Chapter 191 - The Trap Of The Past ?
Once the car carrying Jack, Alice and Erick left Anne, it was being brought back up to the second floor by a maid. Soon, the maid brought Anne to the second floor without a lot of difficulty since Jack's house had a private lift that could carry around three adults.
"If you need anything, don't hesitate to call me, Miss," said Susan, the middle-aged maid to Anne when she arrived back in the room after accompanying Jack to the office.
"Yes, Madam..."
"No!!! Don't call me madam, just call me miss. I'm just a servant in this house," Susan said a bit loud when Anne called her 'madam'.
Anne, who was confused by Susan's reaction, seemed to narrow her eyes, "Why can't I call you madam? You are much older than me."
The new maid at Jack's house smiled at Anne's words, she slowly pushed Anne towards the bed.
"It is only natural in the world of servants, Miss. You are not allowed to call me 'madam' even when I'm a hundred years older than you. The reason is because you are the 'madam' of this house," replied Susan softly.
"What do you mean by the 'madam of the house'? I-I'm just friends, Jack and I are just friends." Anne tried to quickly clarify what Susan was saying.
"Maybe you only think of the master as a friend, but I'm sure the master doesn't think of you as a friend, Miss. From the way he looks at you, I can already guess that he has special feelings for you," said Susan again.
Anne swallowed her saliva. She slowly lowered her head to stare at her left leg which was still wrapped in the bandage that Pierre had just changed, Jack's family doctor. She took a deep breath as she closed her beautiful eyes. "Jack is too perfect, especially for me, who is full of flaws, Susan."
Susan pursed her lips after hearing the words of the beautiful lady she had to serve. "To be the partner of a man, we don't need to be perfect, Miss. I think it's already enough to be just yourself. A man who truly loves a woman will accept the flaws and strengths of her, without having to ask the woman to change..."
Anne's lowered head slowly lifted, she then looked at Susan who was kneeling in front of her. Anne's pale lips trembled slightly at Susan's words, she was not a stupid girl who couldn't distinguish the attention of a man who liked her. It was because there were too many wounds that pierced her heart, that was why Anne became like this. She pretended to be indifferent and kept her feelings.
"Jack still keeps the memories of his past, Susan. And I know his past is trapped deep within his heart, that's why I don't want to go into him. Jack and I have both been hurt, that's why I don't want to make him feel the same pain again because of me. That's why I don't want to give him any hope, I still have other wishes and don't want to bother Jack," said Anne at length with a flat smile.
"If you feel it is the best choice then I can't say anything because I'm just someone else in your life, but I just want to give you a little advice, Miss. Don't get caught in the wounds of the past for way too long. Your life is in the present and you have to keep walking, you have to keep fighting and move on with life. It hurts when we experience failure, but believe me there is no failure in this world that doesn't bring blessings. Every journey of life in a human's life always provides a new lesson, including wounds and disappointments. Have you ever thought this way, Miss? Believe me, Miss, the test given by God to His people is to make His people stronger and tougher to live a better life ahead. So don't regret or lament over everything that has happened in the past, Miss. You have to be more faithful that your future will be 100 times more beautiful than you can imagine," said Susan gently, trying to give some advice to Anne.
"I know, Susan, that's why I tried to get up and tried to get my life back together again. I'm also tired of being trapped in this feeling, I'm trying to live to be a new Anne who is not weak and easily bullied. But sometimes, when I'm tired the bad memories come back, as if the memories don't want to let me go and continue to entangle me in a dark world without light," answered Anne quietly without realizing it.
"If those bad memories are trapping you, the only thing you can do is to keep making good memories that can kill the bad one, Miss. Trust me, your smile is a lot more beautiful than your tears. By smiling, we can forget all the sadness inside our heart. Although it's a difficult thing to do, slowly the sadness will disappear by itself. If you keep believing that you are now living a happier and better life than before, I'm sure those bad memories will slowly disappear from your life, Miss," continued Susan.
Anne closed her eyes again and took a deep breath, she had heard many words like this from Jack. It was just that every time she wanted to practice his advice, it felt so hard to do it. The experience of being betrayed, insulted, cheated, used and ignored had left a very deep wound in Anne's heart. And it's not easy to cure it, even though she had tried to ignore it many times, but every time she tried to get out the trap from the past that had formed the wound inside of her, it only made Anne afraid to take a step.
"I'm much better now, Susan, I can make peace with myself. I've also forgotten those who hurt me, although it's not easy but I'm trying to get up and move on with my life again. But as I said before that I don't want to make Jack feel the same pain again because of me, he deserves to be happy with another woman," said Anne quietly.
Susan smiled at the words of the beautiful lady in front of her, as a person who has had a lot of life experience she guessed that Anne must have had bad things happen to her in the past. That was why she acted this way. Susan gently helped Anne into bed.
"Listen to me, Miss, the people who have hurt you must have an uneasy life now. Every action will have karma, Miss. God is fair, don't forget that." Susan spoke again as she helped Anne into a comfortable seat.
"I know, God is fair," said Anne softly.
"Well then, now you just have to rest, Miss. If you need me, don't hesitate to call me," said Susan again.
"I will, thanks for everything, Susan."
With a smile on her face, Susan responded to Anne's words, and soon she left Anne's room. She let Anne take a rest just like what Pierre had instructed before because she needed a lot of rest and not moving her legs too much so that her legs would heal quickly.
After Susan left her alone, Anne then grabbed her cell phone which was on the nightstand. Since arriving at Jack's house last night she hadn't activated her cell phone at all, Anne wanted to let Linda know her current situation so she won't worry about Anne. When Anne managed to activate her cellphone, there were two names she knew very well that seemed to be sending her the most messages.
"Aaron, did he stop being angry at me??" Said Anne quietly when she saw that there were about forty messages that Aaron had sent to her.
"Oh shit," Anne shrieked a little when she accidentally received a video call from Leon, even though her original intention was to open and read Aaron's message.
"Marianne… are you okay? Why I couldn't contact you at all since yesterday?"
To be continued
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