Chapter 206: I’m dreaming. I’m dreaming. I’m dreaming.
Seoha’s POV
"Can you hear that?" she asks with a smile on her face.
It’s the baby’s heartbeat; I recognize it from the first time I heard Minnie’s baby’s heart beating.
It’s not real...the machine is probably still showing us the picture of Minnie’s son. This is an error.
I want it. I don’t want this. I want this. I don’t-
"You’re making a mistake" I whisper, pulling my shirt down and swinging my leg to the side to get off.
"The machine shows there’s a healthy baby in there" the doctor says in her confident voice and I shake my head in disagreement.
"I can’t be pregnant...I can’t...that’s not right" I stutter, still shaking my head and even shaking my hands in a ’no’ gesture.
I’m rapidly moving my head from side to side as if it will wake me out of this dream.
No...this isn’t a dream; this is a nightmare.
"Can you take a breath? You’ll give yourself an anxiety attack if you keep this up..." she says. The woman is holding out her hands to help me as I stumble around the small room.
What is this? What is this strange moment?
"I’m dreaming. I’m dreaming. I’m dreaming" I chant to myself, holding my head between my hands to make everything go away.
It’s not that I don’t believe that I can’t be pregnant...it’s just that I can’t be pregnant! I just can’t be pregnant.
It’s not right. It’s not fair to Taesan...oh my goddess.
"Sir?" the doctor calls as my legs carry me out of the room. I run down the hall with unsteady legs, running from a nightmare that is my reality.
’No. No. No!’ I’m screaming in my head, but my omega is silent, sitting with the news that we are having a pup.
"Hey! Watch it" a person I bump into yells, but I don’t stop to look at him, I just keep running.
I don’t know where I’m running to or how long I plan to run, I just know that I can’t stay, I can’t stay.
I’m not cut out to be a mother. I’m not ready to be a mother. I’m not strong enough to be a mother.
Daeshin’s words are still strong in my head. I’m just a childish omega with no survival instinct.
I run into a warm body, and instead of shoving me out of the way, the person hugs me.
"Come here, let me help you" he says and takes me through a different route. I don’t fight him, I’m too dazed to think it through.
It’s when fresh air hits my face that my omega starts to wail at the unfamiliar touch on us. He’s unhappy with the strange scent assaulting my senses.
"Ex-excuse me, can you let me go" I sob.
"Bring him here" I hear the instruction that comes from a voice I thought I would never hear again in my life.
Grandfather Kang.
A sob slips out of my mouth. I haven’t even had the baby; I haven’t even known about my pregnancy for up to an hour...yet he’s here.
Wouldn’t I be destroying Taesan’s life by wanting to keep an unplanned pup? Will Taesan even trust me to stay after all that Jaemin has done to him?
"Gentle with him, he’s carrying treasure" the old man says and his guard holds my arm gentler, directing my steps and body to the old man.
Old man Kang is standing in front of his car, leaning against the door and smiling.
"Why are you crying so hard, Seoha?" he asks, using the dirty end of his cane to touch my face.
"Why are you doing this to us?" I cry out and he drops the cane, leaning on it with both hands.
"Doing what, son? You are only falling to my masterpiece plan, I did nothing" he says and my chest starts to feel hot.
"I remember when I met you at Mountain Atelier from that first day? Yes, that was fate working for me. A son of my rival fell into my lap" he laughs.
I remember too.
I remember the way he scanned me like a product, and I remember the way he took off his glasses to examine me.
’Welcome to the family, Shin’ was what he said.
"You planned everything?"
"Yes, your father has something that I want, sadly I can’t steal it unless I have his bloodline on my side" he says and I place my hands over mouth.
"I stole your eggs...I’m sure you know that by now, well that one...Sooin? won’t be of benefit to me, the girl has no Kang blood in her"
"Why?" I ask.
"WHY!" I scream and he places a finger over his mouth, shushing me and stopping me from screaming.
"What did we ever do to you?" tears blur my vision, and goddess...I hate this man with every fiber of my body.
"You know nothing, Seoha. Once you have a taste of power, it never ends. It becomes gluttony" he says and lets out a quiet laughter.
"It’s only a matter of time before Taesan becomes like me"
"He will never be like you! Taesan will always be better than you, he’s stronger and smarter than you. He’s more human than you" I scream the words and he only reaches out to pat my head.
"You don’t know anything. I groomed him perfectly, I made him a killer...tell me, Seoha. Can you heal a scar that has been there for over twenty years?" he asks, dragging his hand from my head to my face.
"But you...you let us go that day" I say the words weakly.
"You think I let you go?" he whispers and a lone tear slides down my face.
"I could smell the milk on you, I’ve bred enough omegas to know the early stage of a pup’s development" he takes his hand off me and wipes his palm on his thigh.
"The Shin lands, the gold, the power...they will be the Kangs" he abruptly stops talking, gets into his car and drives off.
My knees buckle under me and I kneel on the floor of the hospital alley.
No one is seeing me, no one is saving me, and I can’t stay in a world where Taesan will be forced to be who he’s not.
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