Chapter 489.1: Confession Cont.
“Okay.” Unconsciously, this word already came out from Jing Wan’s mouth.
A moment later, Jing Wan slowly reached out, hugging Li Hong Yuan’s waist. She was very clear, on this matter, this man didn’t do anything wrong. She shouldn’t doubt his feelings towards her, and from there, hurt him. It was her that was stubbornly stuck in a cow horn, but feelings, this kind of thing, wasn’t something that can be controlled by reason. Because she cared, that’s why she cared about the personal gains and losses, because she deeply loved, that’s why she can’t allow for the slightly blemish. Even if it was ‘herself’, it can still overturn the vinegar jar. And in this moment, Jing Wan also deeply realized that she truly has thoroughly fallen in love with this man. Many things already didn’t allow for her to back away.
The gloominess in Li Hong Yuan’s eyes didn’t because of this word from Jing Wan and her movements just dispel. On the contrary, it grew even denser. He has never been a magnanimous person. In contrast, he was very petty, and moreover, greedy. Wan Wan loved him now, this bit didn’t need to be doubted, but it was still not enough. It at least needs to be that no matter what she would all love him and won’t have the slightest thought of leaving. What he wanted was everything, what he wanted was the absolute.
“Wan Wan won’t leave me, right?” Regardless of what emotions he had in his eyes, his voice still carried caution, even having a trace of anxiety.
Jing Wan heartached again, lightly stroking Li Hong Yuan’s back again and again, “Naturally won’t.”
“But what about just now, I merely just started, yet Wan Wan immediately just got up to leave. Did you ever once considered my feelings in the slightest?”
“Sorry, sorry, that was my bad, I was wrong. I was just very messy inside and also very scared, scared that the one you love wasn’t me, scared that if I continue staying, I will breakdown. I don’t want to, at the same time learning that I never once obtained your love, even have my last bit of dignity all thrown in. Clearly, I was wrong, so fortunately, you stopped me. Forgive me, alright? I promise, in the future, this kind of thing won’t happen again, I promise.”
“As long as Wan Wan won’t leave me, anything is okay, anything is okay.” Li Hong Yuan had himself placed in the lowest position.
“Are you stupid, we’re husband and wife, and you’re a wangye, as your wangfei, where can I go? Don’t think of nonsense.”
“Could it be that in Wan Wan’s eyes, it’s merely because of this heavy status that’s forcing you to stay?” Li Hong Yuan let go of Jing Wan, grabbing her shoulders, fixedly staring at her, his eyes slightly red, clearly exceptionally emotional.
If at other times, seeing him like this, Jing Wan perhaps would just inwardly roll her eyes at him, then complain a few words inside, but now, it completely wasn’t the case anymore, also understanding the reason why he was on edge from time to time in the past, because the scars left behind from the past life were too heavy. That’s why, any slight movement of the grass can all make him uneasy. It was her fault. She didn’t notice that he was uneasy this whole time. What she did was far from enough, she can’t let him be anxious.
“I didn’t mean that, merely just wanted to tell you that I can’t possibly leave you. Ah Yuan, where you are at is where my heart belongs.”
Li Hong Yuan’s emotions finally eased a little, having Jing Wan taken into his arms again, “Wan Wan, I’ve said before, if my heart ever changes, you can take my life, but if your heart changes, I probably won’t kill you, just imprisoning you for life, letting me be the only existence in your life. That kind of days, believe that no one would want.”
“My entire heart has long been tied on you, how can it still change? I stand by the fact that my heart is unable to be divided, and my feelings will always remain the same from beginning to end. It won’t because of the passing of time just change. I believe that in this world there also won’t be anyone that is better to me than you. Even if there is, I still just want you.”
Li Hong Yuan snorted, “How can there be someone better to you than me.”
“Yes, I believe.”
It can be seen that Jing Wan’s mood actually completely got swayed by Li Hong Yuan. Because he revealed his weakness, because he revealed a bit of his emotions, Jing Wan just completely disregarded herself, wholeheartedly just wanting to console him and go along with him. It was obvious that in her heart, his everything actually all exceed herself. The most simple point was that right now, did she still remember her initial mood?
However, even if Li Hong Yuan wanted to play tricks, what bounded Jing Wan was ultimately still those true feelings. As such, even if Jing Wan was a bit ‘ignorant’, it still didn’t matter.
“Wangye, wangfei, should the tea be replenished?” Because there wasn’t any movement for a long time, Gong mama aptly opened her mouth outside.
Clearly, with the atmosphere right now, having a third person ease it a little was also not bad. At least, can let them both calm down.
Jing Wan withdrew from Li Hong Yuan’s arms and sat to the side, lowering her head, using the handkerchief to press the corners of her eyes.
And for Li Hong Yuan right now, aside from Jing Wan, no one else was able to make him reveal any special emotions. Even if there is, nine times out of ten, it was all an act. This while, he naturally didn’t have any expression at all. “Come in.”
Gong mama came in, quickly switching the hot tea. Her gaze very faintly swept over Li Hong Yuan and Jing Wan’s face. With how great her eyesight was, how could she not tell. Sure enough, it was having fought?
Prior to them entering the study, Li Hong Yuan had already ordered everyone to retreat far away, and without permission, not allow to approach. It had been perfectly fine for the first two or so hours, but afterwards, there was suddenly a disturbance. Because they were far away, they could only hear the subtle movements, but no one dared to approach.
“This servant will withdraw.”
Shortly after, Li Hong Yuan poured a cup of warm tea for Jing Wan. Standing before Jing Wan, his finger lightly brush over the bottom of Jing Wan’s eye.
Jing Wan lifted her head to look at him, softly letting out a ‘en’. Taking the cup, she lightly took a sip.
“What Wan Wan wants to know, you can all ask, this husband can tell you anything.”
Jing Wan opened her mouth, seemingly having many things she wanted to ask, yet when it really came to this moment, there really wasn’t anything she wanted to ask. Moreover, it seemingly didn’t have any meaning either. From his words just now, many things, she actually already learned. Those things, she really wasn’t willing to see.
The Wu’an Marquis Manor, the target that she was still sighing at early, in another timeline unbeknownst to her, she and that family’s relationship was actually that closely tied. But, her family’s love towards her was still the same. Then, while clearly knowing what kind of circumstance the Wu’an Marquis Manor was in, why did she marry over? Also, the Luo family’s situation, especially her grandmother. Never mind experiencing, just thinking of that scene, Jing Wan’s heart just clenched with pain.
Based on Jing Wan’s understanding towards a certain someone, and that level of pettiness of his, mentioning the Wu’an Marquis Manor was actually a very dangerous topic. That’s why, Jing Wan perceptively chose to not ask.
However, how sharp was Li Hong Yuan, seeing Jing Wan slightly hesitate, he for the most part just knew what she thought of, his complexion instantly just darkening, “Want to know how you married into the Wu’an Marquis Manor? Li Ru Yu schemed against you at the Ding Duke Manor to make you fall into the water, and Fu Yun Ting saved you. As for the reason, seemingly it had to do with Sun Yi Lin, satisfied?”
This one line just involved two people in his minefield. Jing Wan, who a moment ago was still feeling sorry for him, this while was somewhat between laughter and tears. She didn’t even mention. It was him that insisted on making himself upset. Moreover, reasonably speaking, based on his explanation, during this period in time, she and this man simply never crossed paths, so how can this debt be counted on her head. Regardless of what kind of relationship the her from his memories had with Fu Yun Ting, Fu Yun Ting in reality didn’t have any relations with the current her. Didn’t this man already cleanly sever all possibilities?
“Wan Wan was very virtuous and loyal. Even if becoming my woman and giving birth to my son, you were still unwilling to enter the imperial tombs, and because you felt sorry to Fu Yun Ting, even the Fu family ancestral tombs, you weren’t willing to enter either.” Li Hong Yuan complexion darkened even more, becoming irritable again, “To even keep Fu Yun Ting around and protect the Fu family? This prince should’ve long extinguished them.”
Jing Wan didn’t answer either. After all, anything she says can be wrong, making this man’s symptoms even worse. Thus, she just watched him anger himself like that. However, her expression was ultimately still gentle, because she instantly understood why this man chose to protect the Fu family, because ‘she’ once wanted to protect the Fu family.
Just, ‘her’ being someone else’s wife, yet became his woman and even gave birth to a son? If not for getting forced by this man, then it was just getting threatened by him. Having done such a thing, never mind not feeling embarrassed, to even cause trouble for the other party, Jing Wan really wanted to know, exactly what was his skin made from, even steel and copper can’t compare with him.
“What is Wan Wan thinking about? You feel that it’s only right for this prince to save the Fu family?”
“I was just thinking that I actually got schemed against by someone like Li Ru Yu, ‘I’ was truly too stupid.” Jing Wan subconsciously said.
What kind of personality Jing Wan had, he naturally was clear, and when being dishonest, what kind of reaction she would have, he similarly understood. What she was saying and what she was thinking were definitely not the same, and it wasn’t the first time either. This kind of thing, he was too lazy to bicker about too. What he really cared about was, “Stupid? Li Ru Yu for better or worse was a junzhu. If she lets someone directly have you thrown into the water, can this little body of yours even avoid?” On normal days, he didn’t call Jing Wan stupid any less, but when Jing Wan really says this about herself, he was also unwilling.
That’s why, since everything was already said to the fullest by him, it was best to remain silent.
However, Li Hong Yuan nevertheless half knelt down, meeting with her line of sight, “There’s one thing that needs Wan Wan to clear up for this husband.”
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