678 I don't want lose you, Miaoran [Bonus chapter]
Miaoran turned to face Feng Lao. "Because we are friends we can like each other. Don't you think?" she asked him.
"I know you have lost a lot of people in your life. I truly understand that. When you were away and when I could not see you even for a day, I was restless. I did not want to accept my feelings. But you told me to find my happiness. And I think my happiness is in you," Miaoran said. "I want to make you happy too, Feng Lao," she expressed her desire.
"I will think about it, Miaoran. But don't keep high hopes for me," Feng Lao stated.
"I have high hopes for you. I will wait until the last breath for you, so you can take as much as time you can," Miaoran said with a tiny smile.
"You should not say that, Miaoran. You can find a better man than me if you want to get married and have a family," Feng Lao asserted.
"Are you serious, Feng Lao? You think I am desperate to get married and have a family!?" She frowned and arched a brow at him. That statement hurt her.
Feng Lao realized his mistake and quickly apologized. "I didn't mean that," he said and lowered his eyes.
"It is fine if you do not want to accept me. I will not force you. Love isn't forced, instead, it is felt. You should go home since it is late. You may need to rest," Miaoran said and turned around to leave.
"Don't be upset with me," Feng Lao said.
"I am not," Miaoran stated.
"You are," Feng Lao said and stepped up. He stood in front of her. "Look at your facial expressions. You are upset with me. I apologize, Miaoran," he said and joined both of his hands.
"Don't do that," Miaoran said in a low voice and lowered his hands. She lifted her eyes to gaze at him and continued, "I know you have the fear of fate. Nothing good ever happened to you in your opinion. Perhaps, we met by destiny as you mentioned before."
"I don't want to lose you, Miaoran. I hope you understand me in this too," Feng Lao asserted. He could not act on Xu Zifan's and Jingfei's advice.
"I understand, but as I said I'll wait for you until my last breath," she again repeated.
Feng Lao did not say anything this time and decided to leave. He had a lot on his mind after Miaoran confessed to him. He had hoped Xu Zifan and Jingfei would be wrong about her behavior.
"This early?" Miaoran didn't want him to leave so early. They didn't even properly converse with each other. "If you are leaving because I confessed my feelings, then that's wrong. You have an explanation to give to me," she stated.
"What explanation do you need?" Feng Lao asked with a gentle smile.
"I want to know what you did for almost two weeks outside the capital," Miaoran replied. "I deserve to know, right?" She asked.
"Sure," Feng Lao agreed to her and again sat on the floor chair. He put the robe on one side of the table.
"The tea has turned colder," Miaoran said.
"I do not wish to drink more tea," Feng Lao stated. "I got His Majesty's order that's why I had to leave urgently," Feng Lao said.
"What kind of order?" Miaoran asked.
"Have you heard how Queen Dowager tried to kill her own son?" Feng Lao queried. But Miaoran had no knowledge of it so she shook her head.
"It all happened after the former King's true face was revealed to everyone. The then Crown Prince sided with Prince Lóng Wei. Because he was the son of the then Queen, she decided to take the life of her own son. So, I was given the work by His Majesty to find out if his mother was okay and not plotting anything," Feng Lao explained to Miaoran.
"That's so upsetting to hear. How could a mother do this to her own child?" Miaoran mumbled.
"When it comes to the throne, anything can happen, Miaoran," Feng Lao answered her.
"So, you looked after Her Majesty Queen Dowager's activities all these days?" Miaoran asked.
"Yes. It was necessary," Feng Lao said.
"I see. You do so much work all by yourself," Miaoran stated.
"It is my duty," Feng Lao answered. "How is your work going? I hope you have made a lot of friends," he stated.
"It is fun, Feng Lao. Yes, I befriended a few. They all are nice to me and they praise me for my courage. You were right. If there were many discouraging people, then there were encouraging people too. My day passes by in the tailoring work. We have received a big merchant order for dresses, so these days we all return home late," she explained to him.
Feng Lao kept listening to her and enjoyed those talks. With her, time would usually fly faster and the same was happening now as well. They both did not realize it was already dinner time unless Xixi interceded and informed them.
"I should leave now. Thank you for the tea," Feng Lao said and smiled at her.
"Go home safely. We have a carriage, so you can go in that," Miaoran said and looked at Xixi.
"No. I will walk home," Feng Lao said.
"But it is late," Miaoran worriedly said.
"It's not late. Curfew hour is two hours later," Feng Lao asserted and walked out with Miaoran.
"Sleep early. Don't be an owl," Miaoran told him.
"You are already acting as my wife," Feng Lao stopped smiling as he realized what he just said.
"I will be soon," Miaoran said and smiled a little. "I will take good care of you then. You don't have to worry about sleepless nights then," she continued.
Feng Lao did not say anything and they reached the front entrance soon. Feng Lao descended the stairs and turned around to gaze at her. He waved at Miaoran and asked her to go inside.
"I will watch you leave," Miaoran said.
Feng Lao hummed and walked away.
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