'What is freedom? What is happiness? Am I free? Am I happy?'
It wasn't indeed the best time to have such reflection, and yet, when I began to absorb the energy from the monster's core, I was calm and instead of worries or anxieties, a glimpse of the future appeared inside of my mind.
'There's nothing…'
With the energy that I absorbed from the monsters' cores, I managed to push my body to its limit for a few moments, materializing the antimatter.
What I didn't expect, however, was that it would also affect my mind because seeing the world through the antimatter was a very exceptional experience that couldn't be described with words, but at the same time, it made me wonder if there was a point in everything.
Everything was so far away, and I was observing the fragments of countless realities.
I didn't understand anything, but I wasn't panicking, even though what I was seeing was not something that a human should see.
I felt like I was half conscious and half dreaming. My brain blurred the images that I couldn't process, and I felt a bit like my head was floating in the clouds.
"Hahahahahaha!"
I began to laugh without any reason.
"There's nothing here…" I said, even though there were incomprehensible things and countless mirror-like fragments that had images inside of them.
I knew that I had to regain control of my thoughts and my body, but something prevented me from doing so.
Somehow, I felt extremely comfortable, and I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep.
In a way, there was nothing anywhere within the realm where I ended up after materializing the Antimatter all around my body. I didn't feel pain, anguish, fear, or anything else… I was alone, I was peaceful.
I wondered what freedom was, what happiness was because I felt like what I was feeling at that moment wasn't bad at all.
"Hahahaha! This feels good!"
I wasn't bound by any law, and everything I wanted was there.
I reached my hand towards what I desired the most…
"No!"
There was a part of me who was still conscious and managed to stop myself from doing something that could make things more difficult.
For some reason, it was as if I was drunk and my head was thrown into chaos.
My body grow a lot of arms, heads, and legs and all of my heads began to talk by themselves. I couldn't control it, or more likely, I was already doing something before I could even think about it… I had mouths that talked at the same time, and somehow my appearance turned into something horrific.
"She will be mine and I…"
"Lavidas! Lalalavidas!"
"You can't stop me, I will…"
"What dream? This is…"
"I need to get out of here…"
"Woof! Woof!"
"Yeah, I love you too…"
"Who is that?"
"Mom?"
"Stop!"
"Who are you?"
"Meieieieieieie!"
…It didn't stop, and even though I knew what I needed to do, my emotions didn't even match my intentions, and my words didn't even make sense.
Such a thing would certainly make someone feel extremely frightened, but I couldn't even feel scared.
If it continued, I knew, I would turn into something that no one have ever seen. I felt like I was merging with something, multiplying, dividing, and re-emerging again. The process was indescribable.
I was forced to feel comfortable while all of that was happening, and I didn't even feel the need to do anything about it.
"Adam!"
Alone in this realm, I heard a voice.
"Adam!"
I wanted to ask who this person was, but somehow I felt like I had already asked the question before so my voice didn't come out.
"Opopopo! Gangnam style! Sexy lady!"
"When do I get the money?"
"You are cute, but don't tease me like that."
Instead, my mouths continued to mutter incomprehensible words. However, I felt fulfilled, knowing that everything that was missing in my life was there, and I was present during these moments at the same time.
If viewed from that point of view, nothing could be more fulfilling than what was happening to me, but deep inside, I understood that something didn't feel right.
"Open your eyes!"
"Ah!!" I gasped and inhaled a mouthful of air.
I instantly realized that somehow, I landed on the ground, but I didn't exactly know how it happened.
In front of me, there was a big dragon who looked like it was made of magma and looking up, I saw that Liu was still defending the ship, but her power seemed to have weakened as the ice dragon had only three heads left.
"What was that?" I asked myself, and I could still see that I had goosebumps all over my body because I was naked.
I immediately understood that I was about to make another mistake. I didn't enough information on my hand, but I still wanted to try something out of curiosity.
"Roooar!"
The red dragon appeared to be injured, and looking around me, I realized that I was standing in the middle of a huge crater that razed half of the city.
"What the hell did I do?" I asked.
The black cape put itself on my back and I floated above the dragon, but it bowed its head low as if it admitted its defeat.
'How can a beast like this admit defeat I wondered? It seems like there are still a lot of things that I don't know about my power,' I concluded.
However, it was time to leave and forget about what I was trying to achieve because no matter what I had in mind, it was a failure. I lacked information, and I had no control over what was happening and almost destroyed myself.
'That voice though…'
As I floated towards the ship, the remaining monsters tried to attack me.
"Rooaaaar!"
Unexpectedly, the red dragon incinerated them all.
Shocked by what was happening, I looked back and saw that the red dragon was following me.
Seeing this, I raised my hand, but when I did so, it lowered its head and backed away.
'What's the deal with this thing?' I thought, and knowing that I had already messed around too much, I hurried to the ship. However, the red dragon continued to follow me from afar.
"Come here!" I shouted, asking the dragon to come closer to me.
I was about to kill it, but I messed up and scared it to death instead.
"Kuuuuu." The dragon made a very strange sound as it approached me, and its attitude reminded me of a dog that my mother and I kept at home in my previous life.
My mother would scold it for messing around the house, but it still follow her around from afar.
It seemed like this monster accepted that I was the strongest around, but somehow, I felt like it was more intelligent than the average monster to realize such a thing and act the way it did.
'How should I handle this?' I pondered a bit. Normally, I wouldn't hesitate to eliminate anything that could threaten my life and the people I cared about, but somehow, the evolution of monsters intrigued me.
"Be smaller!" I ordered, and I knew that I was asking too much from a hundred of meters tall dragon.
However, the dragon's scale began to turn into some kind of stone, making the dragon look like a statue.
Swoosh!
The dragon statue fell to the ground and broke apart.
"What is this?" I mumbled.
It was not the time for such a thing, and I knew that Liu and the others were waiting for me, but I wanted to see what was happening to the dragon.
"Pyuuu!"
After that, something glowed in the middle of the rumbles and something emerged out of it.
It had the body of a little girl, but it had small wings, a tail, and two horns.
"Il ne manquait plus que ?a!" I said, and I seen spoke in a different language because of what I was seeing.
The dragon indeed got smaller, 'but what will I do with this thing?' I thought.
Still, the monster evolved again, and this time, it became more human-like.
The little dragon girl flew around me as if it was a happy little girl seeing her father. It irritated me.
"Stop that! Come here!" I said and rushed towards the spaceship.
All of this time, Cristal wasn't far from me but I only remembered her presence after we entered the ship.
"Let's go, Zax!" I said, but everyone was fixing me odd eyes, mostly Liu.
It was understandable since there was something weird next to me, but I didn't want to answer their question for the time being.
I was totally exhausted, and I felt like my body was on autopilot. In other words, I needed to rest.
"O-okay…" Zax replied, but her tone was a little bit off and then the ship left the planet using hyper-speed.
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