Taking advantage of the darkness and the seemingly unstoppable impulse that was urging us to take this opportunity, the initial kiss we shared grew deeper and more intimate as each second passed by.
Juri eventually allowed me to take the lead when one of my hands landed on her nape. She jolted a little, perhaps tickled by my touch.
Following that, her hold on my head gradually loosened, her hands sliding down to my neck and shoulders.
In response to that, I tightened my embrace as I straightened my back, fixing my sitting position. In this way, our heads leveled with each other and it became easier for me to get a little bolder.
Naturally, I probed her first by asking her to open her mouth a little. In this situation, I didn’t want to push her enough to be uncomfortable. She already showed me her determination, it’s now up to me to handle this in a way that wouldn’t end with her regretting her decision.
It took a few seconds of deliberation but soon enough, Juri gave a curt nod before doing what I asked.
It’s still impossible to clearly see her expression in this dark but even with only an outline, I could feel my desire for her raging inside me.
Having gotten her consent, I went back in, fully intent on giving her a memorable first intimate kiss.
With our lips overlapping once again, my tongue didn’t stay idle and immediately sprang up to lick her lips before slowly drilling its way inside.
As it was a first for her, her initial reaction to it was to widen her eyes in surprise. But that’s all. She didn’t try to pull away and instead, pushed her tongue in front to welcome mine.
At the same time as my tongue entangled with hers, Juri released a soft moan as her grip on my shoulder tightened. I could sense every change in her body. She’s quivering in pleasure and uneasiness. But the same as me, her own desire to not stop this inappropriate behavior prevailed.
And with this, the next few minutes consist mostly of us tasting each other’s saliva as well as pressing our bodies together. At some point, I took off her partly drenched jacket, giving me the chance to touch her arm and shoulders directly.
Naturally, I suppressed my perverted desire to feel up her front directly. However, down below, we’ve unknowingly started rubbing against each other.
There’s no indication that she’s aware of my bulge but the way her hips moved on top of it made it seem like grinding on me was a natural occurrence.
Well, it’s probably an unconscious action but I couldn’t help but sense a premonition that once she realized it, she wouldn't just be embarrassed. It might even make her break down in shame.
Although I could count that as a product of my overthinking, I decided not to risk it. Bringing back my hands to her waist, I pressed her down, keeping her lower body in place.
To keep her from noticing what I did, I added more fierceness to the way I kissed her. Aside from sucking her tongue and lips, I started occasionally switching focus on her neck as well as her ears; directly or just its surrounding.
In this way, Juri’s focus became divided on whether to chase after me, stop me from attacking her sensitive spots, or succumb to the pleasure completely.
Furthermore, by doing that, I was giving her the chance to catch her breath and anchor herself on the shore, saving her from drowning in it.
I mean, rather than make her lose her mind over this new experience, it’s still better for her to have an escape route in case she deemed it enough or too much.
Well, it’s probably unnecessary because Juri soon showed signs of familiarizing with what was happening. When our lips overlapped once again, she locked me in it by proactively sucking on my tongue or my lips.
And with this, our heated situation continued well until the rain finally subsided.
Right at the same time as we mutually agreed to stop and be satisfied with what had transpired, light – no matter how little – started flooding in from the small window of the cabin.
The dark clouds dispersed as quickly as they arrived earlier.
As both of us looked in that direction, I had Juri snuggle to my chest while I caressed her silky, short hair.
“Time’s up, huh?” Juri murmured, sounding a little disappointed that the weather returning to normal meant our special time together had come to an end.
“Not yet. Not until we stepped out of this place.”
Somehow, rather than disappointment, I felt like I let myself loose there. I brought up looking for a loophole in her rule but in the end, she broke it herself by initiating that kiss.
And given that I had yet to tell her anything about it, I was now feeling guilty for taking advantage of our situation. I owe her the truth.
“… Ruki, we still have to continue scouting this place… That’s our purpose for being here.”
“That can wait. We know we can’t let this end like this. It’ll be bad for both of us if we act like nothing happened. Especially right now when we’re still like this.”
Juri tried to avert her eyes as though she was trying to escape. But as soon as my hand dropped on her cheek, she gave up on doing so and looked up while biting her pretty red lips which looked a little swollen than how it was normally. I really didn’t hold back there.
In any case, it’s as I expected. Her mind was probably in turmoil right now and she was opting to act oblivious rather than tackle it.
“Y-yeah. Are you going to scold me? I talked high and mighty about propriety yet I…” Juri didn’t finish her sentence and just let it hang there.
But well, it’s easy to complete it. What caught me in surprise was her lack of desire to blame me. She directed it all to herself and even expected me to chastise her when I was pretty much the one who steered us to be in too deep.
Understanding what was going on in her mind, I carefully arranged my thoughts.
“No. I’m not going to scold you. That’s out of the question.”
“But…”
“No buts. I could’ve stopped you but I didn’t. If you’re going to blame yourself, let us share it. And as the one in a relationship here… Shouldn’t it be the other way around? I won’t mind getting an earful from you…”
Juri’s mouth opened and closed. Most likely, she couldn’t find the words to respond to that.
In any case, I continued talking while I never halted caressing her.
“Yeah. That’s also not going to happen seeing as you don’t have any desire to do so… That’s why, Juri… I hope you’ll hear me out. I’ll be talking about myself and why I haven’t even tried to set boundaries between us. Since making up a loophole wasn’t viable anymore considering you broke your rule on your own, let me just lay myself out to you.
“Ah… Loophole. I still think it’s wishful thinking. There’s no going around it other than breaking it myself…” Juri bitterly smiled.
“Mhm. I won’t deny that. And now that we had gone and done it… there’s no amount of justification that would salvage our situation… Normally. That is.”
“Normally?”
“Yeah. If we applied the current norm in our society, we’re both awful. Me, even more so. I am an extremely awful guy in my eyes and from your words, you probably see yourself the same way. Yet… we can’t help but get this drawn to each other. Why do you think that is?”
“We like each other. I know you’re not just trying to bait me in because I’ve shown interest. Your every action pointed that out to me…”
“Yep. There’s no doubt we do feel that way. And the reason why this is inappropriate is…?”
“You have Satsuki-chan… We’re doing her wrong.”
“Correct. Well then, here is a small part of the truth about myself. If I tell you that Satsuki is aware of my interest in you, will you believe me?”
As I dropped that one, Juri immediately reacted. She even almost straightened her back to drive a point. But halfway through it, she realized.
“It’s impossible. Why will she let you come with me here if she’s aware of that… Wait. That’s not just a hypothetical question, is it?”
“Like I said. I’ll be completely honest with you, dropping all pretenses and my restraints… Yes, Juri. Satsuki is aware of my interest in you. There’s no secret between us. Also, she approved of you becoming part of what we’re building.
“That… what do you mean?”
Having no time to process everything all at once, Juri was stuck staring at me, her expression filled with question marks as confusion began to set in her mind.
“I’m not as good a guy as you think I am. Satsuki is only one of the many women related to me and we’re all… bound in a complex relationship.”
As I answered her by dropping that most important bomb, Juri’s confusion finally overloaded her mind.
The guilt building up in her dispersed completely and in its place rose an entangled mess of confusion. In the end, Juri eventually lost all her strength as her head powerlessly dropped back on my chest. And in a weakened voice, she said.
“… Ruki. This is too much for me to take in. Let me rest for a moment.”
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