Upon hearing that question, coupled with that genuine look of worry on Xing Han's face, Kyle looked down in order to settle himself first.
Ever since he told Sam about MIB, he had been feeling rather guilty about it. Even though that had been the only course of action at that time. Even though there had been no reason to reveal it to Xing Han.
The guilt was still there.
"Why, you ask?" Kyle repeated Xing Han's question, his head still down. Wetting his lips, he took a deep breath as he looked up nervously.
Xing Han saw the worry that was apparent on Kyle's face. That rather sad-looking smile he was putting on as he said, "You wouldn't believe me even if I told you."
Xing Han frowned. The anger he didn't know he had started boiling within him. He got up, stomped over, grabbed Kyle on the shoulders and shook him in frustration. Kyle let him be, not protesting or saying anything while Xing Han did so.
"Look at me, you stupid fool," Xing Han commanded, bringing his face close to Kyle's, "Who am I? I am Xing Han. Your BFF. No matter what you say, I will believe you. You have never lied to me, and you never will."
Kyle felt his eyes prick with tears suddenly at that heartfelt declaration.
The absolute trust and unwavering faith Xing Han had in him put a lump in his throat. What did he do to deserve all of this? Despite the fact that Kyle did believe and trusted in the Elite Five, at the end of the day - they were still only human.
The bond between them was formed when they were still so very young. Even though their bond was further solidified when they banded together to save Kay, nothing was truly certain. Other than that situation, they never have gone through situations of life-and-death before.
Their bond appeared close, but in reality, was it?
It could just be the appearance of it. Would it pass the test of time? Could a third party throw a wrench into it and disrupt everything? What would happen? This was something that Kyle had been worried about tremendously, and had made various plans to make their ties stronger. Yet, that's all it was. Plans.
Kyle had seen too many countless incidences of betrayal to have absolute and complete faith that their bond was unbreakable. Not to mention he had been killed by one he had trusted before. Whilst it was true that he had been naive and stupid at that time, it also meant that Kyle always had this sliver of doubt.
What if he was wrong?
So in this life, though he felt he was truly fortunate to have found the Elite Five ... deep, deep down, he still had that small fear.
Sam had proven his loyalty already when Kyle recruited him for MIB. Now, Xing Han had proven himself as well.
Absolute and total faith in him.
Just what did he do to deserve this? Them?
"Kyle?" Xing Han called out, snapping Kyle out of his thoughts.
Xing Han panicked a bit, seeing how Kyle's eyelashes became wet with unshed tears. Just what sort of burden was Kyle under? He had always seen Kyle being strong. This was the first time he actually saw a weak Kyle.
The instant noodles didn't count.
This. This was real. A side of Kyle that he had never shown to him before. A Kyle that could actually cry??
Kyle gave Xing Han a smile, patting the hands on his shoulders, "I'm fine. Just ... extremely touched."
Kyle leaned back on the seat, pulling Xing Han to sit down next to him.
"You asked me why?" Kyle asked, as he turned and then leaned on Xing Han's shoulder.
Xing Han found Kyle to be heavy so he shifted, which caused Kyle to drop on to his lap instead. Kyle closed his eyes, putting his arm across his eyes. Xing Han stared at Kyle, who was being unusually needy at this point.
No, not needy. More like, he was struggling with himself.
Instinctively, he knew that what Kyle was going to tell him something monumental and his reaction to that was important. He had already declared that no matter what Kyle told him, he would believe him unconditionally.
How bad could it be, though?
"Because I'm a reincarnated soul," Kyle said in a rush, "I was murdered in my past life, leaving behind my two children so I need a strong foundation to fight back and protect them."
Xing Han blinked.
He stuck a finger in his ear and wiggled it about inside as if he was cleaning it.
"You're a reincarnated soul," Xing Han began.
"Yup," Kyle replied.
"You were murdered," Xing Han continued.
"Yup," Kyle confirmed.
"You have kids," Xing Han mumbled.
"Yup," Kyle said, "A boy and a girl."
Xing Han was silent for a while and Kyle tentatively opened his eyes. He saw Xing Han sitting there, dazed and then started slapping himself a few times. Just as Kyle was about to stop him, Xing Han looked down at him.
Their eyes locked.
"So you're telling me, you've already experienced sex?!" Xing Han exclaimed, "You're no longer a virgin??! So that is why you knew how to kiss!"
Now it was Kyle's turn to blink several times.
"Of all the things I told you, that's the one that you're focusing on?" Kyle said with a laugh.
Xing Han looked indignant, "It's a big deal!"
"That's not all," Kyle said, looking up at him, "I was a girl in my past life."
"OH. EMM. GEE. You had breasts?! How big were they?! WAIT. You had sex as a girl with a guy?! This is big. Did you give blowjobs? You have just GOT to tell me what girls like. Tips. I need tips!!"
Kyle was speechless ... then covered his eyes again.
He had been worried about nothing, it seems.
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