Chapter 932 Chapter 931: Therapy..?
Cali left us a few moments after that, her laughter haunting the carriage that had become as silent as a graveyard with her departure, all of us glancing at one another as we tried to decipher the things that our partners truly lusted after, which was unsurprisingly easiest enough with Jahi.
Her lust was simply a combination of us all put into a single person; a strong, curvaceous warrior who was able to be dominated in bed completely and utterly, with no hopes of escaping her fate as she was made to orgasm over and over again until her mind was sufficiently broken.
Being able to take a strong, sexy woman like that and overpower her before raping her over and over again was Jahi's darkest desire, and it was one that we were all too familiar with; one that, like Cali had said, was a rather open desire of Jahi's, one the Demoness wore on her sleeve and was ready to admit to wanting.
That was why Jahi was the most unbothered at the moment, looking between us curiously as she tried to wrap her mind around what she had just seen; Leone lusted specifically after Lady Theresa, while Anput had some lust that was entirely personality based within a woman who was rather common to find inside the Sultanate?
Of course, they were all also staring at me with incredulous gazes, wondering why one my darkest desires was Jillian of all people, something that my surface level thoughts instantly tried to deny and say was incorrect, but it was something that I knew deep down inside myself was true.
So, I decided that I would be the one to speak, to get us moving along from just our thoughts and instead try to work towards a solution, or at the very least an understanding that would benefit us going forwards, or leave us at a neutral standpoint, which would be preferable to having this awkwardness that spread between us.
"Yes... I can see why I would desire... her, of all people. It would be one of the few people that could utterly rob me of everything I have, everything that makes me... me. And in doing so, she would become my owner, completely and utterly in control of my life. That's what I find so alluring about Jahi, what sparks me with you two as well; how well you are able to take control of me and tell me what to do, to make me do that thing using your unique traits. It's something that she could do as well, and in the darkest corners of my mind, I think I find that arousing on a primitive level. Being owned by someone as little more than their sex slave, nothing more than a nice ass to breed whenever they get horny."
They all frowned at that, and I took a deep breath before continuing on, saying "It's just how I am, really. Sexually, my preferences have always been, and will always be submissive in nature, and she is just one of many different types of dominance that I might crave. A suffocating, all encompassing dominance that wouldn't allow for me to be who I am, but instead demanding I become something else. That's what a part of me yearns for; to be made into something for someone else forcefully. It doesn't make logical sense, but the things that get you so profoundly aroused never really do, do they?"
Jahi just grunted, deciding that my approach to this was worthwhile and needed, so she said "I think my own was clear enough, right? My 'ideal woman' sexually would be Leone's body, Anput's warrior spirit, and Kat's masochism put into one; a woman who is strong and beautiful, who could have it all for herself but is instead a thing for me to use to get off, a 'nice ass to breed' as Kat put it. I want someone so obviously strong to beg me to stop, to plead for me to get off of them, only to scream as I refuse and take them even harder... that's what I want, and I'm blessed enough to have gotten it, only it seems to be in pieces..."
She smirked at that, lightening the mood somewhat before we looked at Leone, who blushed as she spoke next, the Vampire fiddling with her pants and looking away from us as she opened her mouth to speak.
"I... I guess... Maybe it is... Maybe it is my desire for that ideal Mother figure that Aunt Theresa was for me..? To be able to have a woman like that... I just... I don't know..? I never actually thought about that, never had that thought cross my mind, so I'm really just confused about it? Perhaps it's the fact that my own Mother was more... strict and almost professional in her manner of raising me? Whereas Aunt Theresa was like a... not a 'real' Mother, but more of a relaxed, laidback Mother who gave me an extra snack or let me stay up later to read a book that wasn't on something I needed to study?"
Leone seemed more confused the longer she spoke, and I smiled and reached over to grab her hand, surprising the Vampire as I rubbed my thumb across the back of her hand soothingly, saying "It might just be that you wanted that lax Mother, Leone, and nothing more... and the fact that you did grow up listening to the two of them potentially make love? It might have influenced your younger mind somewhat. At the very least, it seems like you do indeed prefer some gentler treatment and softer warmth, hm~?"
We shared a chuckle at my insinuations, casting a glance at the Demoness who typically did the opposite of all of those things, her purple gaze bright with amusement as she just shook her head and swiftly made it clear that there was going to be no gentle treatment from her anytime soon, something that made us chuckle some more before we all turned towards Anput, who was still silent.
Feeling our gazes land on her, the Jackalkin looked at each of us before simply shaking her head, her silver eyes still as complicated as before as she turned back towards the window and continued to remain silent, not budging at all even as Jahi asked "Anput?"
She just simply shook her head again, her gaze fixated on the landscapes that passed us by as we traveled over the land of the Three Kingdoms, heading towards the mountain range that created that natural border between the Empire and the Three Kingdoms... though now it was just the eastern portion of the Empire.
Her silence and refusal to speak was both surprising and unsurprising at the same time... I was surprised because we had all openly shared our own without any desire to hide it, so that everyone could understand what had just happened, but I was also unsurprised because... none of us knew what it was that she saw in that slender Caninekin version of Cali.
We had no idea what story that form had for her, what meaning it had or any of that; we knew nothing, and the only person who actually knew didn't want to share, since it clearly meant something to her that made her feel so conflicted internally.
Prying would not end well - a benefit of the Core and it's influence on the body was that you could visibly tell when someone had one or more of their emotions heightened to a certain degree, and it usually took place in the eyes.
And considering Anput's eyes were still a brilliant silver, it was clear she had some sort of spiked emotion at the moment, and with us being in a confined space with her, pissing her off was not an ideal outcome, but it also wasn't something that we could just let remain untouched and unspoken about.
Something she seemed to know, but something that she didn't give a damn about at the moment as she just stared out the window, ignoring us all and not moving a muscle as the carriage just rolled over the gravel roads of the Kingdom, taking us back to the Empire.
Silence took back its place inside the carriage as we exchanged concerned glances with one another, trying to see if someone had a nugget of information to share that might help us crack this open, but none of us knew anything, and it wasn't something that we could just ask - she was making that clear.
So we just had to wait until the Jackalkin wanted to open up to us about it, which only made the rest of the carriage ride home all the more awkward as time gradually - slowly - passed us by, with the sun rising to its zenith as we crossed over into the Empire and made it to Arx Impius, where we were going to make a brief stop to eat and discuss what was going to happen with the materials.
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