you need to greet Tomoe?"
"Why?"
I looked at Night after he asked that while wiping his sweat. ’Why is he being cold like that?’
"I-If Tomoe wants, I’ll leave," I suggested since I can feel Tomoe’s gaze on me.
"Why would you do that?" Night grabbed my arm. "If she wants you to leave, I’ll leave with you."
I was dumbfounded after hearing that. "But I want to be with you, Yoru," Tomoe said causing Shiho to grab onto Tomoe’s arm. "I’ve been dying to be with you again." She said as if it doesn’t bother her that I’m standing just in front of them.
"You better stop doing that." Night said as he picked up his bottle of water from the floor. "I have a wife now." He said as he pulled me out of the dojo, leaving the others stunned because of what he said.
I feel like my hands went cold due to that scene and now I’m being pulled away by Night.
"Why did you say that to Tomoe?" I asked as soon as we arrived inside our room.
"What? Do you want her to keep being clingy toward me?" He asked back. I know that Tomoe shouldn’t act like that with Night anymore, but they’re still family.
"You could have just gently told her."
"If I did that, she won’t stop. You don’t like her acting like that toward me, don’t you?"
"I-I don’t, but I don’t want to be mean to her either."
I heard Night sighing which made me look at him. "If I don’t do that, you’re the one who’ll get hurt." He said.
’I-Is that his way of caring for me?’
"Don’t mind it no more. Tomoe knows the consequences of her actions, and she must learn that we are not children anymore." The way Night said that made me feel sad for Tomoe.
’She has genuine feelings for Night, but because of me... she should have been the one to marry Night.’
"Don’t you think she’ll hate me more because of this?" I couldn’t help but ask, even though I already know the answer.
"Why do you ask that?"
"It’s because... if it wasn’t for me, you should have been married to Tomoe, right?"
I felt Night’s hand on my arm causing me to look up at his face. "You don’t have to worry about that. It’s all in the past, and it was only Tomoe’s wish to marry me." His words were sincere, but I wonder why I’m not feeling comfort from hearing that. If it was Tomoe, she’ll probably do better than me as Night’s wife.
"Then... you didn’t think of marrying her before?"
"If it was an order, I’ll marry her."
"No! Not like that! What I’m asking is if you—" I stopped after realizing that our bodies are too close to each other, causing me to remember what I saw earlier.
I pulled my arm away from Night. "I-I was just wondering if you didn’t have any romantic feelings towards Tomoe."
Night moved closer to me but I backed away while avoiding his gaze. "If I did, would you feel jealous?"
I quickly shook my head. "W-Why would I feel jealous?"
"Oh, probably not because you hate me right? Don’t worry, it’s all in the past now." He said as he moved away and went straight to the bathroom. He’s not denying that he did had feelings for Tomoe, does that mean he did? Now it’s bothering me.
Since I’m all sweaty, I chose to go out of the room to take a bath in my room’s bathroom.
’Did Night got annoyed because of me?’
Maybe I’m really annoying him. When I arrived in the main building, I bumped into Tomoe who just got out of Night’s room. ’Wait... did she just come out of Night’s room? Why was she there?’
"Hello there, lady Noelle." Despite the annoyance on her face, Tomoe still greeted me with formality. "It seems like Yoru didn’t come back to his room. If I may ask, where is he?" She straightforwardly asked.
"Uhm..." Should I even tell her that Night and I are sharing rooms since we are newlyweds? I mean, she has the right to now.
’What did I mean with ’rights’? Why does she have the rights to know?’ Two sides of my brain are fighting over what to do.
I don’t want her to go to him.
