Chapter 146: Her Trauma
Lana again heard the screaming voice of that man, threatening her biological mother.
"Bi*ch come here! I said give me more money!" The recollection of that voice made Lana tremble. She again saw that little girl, trembling just like her, sitting in the closet and peeping from a small opening of the closet. She witnessed that monstrous man hit her mother left and right, barbarically, not minding where she fell and how she got hurt.
''Run!'' Lana, who was sitting on the floor of the elevator, shouted to her mother, wanting her to run away and save her life... but she stayed there like a moron. Not fighting back… Giving everything she got to that man, whom she loved unconditionally.
"Why don't you run away? He will kill you… run! run… run!" Lana's sobs started turning into wails and she kept on repeating her words.
And suddenly, she saw her mother's body slumped on the floor and blood flooding out from her head.
The little girl that Lana was seeing in front of her was terrified and she wanted to shout. But to save herself, the little girl closed her mouth and covered it with her hand. Still sitting in the closet, she started crying but to not let any sound escape from her mouth she tightly covered her mouth with her hand.
Lana sitting on the elevator floor was also trembling with fear and had lost all sense of time and space. In that state of mind, she had again traversed into that time when that heart wrenching trauma happened with her.
"Lanabelle! Don't test my patience!!! Come out!!! Come to daddy or you'll end up like your mother. Do you want to end up like your mother?!!!" She heard her father's growl.
The young Lana tightened the grip of her hand on her mouth with her small hands to stop herself from making any sound because of continuous sobbing. She was too terrified. She did not want to end up like her mother.
She remembered that she often asked her mother why they were not leaving her father but her mother would always have one answer to her, "Lanabelle, when you love someone, you should never leave them and must stay with them no matter what. I have loved your father from the core of my heart, even if we leave him and go away, I can't live without your father."
"Stupid! This is not love… this is violence… this is not love..." Lana whispered while she sobbed and gasped for air inside the elevator. She wanted to run away from there, she wanted to escape.
For a few minutes she could see herself as the little Lana, terrified, scared, trying to hide, and then she saw herself scolding, reprimanding and trying to give sense to her already dead mother. Lana was in a weird state at that moment… broken, emotionally unstable… drowned in her past memories and devastated.
She wanted to collect herself and tried to move her body, to stand up and bang on the lift door, to shout for someone to get her out from there, but she couldn't. She felt as if a colossal weight had been put on her and it glued her to the floor of the elevator. Her entire body could not respond, and she was falling deeper and deeper in that abyss of her trauma.
Lana tried to open her eyes, and it was dark everywhere. Suddenly her father's mocking face popped up in front of her eyes with an evil demonic grin, "Found you!"
"No!!! Help!" Lana screamed with a cracked and terrified voice as she again closed her eyes tightly.
Everything felt so real… Her body ached as she helplessly slumped on the floor, trying to get up and again falling down several times. Her father then grabbed her neck, trying to choke her to death while he raised her body on the wall.
"Help…" Lana was screaming hard. She felt someone holding her again and she struggled to get away from the grip. She knew if her father caught her this time he would kill her. She tried to collect as much power she could and threw her hands at the man trying to grab her.
'Let me go!!! Don't touch me!" She cried while she struggled to break free from the sudden embrace she felt on her body. Her energy was wading off and she still didn't want to die in his hands like her mother.
That moment when the thought of dying came to her mind, she heard another voice telling her something, telling her that she was strong and she could endure for a while more. That voice, that familiar voice, it seemed coming from afar...
"Hush... hush… It's me, love. It's Liam." Lana then heard a familiar calming voice whisper in her ears. She felt a familiar embrace that evoked a sense of security and belonging in her.
Her mind started to calm down a little and the haze that was engulfing her entire senses started to clear up. Lana could differentiate between the present and the flashes of memory, but yet could not set herself free from that moment of her past. The lingering fear of the entire incident was so fresh in her mind again.
The trauma that her naive heart had gone through had come back, haunting her tonight very badly.
Her body calmed down when she felt Liam's warmth on her body. She slowly opened her eyes and saw Liam. "Liam? You are here? Where had you been? He will kill me Liam... I'm so scared, Liam," she whispered with a shaking voice.
"I'm here now… I'm here love… I am sorry I am a little late." Liam whispered as he carried Lana into his arms.
Lana looked up and saw Liam's worried face tilted towards her, his eyes filled with love had the hint of possessiveness towards her.
She felt a surge of comfort oozing out from him and she snuggled herself on his chest to absorb that comfort in her body and closed her eyes.
Her father was a monster… What was she herself doing by succumbing to that monstrous trait of her father? Rejecting the love and giving pain to satisfy her own fears? What if she turned out to be like her father?
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