185 Guilt [2] - The Pain of Guilt
Walking outside, Silas looked around and saw a few people in the distance.
They were in the forest, recuperating their strength and healing their wounds.
Two boys could be seen lying on a tree, however, from where he was sitting, Silas could tell that they were awake.
They were almost a mile away, yet his mystic eyes could see them as if they were right in front of him.
He began to walk in their direction as softly as he could, but even as he did so, the girl in his arms began to move around.
Instinctually, she sniffed a few times before letting out a very small unconscious smile. A second passed, and she was already snuggling closer to Silas.
'Hmm... I wonder if this is what having a child feels like.' Silas thought; however, it wasn't the first time he had felt that way.
'Ah fuck it...' Silas thought before floating in the air toward them.
Nymira had worked way too hard, and he didn't want to wave her up.
Flying through the air, he moved much faster, and within a few minutes, he was already in front of the group.
When the students saw him, they all quickly took out their respective weapons and pointed them at him.
They immediately recognized him. Syra was the first one to recognize him, but the rest quickly followed.
Herla, Syra, Alex, and Eclipse were the only ones who didn't move. All of them were still for completely different reasons.
He didn't look exactly like the picture on the bounty. Actually, if it weren't for the description at the bottom of the bounty describing his white hair, posture, and the armor he wore, it would have been much harder for the average person to notice him.
"He's... Young..." Argon said with a little bit of shock. However, he quickly returned to his fighting stance despite the growing pain shooting through his body.
Falco did the same, while Zelon tried to, however, he was clearly out of it.
Losing his best friend was clearly taking a toll on his mind, and right now, he could only point his rage at something.
"Wait! Don't attack." Eclipse shouted, but it was already too late.
Zelon had said the full chant for a fireball, which was already shooting through the air and closing in on Silas.
Silas simply looked at the fireball with a weird expression before blowing on it with his mouth.
*Fwoosh*
The fireball immediately dispersed the moment Silas blew on it, causing everyone that didn't know him to look at him in shock.
"How did you-..." Zelon looked on as a hint of despair appeared in his heart.
It was as if, at that very moment, he had understood that he would die.
Silas slowly descended and placed his feet on the floor.
"What are you doing..." Silas asked with a weird expression.
"If you're going to kill us, go ahead already you f-"
"No way..." Syra muttered with her hand over her mouth.
So many thoughts were going through her mind right now. She was struggling to understand what was happening, but her instincts were telling her that she was right.
"B-But how?" Syra stuttered as tears welled up in her eyes.
Eclipse looked at her from the side of his eyes before letting out a deep sigh.
On the other hand, Alex looked around awkwardly, not knowing what to do. Unlike Eclipse, he wasn't used to not being completely in the loop.
He knew that Syra was Silas' sister, and he could assume what was happening from her reaction. However, other than that, he didn't actually know all that much.
All he knew was that Syra wasn't allowed to know about him, which was one reason he changed his name and hair color.
Without paying much attention to the crying girl before him, Silas sighed, walked toward Eclipse, and placed Nymira in his arms.
She scrunched up her nose when she was placed in his arms and began to stir awake.
*Swoosh*
Suddenly, a blade appeared in front of him, yet, it only took a flick of a finger to move the blade away from his body by shifting its trajectory.
"I suggest you stop, boy." Silas said threateningly while releasing a sliver of his killing intent.
Yet, that sliver alone caused Argon, who had attacked him seconds earlier, to drop to the ground while panting heavily.
He couldn't even look up from the ground, as if he was being forced to kneel before a creature that stood at the very pinnacle of life.
"It's good to know your place in the universe. You certain become stronger that way." Silas said before turning around from the young man and looking at the blonde girl who was now on her knees as tears streamed down her face.
"I'm so sorry I failed you... I was your big sister, and I failed you... I let those monsters take you. I let 15:34
them do this to you... You- You sacrificed yourself for us. You died for us, and all we could do was sit "S-Silas... Silas... You're alive..." She screamed between sobs, and by now, she had awakened Nymira.
"What's happening." A feminine voice asked. Eclipse helped Nymira onto the ground as she rubbed her eyes. Her entire body was still aching, but the cries had woken her up.
"Brother-... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." Syra cried even more, but now, she had lunged at Silas...
However, she didn't attack him.
Instead, her arms wrapped around his waist while her face was quickly buried into his chest.
Silas showed a slightly weird expression, but then he heard his sister say something that caused a pain to shoot through his very heart.
"I'm so sorry I failed you... I was your big sister, and I failed you... I let those monsters take you. I let them do this to you... You- You sacrificed yourself for us. You died for us, and all we could do was sit there and d-do nothing... I'm so sorry."
Silas could feel the grip around his waist tighten significantly. He didn't understand why, but his chest felt so heavy at the moment. Syra was so light, yet, no matter what he did, it felt like he was being held down by a mountain that had decided to wrap its arms around him.
That guilt she was feeling... That emotion that was currently weighing down on her entire mind. That burning sensation she had been feeling the whole time, thinking she was he, had died...
"I'm sorry I was so weak."
That feeling that killed and destroyed her from the inside for six years...
It was all being transferred to Silas.
"I'm so sorry." Syra fell to the ground and held his legs while balling her eyes out.
'You're wrong...' Silas thought with a stoic expression that was slowly being morphed into something else.
"Why are you blaming yourself?" Silas asked when the pain in his heart had gotten too heavy.
He had never felt like this before, so he didn't fully understand it... However, in a way, he knew what the feeling was.
"I was the one who abandoned you guys, not the other way round."
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