207 “The Safe Zone”
Eleanora clenched the sleeves of her shirt because of the tension between them as she stayed in his embrace silently.
In the end, she just accepted him.
Just like that.
Even though she was hesitant, but she didn’t regretted what she did just now.
Her father was right, she can’t escape her feelings and live with fear all the time.
Even if she couldn’t accept him, she knew that she wasn’t able to push him away either.
Otherwise she wouldn’t feel this mixed feelings.
‘Am going to live the rest of my life like this?’
‘Keep hesitating?’
.....
‘For how long?’
Seeing her tensed face Cathain smiled at her gently before he kissed her forehead to ease the tension.
“Thank you for not pushing me away and this is enough for me. I don’t dare to ask for more and make you run away again.”
“I will tell someone to sent you back as it’s really late..”
Cathain spoke as he moved away from her and decided to call for someone to take her back, but then he paused as his hands was caught by her.
“What if i ask for more?”
Eleanora looked at the dumbfounded Cathain with her blue eyes as she still didn’t knew if this was right or not.
Her mind seem to stop working and talking nonsense, but she also knew that was all her excuses to not feel guilty for accepting him.
“W-What are you talking about?!”
Cathain’s face turned red as he felt flustered because of her words and she approached him with a serious look on her face.
“I want you to make me forget that past and never get nightmares again... I want you to embrace me like am the only one... Can you do it?”
Eleanora spoke bitterly as she remembered that all she have is bad memories about him from the past, his aggressive forced kisses when he failed to control his emotions in this life.
Which over shadowed all the good memories about him in her heart too.
“I want to stay with you tonight,”
As soon as Eleanora finished speaking, the sword on her hands fall on the mattress and tiptoeing her feet, she pulled him more closer by grabbing his shirt to touch his lips.
She didn’t moved and just put her lips above his motionlessly, with her eyes tightly closed.
Eleanora felt a little ridiculous to seek warmth from this man who was the cause of everything, but he was the only one who could make her feel like this.
She had became so used to getting hurt that, the pain itself turned into an comfort zone for her now.
She didn’t hate the pain anymore, more like didn’t bothered about it and let herself dive deeper into this feeling.
Like this is normal for her to feel like this, this pain, this empty feeling in her heart- became a part of her soul.
Now she won’t have to worry about how to get away from him, how to avoid her past fate from repeating.
She turned the most dangerous place as her safety zone and she also knows that only he can save her if anything happens.
‘I won’t be like before anymore… love you blindly and hold onto you tightly. I just can’t take this all anymore and want to live comfortably.’
‘So, just hold me into your embrace and let me feel what’s it like to be loved..’
Eleanora took away her mouth from Cathain, who was staring at her blankly as he understood her hidden feelings.
He understood that she didn’t choose him out of love for now, she only came to him because she couldn’t escape him and her past traumas.
She felt safe because of his powers, knows that the current him can keep her safe from her fears and everything.
This realisation made him feel a stinging pain on his heart and a bitter smile appeared on his face as he pulled her gently to him by grabbing her waist.
“Your wish is a command, my empress,”
Eleanora tiptoed again as Cathain helped her to stand higher by pulling up her body, and both of them slowly tilted their face to the sides a little.
“...I love you, Eleanora.”
Cathain confessed, but no words came out from her mouth or any reaction on her face.
Her hands just rested on his shoulders and she leaned towards him untill they finally meet each others lips softly.
Both of them closed their eyes as Cathain’s another hand cupped the backside of her head to pull her more closer and both of their mouths moved against each other.
This was the very first time that Eleanora was kissing him back.
Her soft lips moved on his lower lips clumsily as he sucked her cupid bow softly.
His softness and gentle kiss was something that she didn’t experienced till now, and it sent shivers down her sprain as she got goosebumps all over her body.
She wrapped her hands around his neck as Cathain lifted her up a little and her feet no longer touched the ground anymore.
His motion was fast but gentle, to make her feel himself slowly, feel the change and his heart.
‘It’s okay if you don’t love me, let me give you everything which I couldn’t give you before and love you for the rest of our life.’
Cathain thought as he deepened their kiss and Eleanora’s fingertips kept stroking his black hair from behind.
He opened his mouth more wider like he wanted to devour her lips and carried her up completely.
Their body clashed with each others and their heart started to beat more faster.
Eleanora wrapped her legs around his waist as he carried her towards the dressing table and placed her on it after pushing away whatever was on it.
The few items which was placed above the dressing table fall and some glass bottles shattered into pieces, but they didn’t cared.
Eleanora opened her mouth wide as their kiss became more intense and Cathain caught her both wrist to pin them against the mirror, before his hands slowly slide up to entangle their fingers together tightly.
He leaned towards her more untill her head bumped into the mirror and her back arched as her legs were still wrapped around him loosely.
Cathain finally felt a peace of mind, a kind of relaxation when she finally came to him today willingly. freew ebnov el
He always got excited whenever she approached him or talk with him, the warmness would spread in his heart as their communication was always so inconsistent and intermittent that, he had no clue when she might come to him again.
It was always exhilarating when he was with her, because she would only priorities him when her other plans fall through.
And he knew that, she could only seek for him now and become excited to help her out when no one else could do it excepr him.
He liked the feeling of being the only one for her.
The current Cathain always felt attracted, mysteriously drawn, pulled in her direction because Eleanora was ambiguous this time; unclear with what she wants and what she is looking for.
The cold expression on her face would always make him try to guess what she was thinking all the time.
He envisioned his life with her as from the very start, her rejection towards him was open; even before he realised his feelings.
This was why, he kept picturing the day when she would finally pick and choose him.
Not love him back; because he knew she won’t.
He kept thinking about her, because he couldn’t quite make sense of her actions and how they don’t match her words.
She was afraid of him, hated him, but she was also concerned and helped him all this time.
He couldn’t stop thinking about her, always on his mind as she unknowingly breadcrumbed him and he started to starve emotionally for more.
[A/N: Bread-crumbing is the act of sending out flirtatious, but non-committal social signals in order to lure a romantic partner in without expending much effort.
Like making the other person feel like they care for them, share the same feelings, where they actually don’t mean that at all either intentionally or unintentionally.
Eleanora’s sudden change, her mysterious personality had unintentionally lured him into falling for her more all of a sudden after she got back her past memories.
She wished to stay away from him, but she would always end up helping him out or seek help from him.
She didn’t even knew what she wanted for herself, and what to do in the future after everything is over.
Eleanora continued to breake down and become strong, before she would crumble down again as she really couldn’t let go of her past traumas.
So one moment, she would be strong to face the past and treat him coldly.
Where another moment, she would become weak, who needed him to comfort her and feel the need to fill the empty place of her heart; which wanted love and care.
And this was why Cathain would also be confused with her actions and think about her all day.
Where this also made him realise his feelings more earlier this time as he couldn’t predict her at all and became more and more curious about her.]
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