Chapter 822 Evil & Heartless
During this conversation, Shui Xian felt like he was learning something. He felt like he could listen to their conversation for the whole day. He couldn't even believe it himself. They both were not only geniuses, but they also had very clear ideas. If one saw them from afar they'd think that these ladies were having a very casual conversation but only he knew how deep and heavy their conversation was.
Shui Xian actually wasn't surprised when he learned that Raelle's life decisions were influenced by the people around her. She was someone who unknowingly even let her likes and dislikes be influenced by the ones close to her.
But the thing that got to him the most was what Song Xin'ai just said.
'The only regret in human life is time. We always feel like time was never enough or wondered if we could turn back the time to change our past and make a different choice. But they say all roads lead to Rome. So why do we think that if we made different choices, we won't regret those choices as well?'
He felt like those words were specifically said for him. They were like a wake-up call. He had been feeling really uncomfortable since he learned about his mother's past and adding his own foolishness of marrying Tang Hebe into the mix, his feelings couldn't be described in words. Although Raelle kept him occupied, somewhere deep in his mind, he still was thinking about those things.
Song Xin'ai's words struck his heart. Yes, he did think about what if he could change the past? What if he could turn back time and make a different decision? Would his mother be alive today? But now he had to re-evaluate the situation. Indeed, how could he guarantee that he wouldn't have regretted it if he had made a different choice back then?
"Regrets are a part of a human life," said Raelle. "After all, as humans, we are never satisfied with what we have."
Song Xin'ai nodded her head in agreement, "Indeed. We are never satisfied." She took a moment before saying, "Thank you for answering my question."
Raelle hummed but didn't speak.
Song Xin'ai was wondering if she should leave but stopped and said, "I have something else to say. I hope you don't mind?"
"What is it?"
"I'm sorry for your loss," said Song Xin'ai. "I know that currently your mind must be desperately trying to reason with you about how you can't change what happened. The only thing you can do is to look forward and hope for the best. But your heart must be hurting as well. I'm sorry that I couldn't be the mother whom you could hug and tell what you're going through. However, I understand that the child must have left a hollowness within you." She looked lost as she went on, "It's very understandable. Even if you keep the child for one day in your womb, a baby has its way of creating a bond with the parents. This is a difficult time for both of you. But you'll get through this only with the support of each other. So, I hope you both stay together and be there for each other."
Shui Xian finally lifted his head and faced her. He cleaned his hand to hold Raelle's hand and kissed the back of her hand saying, "We are here. We'll definitely stay here with each other." He looked back at Song Xin'ai and said, "But thank you for your kind words. And thank you for taking time out of your schedule to come here as well. I apologize for not being able to entertain you in this situation."
"You don't have to pretend to be so polite," said Song Xin'ai. "I can tell you don't like me and you have quite some opinion about me as well. You're really not good at faking it."
Shui Xian's smile stiffened at her straightforward words. What did she mean by he was not good at faking it? He had been faking it for so long but the only people who caught him happened to be his wife and now his mother-in-law. What the hell? Why did this mother and daughter duo give him the same blow?
"But it's only normal that you don't like me," added Song Xin'ai. "If I was at your place, I wouldn't like myself either."
"You don't like yourself already," Raelle chimed in.
Song Xin'ai paused to look at her daughter before sighing helplessly, "Thanks for the reminder."
"You're welcome!" responded Raelle naturally.
Shui Xian pursed his lips and stayed quiet.
"Anyway, what I meant was that since you seem to love Raelle, it's really normal that you'd dislike this absent mother of hers. I must be like the real ugly monster in your eyes."
"You're not ugly though," said Shui Xian. He couldn't go against his conscience to call her ugly with open eyes. Also, if he did, wouldn't he be questioning his own wife's beauty as well? It was better to avoid going down that road.
"Oh, I didn't know you judge people from their appearance," stated Song Xin'ai in surprise. "Shui Xian, even devils know how to wear the mask of angels. How can you judge people by their appearance? Don't be deceived by what you see."
"If I was so easily deceived, I wouldn't have married Raelle," retorted Shui Xian. "Besides, I don't judge people by their looks or the things I hear about them. I already learned my lesson. I have to give everyone a chance before coming to a conclusion about who they are."
Song Xin'ai looked at Raelle and said, "It seems I know why you married him. He is flexible and can learn. Good for you." She smiled and looked at the time saying, "I should leave now. I already wasted a lot of your time and my own as well. Take care of yourself."
Raelle watched her leaving while Shui Xian kept frowning, "Your mother is..."
"You don't have to think so much about her," said Raelle.
"Wifey, she is different than what I had in mind," stated Shui Xian.
"You thought she was the evil and a heartless mother. So, you are now surprised to see her acting like a normal human being."
Shui Xian stared at his wife, "Sigh. I don't even have to say it. You know everything already."
"Hubby, you should listen to her. People are often not what they look like or what they act like. It's just us who keep painting them in the colors we like. I never said she is evil. Heartless? I won't comment on that. She isn't the best mother but she isn't the worst out there as well."
"I don't understand how can you not have any opinions on her for abandoning you?"
"It's easier to have opinions," said Raelle. "It's harder to understand people. And I seem to like understanding people."
Shui Xian put a grape into her mouth saying, "Yes, yes. You're the best."
"I know," she replied.
"By the way, I'm happy you didn't become a scientist," said Shui Xian. "How would I even meet you if you really became a scientific researcher?"
"If we were meant to meet, we'd meet anyway."
"You think so?" he asked her.
"I know so," she replied.
"You really don't feel regretful?" he inquired.
"Do you know that I designed a highly destructive weapon when I was young?" asked Raelle. "As I just told her, I got scared of my own brain. If I really continued, I might have done something irreparable. And I didn't want to harm anyone just because I had crazy ideas."
"My wife is still the coolest," said Shui Xian. He pecked her lips and grinned.
"You can..." Before she could continue, he pecked her lips again. "Stop..." and another kiss landed on her lips. "I'm not..." And once again those lips closed in and blocked her words.
Every time she parted her lips, he'd kiss her and not let her continue.
Raelle pushed him away, "I want to eat grapes."
"Oh?" Shui Xian put a grape between his teeth and brought it to her lips. Once he was done, he grinned, "I can feed you myself. Isn't it fun eating together? Husband and wife should share things."
"What has gotten into you?" asked Raelle.
Shui Xian kissed at the corner of her lips and said, "Nothing. I just feel like I need to love you a little more."
"And where did this bizarre thought come from?" she asked.
"You don't have to know," he replied as he continued to pester her for kisses and hugs. He was clingy already so nothing seemed out of ordinary to Raelle. In fact, she really didn't realize that Song Xin'ai words got Shui Xian. He was thinking about Song Xin'ai and said that the child left a hollowness within Raelle. And it reminded him of how Raelle had said she felt empty.
It left a space in his own heart, how could he not understand her feelings?
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