Chapter 1180: Chapter 1180: Mu Shaoqian’s Diary: Yuan, Farewell Till We Meet Again
Hearing these words and looking at the notebook Mu Jingheng handed over, Yan Xinxin’s vision gradually blurred.
It was once Mu Qianyuan’s room.
The warm afternoon sun quietly spilled onto the pure white plush carpet. Yan Xinxin sat by the floor-to-ceiling window and reached out to open Mu Shaoqian’s notebook.
On the first page that opened, she immediately saw the words "Qianyuan."
She read one word at a time and discovered that Mu Shaoqian, in fact, realized that Yan Xinxin was Mu Qianyuan even before Mu Qianshui revealed the truth.
’April 1st, sunny.
Yuan, today is April Fool’s Day, but everything that happened is true. Brother really wants to see you but has no face to show you. Even hearing your voice makes me feel exposed. Everyone must walk their own path, but I never imagined mine would be a path of no return.’
’April 5th, cloudy.
Yuan, you don’t know how aimless I became after you left at the age of six. As I grew up, I became more indulgent and lazy, always chasing after unattainable things. Sometimes I wonder if I would’ve become a better brother and a better son under your guidance if you had stayed. I think I would have, because I always listened to you, and you would certainly have filled me with positivity.’
’April 8th, rainy.
Yuan, it’s raining today, but I suddenly like this rain, because it can water the hydrangeas I planted for you. Hydrangeas, they’re Little Qianyuan’s favorite flowers. I remember when you were little, you always carried a bunch of hydrangeas wherever you went. You said seeing hydrangeas made you happy, but you probably don’t know that seeing your sweet smile always made me very happy...’
’May 8th, sunny.
Yuan, a month has passed, and my condition has worsened. Perhaps I’ll never get to see you standing in a sea of hydrangeas again, or see your happy smile, but it doesn’t matter. Even if I’m truly gone, I’ll silently protect my Little Qianyuan, watching her and the one she loves, appreciating the sea of hydrangeas together.’
’May 12th, sunny.
Yuan, I never expected to see you in the hospital parking lot today. You are so beautiful, as lovely as a hydrangea, even more adorable than when you were little. I don’t know how many more times I’ll be able to see you. When we were young, Mu Qianshui often played with us, but maybe it was the bond of blood that made it so that whenever you were around, my eyes could only see you, my sister. I wanted to give you everything good and longed to... accompany my Little Qianyuan as she grows up happily.’
’May 20th, sunny.
Yuan, I was truly happy that day when you came home. You brought your Brother Xi, Little Xi, and Chun back home, had them call me uncle, and call Dad and Mom grandpa and grandma. I’ve long stopped hoping for your forgiveness. Just having such a day is enough for me. I originally thought your Brother Xi was cold and heartless, but in the end, he also wished for me to live.’
’May 25th, sunny.
Yuan, Brother is leaving. Even though the hospital informed me that they found a matching bone marrow, I’m suddenly scared—scared it might be yours. I don’t deserve any more forgiveness from you, let alone your help. After living for these twenty-seven years, I’ve only now realized how little I’ve seen of this world, so I want to see the world outside. You can just think of it as me going on a trip.
Yuan, it’s been many years, nearly twenty. I’ve thought of you for twenty years, yet today I understand what the greatest distance in the world is. It’s you standing right in front of me, yet I didn’t know you were the most cherished little princess.
Brother hopes you can forgive Mom. She loves you dearly but used the wrong methods.
Yuan, if Brother is ever fortunate enough to be alive again, then the next time hydrangeas bloom, it will be our family reunion. If I don’t show up then, let’s plan for the next life.
Yuan, Brother is leaving now. Until we meet again.’
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