Chapter 24.1
No matter how much Kaid loved to eat sweets, it would be hard for him to eat all five cakes by himself. It was also difficult to leave the cakes for later since it might be poisoned. So, the cakes were given to me. But I felt a little guilty while eating the cake even though four other people had permitted me to eat it. This was because the cakes were supposed to be a present for Kaid. The cakes were sweet, and the flavors burst in my mouth as I took a bite.
For a while, only the clicking sound of tableware was heard in the room.
I’ve noticed this recently, neither of us was great at starting conversations. I’ve already known that my social skills were not my strong suit, but it turned out that it was the same for Kaid. This would’ve been different if there was a topic for us to talk about, or if someone else was in the room. But since we were the only two people in the empty room, it was dead silent beside the occasional clinking of the tableware as we ate.
“Um, my lady?”
“What’s the matter?”
“What about the dress?”
I looked up when he suddenly broke the silence. His tone was humble, and he had a troubled expression on his face. He looked like he was surprised at himself for starting the conversation.
“Are you referring to the dress that I will be wearing to the royal capital?”
“Yes.”
I was pretty confident about what he was referring to, but I asked him directly to confirm that I was correct.
As for the dress that I will be wearing to the royal capital, they had already taken my measurements and showed me a few popular styles. However, because I’m not well versed in the current fashion trends, I left the final touches to Caron and the dressmaker.
I had no choice but to have an expensive dress made by the dressmaker.
Anyway, I would become a laughingstock if I wore a dress according to my taste. After all, I am the fiancée of the feudal lord. The feudal lord and his fiancée will be the representatives of Laius. If we did not have the appropriate attire and manners, other nobles will gossip and look down on us. And if one of the noble ladies from Laius wore a dress that was more expensive than mine, then I would be insulted and deemed unsuitable to be the feudal lord’s fiancée.
I liked to dress modestly, especially when I visited the orphanage. But if I dressed like usual, then I would not be approved by other nobles.
These were one of the few absurd rules that we had to follow. But, after some time, we had come to an unspoken agreement that there was no reason to break these rules and disturb the peace.
Wearing a beautifully tailored dress will establish my status and make me look like a figure of power in Laius. I must wear it while exuding an aura of confidence. But looking at the way I am right now… Will I be able to properly do my part?
“I don’t think that my body shape will change drastically by the time I head to the royal capital, but because I haven’t stopped growing yet, I asked them to be flexible with the measurement.”
“Is that so?”
“Yep.”
When our conversation ended, the room became dead silent again.
Starting a new topic of conversation was not my specialty, and there were a few topics that I dreaded talking about since it was associated with a few of my more unpleasant memories. I couldn’t find a topic to follow-up on right now because my mind was drawing a blank.
I wondered if it was possible for us to both choose a topic that we both agreed on to talk about. Nonetheless, men and women usually enjoyed talking about different topics. Even so, it seemed like Kai had memorized some of the more popular topics to talk about among women. This can be seen when he started talking about the dress that I was going to wear to the royal capital. Topics such as what dresses were fashionable, and the latest jewelry had been hammered into my mind. With that said, I preferred shying away from topics about my past because I feel uncomfortable whenever my past was brought up in a conversation.
When silence fell upon the room again, I was troubled by what I should do. I was flustered and my mind was in a mess as I scrambled around looking for a topic to talk about.
I was already satisfied that Kaid was alive and well, and here with me. But I didn’t want to verbally express it. Perhaps, it wasn’t smart to force a topic; it might make the atmosphere even more awkward. I was happy just being able to look at Kaid even if we’re not talking with one another. I felt like I was on cloud nine just by looking at him.