Chapter 19 The One Who Doesn't Knock
He Gu felt that his eyes were burning and his line of sight got a bit fuzzy.
Song Ju Han said with a smile: "He Gu, what did you really came here to do? You are also a pure gay, how can you not know the rules than my half-way?"
1]..... (bisexual/whoring)
"...Rules?" He Gu chewed these two words repeatedly, as if he was swallowing poison--- medicine.
"We just slept together and now you think I am responsible for you? Or else I am the only one for you?" Song Ju Han's voice was full of sarcasm.
There was a fierce flash in his eyes. He Gu grabbed Song Ju Han's collar and pushed the man to the wall.
Song Ju Han was a little surprised. He buckled his wrist. He was half-heartedly joking and said, "He Gu, you better not act impulsively. Fortunately, you can't beat me. If you really beat me, you gonna get into big problems."
He Gu eyes were bloodshot and his chest was violently rolling. He has never suffered such humiliation in his life. He feels that something in his body has been torn and blood has fallen to the ground.
This face made him familiar and unfamiliar. From the first acquaintance to the present, for four years, he silently paid attention to Song Ju Han's every move, only because of the afternoon he got near him in that small classroom. For the first time, making him know what kind of good things he likes.
If they didn't meet again, he would always be a fan for Song Ju Han and will not be out of control as he is now.
What did Song Ju Han think of him...
Song Ju Han looked at the somewhat distorted face, sighed and touched his hair gently: "If I thought you play like thins? Wanted to be lovers?I wouldn't bother come to playyou...."
Can't play?
He Gu remembered what he said to Feng Zheng. He said, "I am not naive."
How brave is it when he was bragging, now? He never thought about playing and he couldn't play with it.
Song Ju Han's tone became gentle and confused: "Were we not so good? He Gu, I like you very much, but I am still young, I don't want to fall in love, you are so young, why are you too serious? What you want? Everything can be obtained from me, what is there a need to be so angry."
He Gu felt like a punctured ballon he slowly loosened his hold on Song Ju Han's collar, forced the pressure off the surging, he was silence for a few seconds, he nodded and said quietly: "You are right."
Song Ju Han, you are right, why bother being too seriously.
He also didn't have a small piece of regret and he still slept with a celebrity. If it was just a fuckbuddies, Song Ju Han's specifications were too high, as long as he was not serious.
He Gu held his fist and suppressed the pain that made it difficult to breathe and looked at Song Ju Han with a blank expression: "You continue to play, I am leaving."
Song Ju Han frowned. "He Gu, this thing... I blamed myself for not telling you at first, I thought you understood. I will compensate you, whatever you want, I will buy it for you."
"You didn't say it clearly, which part exactly?"
Song Ju Han couldn't speak.
"Is it the part that you fooled around with me then to provoke Feng Zheng?"
Song Ju Han's face was somewhat uncomfortable: "Is this what Feng Zheng told you?"
"If not?."
Song Ju Han was silent: "He Gu, you follow me, I will always be good for you, you want to experience things a bit, we have fun years at this age."
He Gu looked at Song Ju Han deeply and watched his face for half a minute before saying, "Okay."
At that time, he was too young and stupid. He thought he made a decision that was free and mature.
The loss of love is a small episode in his life. It will be overdone. Since he still has some fascination with Song Ju Han, it is not a bad thing to be a companion. He has nothing to lose. He even thinks about it. They are all men, Song Ju Han can play around, what can he do?
He couldn't predict at the time that it would be the most costly, irreparable and wrong mistake in his life. His love for Song Ju Han did not die because of changes in mentality and time. Instead, it became more and more blazing. When he suddenly felt shocked, he had already walked too far and sank too deep to turn back.
He Gu opened his eyes and saw the familiar ceiling of his home.
Thinking about the past, he fell asleep on the sofa and the past was woven into a story that merged into his dreams. Six years, all the details at the time, he actually remembers yh so clearly.
In particular, he remember how Song Ju Han was fascinated by He Gu fascination. How could he use his words like that. In a few words to make his cheeks hurt and his heart broken? He also remembered how frustrated Feng Zheng's decision was made at the time. Remember Feng's impulsive the rough kiss.
He knows that because of his affairs, Song Ju Han went to find Feng Zheng then Feng Zheng went to find Song Ju Han, the two also had a lot of conflict, but He Gu did not know what happened when they met, Feng Zheng flew out from the country, the other one He Gu has been shackling with him for the past six years.
He also remembers that in the past six years, Song Ju Han fed him a whispers of a sugar and He Gu was firmly fixed.
He really made up his mind to "fool around with" Song Ju Han. He wanted to vent out his fascination with Song Ju Han and he now was too addicted. He could leave the man without regrets. He doesn't feel that he was out of the box. Unexpectedly, Song Ju Han was still the Song Ju Han, but He Gu could not withdraw.
He Gu never regretted it, but occasionally he can't help but think, if at that time he and Song Ju Han had split off each other, what will happen now? Probably he will have heard Song Ju Han's news after a few years then just laugh at it then smile and tell his friends that he had slept with this big celebrity. In short, it will not be the situation that is so deep in the quagmire today.
But can he dare he regret it.
He rubbed his sore back and climbed up from the sofa and at a glance he saw the cell phone that was thrown out by Song Ju Han.
He took the thrown battery put it in the phone on and booted it up, but fortunately the phone is not broken.
One boot, more than a dozen missed calls and text messages came out, all of them were from Feng Zheng, he dialed him back and Feng Zheng almost immediately picked up the phone on the first tone, he nervously shouted: "He Gu, are you okay?"
He Gu was tired and said: "I am fine, I am sorry, you must think I'm a joke now."
1]..... Girl all my readers thinks you're a joke..... But it get better yeah?
"You are really..." Feng Zheng gnashed his teeth. "Song Ju Han has been a really bastard for ten years. What did he do to you?"
He Gu laughed at himself with a mockery: "In fact, there is nothing. He came to accompany me on my birthday. He was angry when he saw you calling me. You haven't been around here for so many years."
Feng Zheng was silent and evaded the weight and said: "You are okay then."
"It's rare that you remember my birthday and he was worried."
"How can I not remember it. Song Ju Han is gone? Come out and hang up with me."
"It's too late, I have to go to work tomorrow and you should rest early."
Feng Zheng couldn't help but said: "He Gu can't I persuade you?"
He Gu slowly leaned on the wall: "Feng Zheng, all the things you can think of, can't think of, I understand, but I still can't help myself. Anything you advise me that it's useless, I am self-sufficient, but I don't want to be with you. It's already awful for me to say the same things again and again."
"He Gu, you are the only one I know, who jumped into the fire pit while he was wide awake."
He Gu was teased by his description: "No, maybe I owed him in my previous life and I have to pay debts in this life."
There was a long sigh from Feng Zheng on the phone.
After Gu Qing Pei went to the new company, he did not abandon the group chat of the old company. He Gu opened the group chat occasionally and he could see a few grumbles as he joked.
On this day, He Gu was reading a document and a pop-up window popped up on the computer. It was Gu Qing Pei's video call invitation. He opened it with some doubts.
He saw Gu Qing Pei sitting in the boss's chair and waving at him with a smile: "Hey, He Gu whatchu up to?"
He Gu ust wanted to laugh: "Work, Gu you seems to be in a good mood."
"Hey, I have to keep a strong smile, this company has a bunch of messed up people, the boss gave me a big problem... forget that, don't say this, I have to show you my new office." Gu Qing Pei stood with his mobile phone after he got up he made a sweep movement of the office.
That office is more luxurious than the office belonging to a Nanchuang's executives. It's a private company. If they want to spend money that's their right, He Gu can't help but envy him: "This office is very good."
"Yeah, how are you, are you not tempted?"
He Gu smiled: "That is the president's office, what is the use of being tempted."
"We are renovating the new office area. I installed it and I moved it. This office is yours." Gu Qing Pei looked at him with a smile. "As long as you come, I have reserved a seat for you at any time."
"Gu, you are really lifting me up. I will only work for this company. Nothing else will work. I am really afraid to live up to your expectations." Although He Gu is very grateful to Gu Qing Pei for his appreciation, he always has some guilty conscience. He felt that Gu Qing Pei, such a beautiful man, should not be able to see his dead hopeless brain.
"Hey, If you still want to work like this, as long as you do what you do, I will give you something else."
He Gu smiled: "Gu, I will give you an answer later, okay."
"Okay." Gu Qing Pei sighed. "He Gu, I think you should be able to imagine my situation. Yuan Li Jiang career path was very big. He promised me to put this branch on the market and let me enter the group executive board, but there is no one around me now, it's really crappy."
"I know."
"So I have high hopes for you coming to work here, I will wait for you to answer me later."
"Okay, sure."
"Right, I will show you the Arowana that I have raised. I have two in the office. I hoped it can assimilate to the new officer's suffocation. As a result, it died yesterday. I bought it for 80,000 yuans..... I feel bad. I didn't sleep well last night." Gu Qing Pei said that he was grievously screaming and he was a little bit childish.
"That must have helped you block a wave of anger and heroic righteousness."
"Hey, when you said that way it makes sense. I have a lot of comfort in my heart." Gu Qing Pei pointed his mobile phone at the fish tank. He Gu didn't spent time to see the baby fish who was more expensive than gold? Suddenly there was a rough opening sound.
Gu Qing Pei's voice was immediately wrapped in a full mockery: "How many times I said that you have to knock on the door become bring your face in my office. You are a grown up, how can you not even understand the courtesy taught to a two-year-old child?"
1].... The one who doesn't knock get it
"Don't speak such nonsense." A young, clear, angry voice came over from that side.
He Gu curious sat up and the video was moved off.
Immediately, the original video frame began to change there was an ad playing --- Song Ju Han's electrical concert advertising.
He Gu sighed and shut the video window. He is unlucky, even if he wants to forget the man, the one who can be overwhelmed every day is hiding from it.
Since his birthday, there has been no connection between them for half a month. He felt that Song Ju Han would have been angry for a long time and He Gu still can't afford to reconcile. Near the end of the year, the work pressure is too great, he was on the job site. Under this high pressure, he was exhausted and tired and he was too lazy to think or go find Song Ju Han.
That one thing he has always expected to be coming, maybe it has come now, he has been preparing for this day for six years and he has long been flustered.