Chapter 186: Chapter 186 – Something New
Aria’s POV
"Yes," he said. "But you held it together when I didn’t know how. When Noah was taken. When Marcus — all of it, you held it down."
"So did you."
"Not the way you did."
I didn’t argue because it was late and because there was something true in it and because arguing with Damien when he was being genuinely humble was a battle I’d learned to let go.
I moved closer instead and he adjusted around me without being asked, arm around my shoulders, careful the way he had learned to be careful in the last few weeks.
"I love you,"
"I know," he said. Then: "I love you. Both of you, in fact all three of you."
I put my hand over his where it rested on my stomach, feeling the gentle curve of my small bump under his palm.
Damien turned his head and kissed me slow and deep. His lips were warm and soft at first, then firmer, his tongue sliding against mine like he was tasting every second. I angled his head with both hands, pulling him closer, kissing him harder until we were both breathing fast.
He broke the kiss just enough to look at me, eyes dark. "You sure?" he asked, voice low. "With the baby"
"Fuck me," I said.
We pulled off our clothes right there on the bed. My shirt first, then his. My pants slid down easily. His hands were gentle on my belly the whole time, like he was reminding himself to be careful. When we were naked he helped me roll onto my hands and knees, my belly hanging safe, no pressure on it at all.
He knelt behind me, one hand on my hip, the other stroking down my back. I felt the thick head of his cock nudge against my pussy, already wet and aching for him. He pushed in slowly—one inch, then two—until he was buried deep. I moaned at the stretch, the way he filled me completely.
Damien stayed still for a second, letting me adjust, his hands firm on my hips but never pressing my belly. Then he started to move. Long, steady thrusts that rocked me forward on the mattress. Each slide pulled almost all the way out before he sank back in, deep and deliberate. The sound of skin on skin filled the room—wet, rhythmic, loud.
"Fuck, you feel so good," he groaned, voice rough. He reached around and cupped one of my breasts, thumb brushing my nipple while he kept fucking me from behind. My belly swayed gently with every thrust, safe between us, and I pushed back against him harder, wanting more.
He leaned over me, chest to my back, careful not to crush me, and kissed the side of my neck. "Like that?" he whispered against my skin.
"Yes—harder," I gasped.
He gave it to me, hips snapping faster now, cock driving in and out in that perfect doggy angle that hit every spot. My arms shook but I held myself up, moaning each time he bottomed out.
Damien’s hand slipped down between my legs, fingers finding my clit and rubbing in tight circles while he kept thrusting. I came fast—hard and sudden—clenching around his cock, crying out his name. He followed right after, burying himself deep and coming with a low groan, hips jerking against my ass as he spilled inside me.
Afterward he eased out slowly, helped me lie on my side, and pulled me back against his chest. His hand returned to my belly, stroking it softly while our breathing slowed. We lay there in the quiet, skin still warm and sticky.
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The beach ceremony was everything Olivia had claimed she didn’t want and then quietly planned with the intensity of a woman who had spent years insisting she wasn’t the type.
Small and intimate, she’d said. Nothing elaborate. And it wasn’t elaborate — it was forty people on a private stretch of beach two hours outside the city, chairs arranged in loose rows on pale sand, the ocean doing its indifferent, magnificent work behind the arch of white flowers, the late afternoon light doing the kind of things that late afternoon light did by the sea that no photographer had ever adequately captured and no one had ever stopped trying.
I stood to one side with Damien, four months along and wearing a dress that Olivia had chosen for me specifically — deep green, draped, forgiving in all the right places — and watched Noah at the end of the front row with Mrs. Dora, ring box in both hands, face set with the professional gravity of a veteran ring bearer who had done this job before and knew exactly what was expected.
He caught my eye and gave me a solemn nod.
I gave him one back.
"He’s been practicing his walk," Damien murmured beside me.
"He told me," I said. "He said the key is to not look at the ocean because it’s distracting."
"Sound advice."
The music began — something quiet and stringed, the sound of it almost lost under the wind and the water — and the guests turned, and Lucas appeared at the arch.
Lucas Hayes, who had come into our lives as a rival and an irritant and a complication and had somehow, over the course of everything, become something that deserved a better word.
He stood at that arch in a pale linen suit and looked down the aisle with an expression so nakedly, helplessly happy that I heard the woman beside me make a soft sound and felt Damien reach for my hand.
Then the music shifted, and Olivia appeared. She was wearing ivory, simple and right, her hair down in the way she almost never wore it professionally, and she was walking toward Lucas with the particular expression of a woman who has decided, definitively, and is not second-guessing it.
Lucas watched her come and his face did something I don’t think he had control over.
Noah executed his ring delivery with the focused excellence of someone who had genuinely prepared, walking slowly, holding the box in both hands, arriving at his position and looking up at Lucas.
"Good," he said to Lucas, very quietly. Then he stepped aside and stood at attention.
Lucas pressed his lips together, eyes bright, and managed not to laugh, which I thought showed considerable emotional discipline under the circumstances.
The vows they’d written themselves. Lucas went first, which I’d expected — he was a man who had spent years being strategically charming and had learned, somewhere in the process of falling genuinely in love with Olivia Grant, that strategy and charm were the wrong tools entirely.
"I want to tell you something I’ve never told anyone," he said, looking at her directly. "I was very good at being alone. I had convinced myself it was a preference, that I was built for independence, that the relationships I’d seen around me were mostly cautionary tales and I was smart enough to learn from other people’s mistakes." He paused. "And then you told me I had spinach in my teeth at a business dinner, which I did, and you did it with such complete matter-of-fact kindness that I thought about it for days afterward." A wave of quiet laughter through the guests. "Because it was such a small thing, and such an honest thing, and nobody had been that casually honest with me in years." He took her hands. "You make me want to be honest, Olivia. You make me want to be the person who deserves that from you. I promise to keep trying to be him — every day, for the rest of whatever this turns out to be."
Olivia had been holding herself together admirably.
"You are the most annoying person I have ever met," she said, which was not how her vows had begun when she’d read them to me a few days ago, which meant she’d changed them at the last minute, which was entirely Olivia. "You are relentless and overly optimistic and you bought me a building before we’d been together for eight months and I had absolutely no framework for what to do with that." She squeezed his hands. "I had spent years building a very rational, sensible, protected life. I had decided, with considerable evidence, that love was something that happened to other people or to younger versions of me who hadn’t yet learned better. And then I stopped looking — I genuinely stopped — and there you were." Her voice cracked slightly, and she let it. "I stopped looking and there you were, being completely impossible, and I fell in love with you before I’d finished arguing with myself about whether I was allowed to." She exhaled. "I choose you, Lucas. Every maddening thing about you. I choose you today and tomorrow and every subsequent occasion on which you are about to do something I think is excessive but which turns out to be exactly right."
He was crying before she finished. The reception spread along the beach as the sun went down, tables set on the sand, torches lit against the darkening water, music drifting. Noah shed his jacket within the first twenty minutes and found a small group of children who came from somewhere and spent the next two hours doing something at the waterline that involved elaborate sand structures.
I sat with Damien at our table and ate and watched the evening happen around us. It was strange, that feeling of absolute joy with nothing to fear about.
"You’re doing it again," Damien said.
"I know." I leaned my head against his shoulder. "I’m doing it on purpose this time."
He pressed his lips to my hair. Across the dance floor, Lucas was spinning Olivia in something that was more enthusiasm than technique, and she was laughing, the full laugh she had, and somewhere behind me Noah was loudly adjudicating a sand castle dispute.
The evening felt so good and peaceful, I was still trying to find the right word for it when it happened: a flutter, deep in my belly.
I went very still. Damien felt me go still as his head came up. "What?"
I took his hand from my shoulder and pressed it flat against my stomach, where the flutter had been.
We waited. Three seconds. Four.
There.
His hand went rigid under mine, then immediately, completely soft all the tension leaving him at once. "Was that" he started.
"Yes," I said.
He didn’t say anything for a moment. His hand stayed very still on my stomach, as if moving might break something.
"Hello," he said quietly, to whoever was in there.
