Chapter 230 Healed his pain caused by love
As the saying went, “What you dream about at night reflects what you think about during the day.” So, what she saw in her dream was what she had met in the past, which left a little fuzzy trace in her heart. Although she didn’t think about them so much at first, in fact, those things were in her heart. So, she would have such a dream when she was sick.
She saw Ning Yuan for the first time on a messy street. At that time, he wore a bamboo hat, and under the heavy veil of the bamboo hat, there was a mask covering the upper part of his face, which was much similar to that of Lu Jiangbei in the dream. She had seldom paid attention to the appearance of men, but when she saw Ning Yuan that time, an unspeakable weirdness suddenly appeared in her heart. In any case, she wanted to look at the face under the mask, but in the end she couldn’t do so. When she met him in Bitter Bamboo Grove again, Ning Yuan had already disguised himself as Lu Jiangbei.
This feeling of doubt was deeply buried in her heart, and it never faded away, so there was a masked Lu Jiangbei in her dream. This could easily explain why Lu Jiangbei kissed her suddenly, and she was still intoxicated by his kisses. Besides, Meng Xuan suddenly hugged and kissed her yesterday, but at that time, she did not refuse him and told herself that the kiss was just a “kiss of friendship” without the affection between men and women. Later, she fell out with Meng Xuan and always regretted in her heart, wondering if she hadn’t woken up in sleepwalking. How could there be a mouth-to-mouth friendship kiss between a man and a woman? No wonder Meng Xuan was angry and incredible. If she didn’t have affection for him, she should have rejected him from the beginning.
This feeling of remorse and self-blame also left a deep impression in her heart. So, it reappeared in her dream. She watched a strange man, Lu Jiangbei, kiss and hug a girl with the same appearance as hers, but she could only watch like a floating ghost and was unable to do anything to stop. This dream was just a punishment by her reason because of her intimate behavior with Meng Xuan. That was right. It was her self-punishment.
As for the man wearing the mask who suddenly turned into Duan Xiaolou, and the young girl who suddenly turned into Ling Miaoyi, these all stemmed from a heartache after Duan Xiaolou confessed his love to her at the opening ceremony three years ago.
Whenever she thought of this at night, she was always a little sad, thinking how good it would be if she followed her own heart and agreed to him. Then she could heal his pain caused by love, and he could also take her out of loneliness. They could accompany and support each other. In fact, as long as she controlled herself not to fall in love with him, the scene where he kissed Guan Yun was not too piercing. After all, men couldn’t be like women who were born with a little cleanliness and a unique sense of belonging.
But it was too late to say that. After all, she had let Duan Xiaolou down, which was irreversible. She still had her own life. If she wanted to live more steadily, she must eliminate the hidden danger of Zhu Quan and let him completely give up on her. So, no matter how much she hated this person, she must go to see him, and she couldn’t just fight against a shadow in her heart day and night…
But then, did Bai Yangbai cause any trouble after leaving last night? Before going to see Zhu Quan, she must reach an agreement with Bai Yangbai to let him stand on her side and deal with Zhu Quan together…
Qing’er voluntarily ran to help Sister Zhenzhu. But He Danggui hoped that Qing’er would not make more trouble…
With these complicated thoughts, He Danggui, who was in a trance by the high fever, fell asleep. Probably because the Dream Immortal saw that she was so smart that she saw through his true purpose after a few thoughts, the Dream Immortal, who was ashamed of his IQ, did not disturb her in her deep sleep again.
When she was half-asleep, she seemed to have taken the medicine twice and the medicated food delivered by Luo Baiji as well. It looked delicious, but she couldn’t taste anything. In the end, she went back to sleep undisturbedly. She didn’t know how many days and nights she slept, but she felt that the Zhenqi she collected from Zhoushi had adapted to her body and automatically returned to her Dantian in peace. Then, her sudden illness healed suddenly. She even was not weak and gaunt after a serious illness.
He Danggui asked the date and found out that it was already five days later. Three days had passed since the “workday” she and Zhoushi agreed upon. She hurriedly asked Chan Yi if Childe Feng had been here. Chan Yi shook her head and said no. Chan Yi said that only Madam Luo sent people to care about He Danggui every day, letting her go out and play Go with the guests when she got better.
Worrying about Zhenzhu, He Danggui was not in the mood to play Go with Third Childe Meng, and temporarily did not want to meet Meng Xuan, so she feigned illness and stayed in the room. She was eager to meet with Bai Yangbai to discuss the countermeasures, so she, according to the “contact method” provided by Bai Yangbai, grabbed the little white wolf who was eating meat on the ground, pulled its ears and tail rudely. This shaggy little white wolf screamed continuously. Chan Yi couldn’t bear to look at it, so she quickly took the little white wolf back and fed more meat to compensate.
He Danggui waited for another two days. The new year was approaching, but Bai Yangbai never showed up. So, He Danggui was annoyed that he didn’t keep his promise. She had meditated for several consecutive days. As Madam Luo hadn’t sent anyone to watch her in the past two days, she stopped meditating this morning and sat in the inaccessible peach blossom forest to bask in the winter sun.
Chan Yi surreptitiously brought a cup of white fungus soup with longan to He Danggui. After she started eating, Chan Yi asked in a low voice, “Miss, why don’t you go to play Go with Third Childe Meng? Are you not good at playing Go and fear being laughed at by them?”
He Danggui, enjoying the food, said with a chuckle, “Even Madam Luo doesn’t urge me to go, so why are you still thinking about it? Maybe they don’t plan to play Go with me, and it is just an excuse to live in Luo’s Family. After all, the Luo’s Family had a good scenery, attentive care and convenient transportation. It is more convenient to go to the market from here.”
Chan Yi said disappointedly, “However, Miss, are you not interested in seeing the two childes of the Meng’s Family? The scene that they walk out of the yard together is more beautiful than any other scenery, and you will definitely regret if you not see it. Everyone says that the childes of the Peng’s Family who lived in Xi Chang Yard in the past are already very attractive, but comparing to the current childes of Meng’s Family, poeple can only sigh. Miss, Xi Chang Yard is less than a hundred steps away from our yard. It is only separated by our fence and their fence. Are you not going to seize such conveniences? Well, even if you don’t want to get them, it’s good to have a look.”
He Danggui snorted after drinking the white fungus soup, “It seems that everyone loves beauty not only men, but also women. I used to read the story of several beautiful men in ancient times being madly chased by women, and in the end, they got sick and died. I thought those who wrote the book were too exaggerated. Now I think it may be true.” Then, she gave Chan Yi a glance and said, “All right, stop pouting. We have to pick time for everything, and we don’t have that leisure time now. Haven’t Qing’er and Huai Hua come here again these days?”
Chan Yi packed up the cup, shook her head and said, “No one comes, and there is no oral message. It’s really worrying. Whether it’s good or bad, they should write a letter to you.”
He Danggui stayed in her room for the past two days because she was waiting for Bai Yangbai, but he didn’t come. She was a little anxious, and she asked the well-informed Bo He if there was any “Second Mistress Luo’s adulterer” in Luo’s Mansion in the past few days. After getting the negative answer, He Danggui wondered whether Bai Yangbai felt disappointed and went to other places to enjoy after she rejected his invitation about marriage and dual cultivation.
In her previous life, she knew that there were several special channels for contacting Bai Yangbai, but those channels all needed Wuying Tower’s things. It was fine to borrow them quietly in the past. However, according to the information provided by Zhoushi, Zhu Quan was in Yangzhou City, how dared she use his things at that time! Other things could be done slowly, but she didn’t want to delay Zhu Quan’s matter for a moment. Originally, she thought she was the biggest variable in the world, but now Zhu Quan became a bigger variable.
“By the way, Chan Yi,” He Danggui caught a piece of peach blossom with her palm and ordered, “Ask Xiaoyou if he ever met Childe Feng in the past two days. If he says yes, ask him if Childe Feng mentioned Concubine Hua’s condition.” When they parted that day, He Danggui asked Bai Yangbai to help investigate Concubine Hua’s condition, and then told Xiaoyou the result. Now that it had been so long, there should be a result.
He Danggui heard yesterday that all the “poisonous stone powder” in the main hall had been incinerated. In the previous two days, Luo Chuangu and Sun Meiniang’s faces and limbs began to peel off. Madam Luo was so scared that she did not care about supervising He Danggui to play Go with Third Childe Meng. Instead, Madam Luo stayed at Bao Qin Ge and looked after Luo Chuangu every day.
He Danggui also heard that Sun Meiniang’s fetus was very stable. If it was maintained, a baby boy would be born in a few months. It was incredible that at this time in her previous life, Sun Meiniang had never been pregnant.
Although there was an adulterer incident, Sun Meiniang still controlled her husband Luo Chuangu.
That night, the couple had a quarrel after they returned to the room. It was really that lovers’ quarrels were soon mended. The next morning, Luo Chuangu, who had just shown his masculinity, became Sun Meiniang’s obedient husband again. He lost his temper at all, and never mentioned the incident about Sun Meiniang’s adulterer and abortion. No matter what Madam Luo asked, he just kept silence and didn’t say anything bad about Sun Meiniang. The incident that Concubine Hua almost miscarried caused a stir that night, but now it was temporarily set aside.
Of course, the most wronged person who had nowhere to redress was Sun Meiniang’s main maid, Run Xiang. Originally, Run Xiang also had a lover who was doing a reselling of private salt outside the mansion, and he was able to make a lot of money. But it was a very risky business that could die at any time. The lover came to have a private meeting with Run Xiang once a month and spent the rest of the time doing business. He was waiting to take Run Xiang away from the mansion and live a happy life together after he earned a lot of money.
However, since a few months ago, Run Xiang’s lover disappeared from the world, and there was no figure and no news. Run Xiang didn’t know whether her lover abandoned her, or lost his head when doing business. In short, in the month when she didn’t see her lover, she spent the whole day as if she lost her soul, so Luo Chuangu took advantage of it. He covered her mouth and nose, dragged her to a place where no one was there and raped her. But Run Xiang still kept her lover on her mind. So, after losing her chastity, she still disobeyed Luo Chuangu and avoided him, regarding him as a snake.
However, her behavior inspired Luo Chuangu’s desire to conquer, and he paid special attention to Run Xiang who had a mediocre appearance. After all, a woman regarded her chastity more than anything else. Generally, after being raped for the first time, she would be obedient in the future, but this was not case with Run Xiang. Every time they made love, she would struggle like the first time and cry afterwards. The sound of her struggles and cries was so high that they were noticed by a maid who had a rift with Run Xiang. Then, the maid reported to Sun Meiniang. At first, Sun Meiniang stayed calm and was collected, but she tortured Run Xiang when Luo Chuangu was not at home.
The most wronged thing about Run Xiang was that the child she conceived was not Luo Chuangu’s, but her lover’s. However, Sun Meiniang didn’t give her a chance to argue and pulled out her teeth. Then Sun Meiniang took off her clothes and hung her into the woodshed to be blown by cold wind. Both the adult and the child were about to die.
And it happened that He Danggui walked over the wall and walked to the woodshed of Bao Qin Ge. She learned the truth from Run Xiang and accepted Run Xiang’s request, but she didn’t know whether she could win. Judging from Luo Chuangu’s attitude, she could know that he didn’t care about Run Xiang and her child at all. Did he probably know that the child was not his?
He Danggui started to think about these issues after letting Chan Yi leave. Chan Yi left with the cup, but she returned after a while and screamed helter-skelter, “Look, Miss, the two childes of Meng’s Family are coming here! Would you like to avoid for a moment and dress up in the room?”
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