Chapter 376: I Might Be Sorry, But I Don’t Regret It
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Alan could not help his eyes from turning red when he saw Samantha crying so badly.
After a long time, he approached her and squatted down to take a tissue. He wiped her tears and said in a hoarse voice, “I’m sorry, Sammy.”
Samantha closed her eyes gently and took a few deep breaths as she wiped away the tears on her face using both hands.
Alan retracted his hand and looked down at the paper ball in his palm. He then said, “But I don’t regret it.”
Even if he could turn back time, he would still make the same choice and choose to hide it from her.
Being a doctor required great compassion, but as a man, he was just like any other ordinary man. He wanted to stay true to his heart and seize what little possibility he had.
Samantha lifted her eyelids to look at him.
Although Alan was selfish in his own way, she could not bring herself to blame him. After all, she was scarred both physically and psychologically back then and would not be able to withstand further pressure.
Had she known it at that time, she probably would not be able to ignore it and might even come back to the country without hesitation.
However, it was not a must-win battle, and the chances of winning were very small. Once she started being concerned about it, she might not have been able to deliver Matthew smoothly. Matthew might not have existed if that happened.
The fact that she could live with Matthew well to that day was all thanks to Alan. The credit was to him for concealing it from her.
Samantha squeezed a smile towards him. “I don’t blame you, Dr. Sherwood.”
That sentence did not cheer Alan up, but rather, caused his fingers to tremble uncontrollably.
He clenched his fists hard as if trying to grasp something.
Samantha sniffled and said again, “But now I…have to make up for it.”
Before she saw that email, she was still weighing up the pros and cons while considering whether or not to put herself into that dangerous situation. Her mind was analyzing rationally whether or not she could save Matthew without being involved in Timothy’s life.
Unfortunately, she could not just ignore it after seeing Timothy do so many things for her.
Alan grasped her hand all of a sudden.
Samantha was stunned. Her black eyes widened slightly and she asked, “What’s wrong?”
Alan was holding her rather strongly and he stared at her intently as he said, “You’re just...making up for it, right?”
Samantha immediately understood what he meant by the question.
‘You’re only making up because you feel guilty, not because you still love him, right?’
‘Is this guilt or love?’
In all honesty, Samantha did not know what kind of mood she was in at that moment.
The moment she gave up on Timothy was when she saw the killer mouthing the words ‘Mr. Barker’ before being immersed in the sea.
Whatever the case was, she could not believe that Timothy would send someone to kill her.
Although it had now been proven that the second personality did it and not the main personality, three years had already passed.
Time was very powerful. During the past three years, she had never thought of Timothy and had even forgotten whatever love or hatred she had for him—she had been at peace with herself.
How was she to answer the question of how she felt about Timothy from the bottom of her heart when she was confused herself?
She frowned in silence but Alan’s heavy heart was a little eased.
“It looks as though Timothy and I are back at the starting line now, isn’t that right, Sammy?”
It was not like before where he had no chance at all.
At the very least, Sammy’s feelings toward him and Timothy were gratitude and guilt respectively. Whoever could eventually convert those respective feelings into love had much to do with their own abilities.
Moreover, there was a chance that Timothy might not be able to revert.
When Samantha told him about her speculations over Timothy, he had already gotten someone to seek advice from the world’s top psychologist.
It was impossible for the main personality to come back if it was destroyed. Three years was a long time, and it was very likely that the second personality was dominating the body from then onward.
In other words, the Timothy who loved Samantha was already dead.
Timothy’s present personality—the second personality—did not love Samantha and she did not love him either. The two of them could never be together.
Samantha gently broke away from Alan’s hand after listening to Alan’s words.
She did not have the time to think about that and was unable to give Alan a response in that short amount of time. The last thing she wanted was to give him false hope, but that was very unfair to him.
Samantha thought about what she wanted to say and began, “Dr. Sherwood, about what I said to you at the airport in Emsteldt, I—”
“Don’t say it, Sammy.” Alan interrupted her suddenly as if he knew what she was going to say.
“Dr. Sherwood...”
“Don’t say it, please.”
His last words were almost trembling.
Samantha’s remaining words stopped abruptly and she could not bring herself to say it any further.
When did she ever see Alan say something so self-deprecating?
Alan was the last person she wanted to hurt, but it seemed...she still ended up making him sad.
About half a minute later Alan looked at her again and said in a softer tone. “It doesn’t matter how long I have to wait, Sammy. I’m willing to. Don’t…take away the one chance I have in just…waiting.”
“I won’t stop you from doing anything on Timothy’s side. Wake him up if you want to, but promise me you’ll always put your safety first.”
“As for Matt, I just received news that the killer’s traces have been found. I’ll take the earliest flight to chase after the lead tomorrow. I’ll help you take care of Matt so you can do what you want to do without worrying.”
What else could Samantha say?
She could only chide herself like she always did for being so blind that she did not fall in love with a good man like Alan.
“Thank you, Dr. Sherwood...”
Alan smiled faintly but there was also a perceptible hint of sadness.
How could he not feel sad when Samantha was rushing to a battle where the chances of winning were unknown?
What good would it do him if he let go again? Would God continue to have pity on him and send Samantha back to him?
…
The next day, Samantha insisted on sending Alan to the airport. He did not refuse and so the two of them went together to the airport.
Before Alan passed the security check, he suddenly thought of something and said to Samantha, “By the way, I almost forgot to give this to you.”
He took out a business card from his wallet and handed it to her.
Samantha took it and saw the name ‘Dr. McKinnon’ written down as well as a phone number. There was nothing else on the card except that.
Alan said, “This is the business card of the world’s top psychologist and one of the founders of hypnotism. You may contact him in the future if you have any questions that you need to be answered.”
Samantha’s admiration for Alan rose again.
Alan was and would always be her benefactor.
As a descendant of a medical family, Alan’s medical network...was the broadest it could ever be.
Samantha could not help but kiss the business card and smile. “You’re a lucky charm, Dr. Sherwood.”
Alan wished he was the business card.
After seeing her cute appearance, he could not help but reach out and rub her head gently.
Neither noticed that a telephoto lens was aiming at their intimate actions from a distance. With a click, their act was photographed on a camera.
After seeing Alan off, Samantha left the airport and hailed a cab before getting in.
As the car merged into traffic, she took out the business card and looked at it. After a few glances, she felt that the string of numbers was very familiar.
After giving it some more thought, she ended up feeling even more shell-shocked.
Those numbers were not just a little familiar…they were very familiar, so much so that she could memorize it by heart!
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