Chapter 215 - Let bygones be bygones.
Li Xue was taken aback by Feng Yi Lan's words. Before she could herself realize, her jaws got clenched tight in rage. "A woman like you? What the hell does he mean by that?" She asked, a wave of intense anger prominent in her eyes.
Her eyes fixed at her friend, waiting to get her words of response. But the moment came and time passed by, she said nothing. Until finally she couldn't take the serenity of the situation. Sighing, she looked at Li Xue and said with a heavy heart, a layer of disappointment coming out lacing her words.
"A woman like me who has chances to become the same as my mother. After all, daughters often have the same mold as their mother. I too might have chances to destroy the lives of other people to benefit myself. He said that he would never fall for a woman like me even if I have a hell lot of wealth and the formidable tag of Feng. He just did not care".
Those words were still very fresh in her mind even though years got passed. Maybe because she was sure that the man was not just some of her random liking that can be forgotten easily but her first love. The first love that is often hard to forget!
As she remembered him, a pang of slight twitching pain got in her heart and a bitter smile escaped her lips, which lingered on her face for quite some time. Li Xue also got confused seeing her like this.?She was about to ask her what that smile on her lips meant but her question was just not needed because Yi Lan's next words answered everything for her.
"Don't get too surprised seeing me smile at my own misfortune, Li Xue. I am just mocking myself for pretending such an idiot at that time. I knew that his words to me at that time was just a mere lie, but still, I decided to pretend that I believed his words, the way he wanted me to. I let him go away with a sense of achievement of tricking me. He really thought that I didn't know that he was saving something precious to him by rejecting me. How childish!"
Though her words of explanation seemed a little poetic and incomprehensible to ears, Li Xue could hear the depths of feelings she was trying to convey to her. Her heart clenched seeing her like this but she waited for her to complete. Her Yi Lan has not just changed; she has become a lot matured, which Li Xue has never imagined.
No doubt that she still had some feelings for that man but she has learned to move on in her life, something that Li Xue knew, how hard it was to learn. "But dear, let bygones be bygones. Why do I care about them? He left and I let him go, as he wanted. Nothing stayed connected between us and that was all that matters, right? I can't just wait for him, wasting all my life. Especially when I knew that this world is full of gorgeous men. It's just I have yet to find myself one".
Hearing her such grown words, Li Xue's heart puffed up with pride. Her eyes showed glittery tears of happiness as she gazed her friend adoringly. "Awww … my beautiful baby has grown up so much! I am so proud of you" she praised as she lightly pulled her cheeks, all lovingly.
The intense situation instantly got sobered as the soothing music of both women's laughter rang in the air. "Of course, I have to grow up. Or was you expecting me to remain the same way I was before? After you pulled that missing stunt, I need to become mature to search for you, or else how would I have brought you back."
Pressing her lips tight, Li Xue nodded head, showing how impressed she was with her. "Yes, yes! I got that. You are all a big girl now, not only with your height but also with your thoughts and the way you carry yourself. I am so happy seeing you like this". Her words at this time provided Feng Yi Lan with the motherly warmth which she has never felt from her mother.
Her eyes filled with tears as she pulled her friend into a pleasant hug, mumbling under her breath. "Girl, I missed you so much!"
"I missed you too!" Li Xue said as she too closed her eyes to feel the moment of real friendship she has missed all these years. After a good moment of warmth, love and care, Feng Yi Lan pulled herself back.
Both women's eyes were having traces of some tears. Pouting her lip, Feng Yi Lan complained, "Don't lie now. I am sure you have not missed me even a bit because if you did, you must have informed me before leaving. But I received no such notification. I know, you never like to ask help but I expected you to at least keep me informed about yourself. Was that so hard for you? You know all these years, I had so many things to share but I didn't have you."
Li Xue could never deny her words. She knew that she was at fault but at the same time she was not. Sighing internally, she said with some heavy guilt in her heart, "I know and I am sorry for keeping you worried all these years. But after all, things happened I didn't know what else to do. Saying that I was broken won't be any lie because I was more than that. But my reasons won't be an excuse to let you stop blaming me. Sorry for failing your expectations in our friendship, Yi Lan"
Feng Yi Lan looked at her friend, who was so sorted in accepting her guilt and apologizing for it that it became hard for the people to even accuse her. Then striking her fingers lightly over her forehead she said with twitching lips.
"Hey, are you kidding me? You never failed our friendship, rather has always made it comfy and trustable. You won't know but you have always been a full package deal for me. With you around, I can be all happy and careless. Never desiring any need of other people around. So you better not say all this and make me feel that I wasn't able to treasure you to the best".
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