Chapter 751 Seth Confessed
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Lena had heard from her handmaiden that Amon had arrived in their camp, which is why she immediately went out of her tent to look for him. She wanted to see him in person another time in order to be able to gauge her feelings for him. The first time she had seen him again, she had felt a sharp pain in her heart and something else she couldn't explain.
Xenia had already told her everything about her that their queen was aware of. She had gracefully answered every question she had, as best she could. Xenia had even allowed her to meet the Guardians of the Element Forest with the use of her magic pearl, which was a means of communication through an actual vision with the use of a spell.
She had gotten all the answers she needed, yet deep inside she still felt as if something was missing… Maybe it was because she would no longer remember that part of her.
"This is so messed up," Lena murmured to herself as she walked outside.
She bit her lower lip as she thought of a good alibi to cover for why she had wanted to see and speak with King Amon. According to Xenia, Amon might not fully remember her and the memories which they had shared as he too had also lost his memory. But unlike her, his memory loss was not permanent and it would eventually return.
'I wonder how he must be feeling right now. What is he doing here?' she mused as she looked around for someone she could ask as to where she could find him. Her handmaiden was not aware and did not know where he was as she had immediately left to her to report Amon's arrival.
She heard about the ambush that had happened yesterday. Amon was with Bella and she was relieved that the both of them were now safe from harm. Despite her not seeing Bella, Lena made sure to keep herself updated on how Bella was doing. She was glad that Bella was unharmed. She smiled as she recalled how strong Bella was. Bella was a strong-willed warrior and she heard it was even she who had saved Amon and even carried him back to Helion camp.
"Lady Lena," Seth greeted her with his usual bright smile.
"Commander Seth," Lena greeted back with a smile. She couldn't help but feel sorry for the man before her. Seth was a good man. He was so patient with her. Even though she had already turned him down, he chose to stay with her, only asking that she let him love her in his own way without having to ask for anything in return.
She liked Seth a lot, but despite this, she simply couldn't find it in her heart to commit herself to him because deep inside she knew that something was missing. She felt as if she already had someone in her heart, but she couldn't explain who it was or why she always felt as if someone or something was tugging at her heart strings.
Now, everything had suddenly made sense to her… It was Osman who she always longed for… Osman who was now known as Amon, King of the Helion Kingdom.
"Lady Lena," Seth tried to get her attention by calling her name again, as she was just standing still on her post while simply staring at him.
"Oh, I'm sorry Seth," she apologized as soon as she snapped back from her stupor.
"I think I lost you for a minute there, you looked to have been far away, thinking of something deeply. I tried to converse with you just now, yet you only continued to stare at me," Seth observed. "I would be flattered if you were staring due to my handsome face, yet I sense as if that isn't the case based on the expression you have in your eyes."
"Right, I'm sorry. I haven't been as present as I've just been preoccupied with something," she bashfully answered. She wondered if she should tell Seth everything going on in her head, after all, Seth was one of the people she had trusted with her life.
"Are you looking for someone, because it looked like you were just now," Seth asked.
"Right, I am looking for King Amon. My handmaiden had mentioned that he just arrived at our camp," Lena timidly stated. She was unable to meet Seth's eyes, it had felt as if she was committing a sin against him and it was a very uncomfortable feeling. Lena felt as if she were going crazy right now, with all of these mixed emotions and feelings inside of her.
She was utterly confused. All she knew was that there was this urge within her to go and see King Amon again, ever since he arrived last night unconscious. She was incredibly worried, yet she didn't have the courage to go and see him. She was not a member of his family and not even a close acquaintance like Bella, in the eyes of many seeing him would be questionable. Not to mention that she too was a participant in the selection for his Queen.
"Oh, I saw King Amon with Lady Bella. The two of them went inside Lady Bella's tent. I believe they are still inside. If you want, I can check in with Lady Bella's servants," Seth offered.
Lena looked at Seth and paused for a beat, and then asked, "How come you're not asking me why I chose to participate in the selection for the Queen of Helion?"
She held no doubt that Seth was acutely aware of the reason behind her choice to participate, but she never heard anything from him about it. He simply went on with his usual ways and proceeded with what he would usually do, and that was to accompany her and look after her.
Seth let out a deep sigh and said, "I do want to know, but I am well aware of my boundaries, Lady Lena. I don't have the right to question any of your decisions. I am already grateful that you continue to allow me to stay by your side, and that you don't push me away when I look after you and protect you."
Lena bit her inner cheek. Was it really right for her to let Seth stay by her side like this? She selfishly didn't want to let him go. She was comfortable around him and she found his company enjoyable. Somewhere along the way, she had already become dependent on him in some ways.
"However, were you aware that King Amon… back when he was Osman, our Great Admiral… he and Lady Bella were-" Seth stuttered awkwardly, attempting to find the best way to share this piece of information with Lena.
"They were in love," Lena supplied, finishing his sentence for him, "I know about all that, Seth. Our Queen has already told me everything."
'But before Bella, It was I who Osman loved first,' she wanted to add but held herself back before she could do so.
No one knew that she too was also the Queen Fairy in the Element Forest, and that must remain hidden. She was now Lena and she would remain a human for the rest of her life, after giving up everything to save Osman that night. Yet she didn't regret her decision in the least, and she could feel it deep inside her heart.
She sneaked glances at Seth and could only sigh as he continued to keep his blank expression.
"Seth," she called as she stopped walking. Her current situation was too unfair for someone like him.
Seth stopped walking and turned to face her. He stared at her intently.
"You should stop now. Stop wasting your time on me, and find for someone who deserves you more than I do. I… if you continue to stay with me like this… it will only hurt you and I don't want that to happen," Lena weakly stated.
She couldn't continue to be selfish and let Seth waste his time with her when she was clearly not in the best situation. She was too lost and her mind right now was filled with Amon and how she could spend time with him. She felt the need for it to sort her feelings out.
"I can't do that, Lady Lena. I can't leave you. Despite my head continuously telling me to stop and leave you." Seth stated, his voice dropping an octave, almost at a whisper. "I can't leave you, not only because my heart only beats for you, or because my eyes only see you. I can't stop because you're my mate…" Seth confessed with a serious face.
Lena blinked at him rapidly. That statement was so unexpected, that she didn't know how to even begin to react or respond. This whole time, Seth had never mentioned it to her. She was his mate? Was that why he couldn't give up on her? Was the Mate Pull that strong?!
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