"Separate? You think this is the best choice?" In the end, Tan Yan only asked this one question.
"Perhaps this is not the best choice. After all, for two children, this means they have to accept the separation of their parents. However, for our lives, this is the most responsible way." Qin Qian replied.
Tan Yan looked at her deeply.
Qin Qian avoided his gaze. I know you don't want it to end like this, but I think you'll be grateful to me in the future. " Smiling, Qin Qian continued to speak indifferently, "As for the two children, you don't have to worry. If they follow me, I will definitely let them grow happily, and I will also have the ability to bring them a warm and full life."
Tan Yan still did not speak. His eyes were as calm as stone and his tightly pursed lips did not reveal any emotion. Rest well first, you shouldn't think so much right now. " Tan Yan said, "If you don't want to see me right now, I can go back to C City and after I settle the matters there, I will come to pick you and the child up."
"After I left the hospital, I wanted to stay here. I don't want to see you again." Qin Qian interrupted Tan Yan and said calmly, "I don't want to continue lying to myself and guarding someone who doesn't love me. At the same time, I also don't want to waste your time.
She knew that she was forcing him to say those words.
She was forcing him to give up his responsibility to her, forcing him to choose his own heart.
"Don't feel sorry for me, really... There is no one who is responsible for the life of another. " She continued.
"Do you really hope so?"
"Yes, this is what I hope for the most." Qin Qian lifted her head and looked straight into Tan Yan's eyes. "You don't have to be responsible for my life, because the person responsible for my life is myself. I chose all the roads and walked out of them myself. Actually, I didn't really blame you at all." She continued to speak calmly and decisively, but her voice was no longer as steady as before.
Then, Qin Qian still smiled towards Tan Yan, "You also know that what you truly love a person is not to possess him, but to hope to see him happy ??"
These words revealed her thoughts.
Her love for him was as deep as ever.
However, she now understood more about what it meant to truly love someone ??
Previously, she clearly knew that the person he loved in his heart was An Ran, yet she had deceived herself.
Tan Yan looked at her. The despair in her eyes made him understand that he was no longer able to persuade her.
And at this moment, Qin Qian looked at Tan Yan. The loneliness that was buried in his eyes had pierced through her chest, causing her heart to ache.
She knew that he definitely couldn't bear to part with his two children, but she also couldn't give up on them ?? Perhaps their future was her only hope of survival.
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the door to the ward. She knew that the next second, if he turned around and left, there would be no co
ection between them.
However, he didn't get up from the bed for a long time, which caused her eyes to ache.
Why isn't he leaving?
Qin Qian looked away helplessly, waiting for Tan Yan to leave, but Tan Yan still did not leave.
Tan Yan sat at the bedside, and at a distance that wasn't too far away, his deep eyes were like two pools of deep water, deeply restraining the truest feelings in his heart.
"You may leave ??" We'il both be fine... You also know that I have such a good friend like Xiao Ying. In the future, I won't encounter any dangers or difficulties with my physique. " Qin Qian asked Tan Yan, her voice trembling slightly, "I sincerely hope that you can let go of the burden in your heart and pursue your true love from the bottom of your heart."
She said the blessing in her heart and longed for his true happiness.
He would never know how much she loved him, how much she wanted to be with him, but she knew she couldn't be so selfish ??
Seeing Qin Qian like this, Tan Yan's chest hurt.
He pursed his lips and looked at Qin Qian, but did not have any words to say.
He knew that it was useless for him to say anything now ??
Every word she said made his heart ache.
He finally stood up, not wanting to see her try to hold back her tears any longer. He knew that patience was more painful than release.
Seeing Tan Yan get up, even though her chest was aching to the point that it pierced his heart, Qin Qian still forced himself to smile. She even said to him, "Go and see our daughter again, give her a name, let the nurse tell me ??"
Tan Yan looked at Qin Qian's eyes that were filled with tears. Abruptly, he lowered his head and kissed her forehead.
Qin Qian knew that this was a farewell kiss ??
Her tears slid out of her eyes, drop by drop, so clear.
Tan Yan gently wiped away his tears for Qin Qian, just like in the past when she had shed tears.
Qin Qian felt his warm palm. She wanted to grab onto his hand and not let go, but she couldn't. Her reason did not convince her.
"Shallow ??"
Tan Yan opened his mouth, his voice was filled with depression, it was low and hoarse.
"Between us, we started at the wrong place. As you said, we really need an end ?? In the past, I thought that I was making up for you in the right way, but now I know that it was wrong... Indeed, we need a new begi
ing. "
Qin Qian's tears fell continuously. Even if it was a pearl with a broken string ??
However, what she didn't know was that every tear on her face was burning painfully in his chest.
Qin Qian replied, "I'm very happy, you can finally let it go ??"
Tan Yan continued to speak, "You always said that you were very happy to meet me in this life. Actually, the most unfortunate thing in your life was to meet me."
Tan Yan's words made Qin Qian's heart ache. Don't say that... I don't want to see you look guilty and upset. "
"Take good care of yourself." Tan Yan said the last sentence, his voice filled with pain.
At this moment, Qin Qian did not close her eyes because it was too painful. She did not even have the strength to close her eyes ??
Tan Yan closed his eyes for a long time, and started to adjust his emotions.
Qin Qian looked at him from the corner of his eyes. He tried his best to widen his eyes to prevent his tears from flowing down, but his tears were still unruly and disobedient.
"Take good care of yourself." After saying that, Tan Yan finally left the bedside.
Qin Qian no longer looked at him, and shifted her gaze away.
Tan Yan walked out of the ward and didn't look back.
It was only until the sickroom returned to its original quiet state that Qin Qian finally looked at the door, but that person was no longer there. Even the air around him was slowly losing its scent.
Qin Qian finally allowed herself to sob. Even though the sobs were already tearing at the wound on her abdomen, she was no longer able to feel any pain, because her heart was already numb ??
Tan Yan...
She called his name in her heart and said goodbye to him.
Goodbye...
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