Di Chajie clenched his teeth and did not speak, he only raised his eyes and stared at her sinisterly.
Yun Hanxiao continued to speak: "But you are different. You are willing to promise me those things that sound incomparably beautiful and beautiful, those beautiful and inconceivable to me. You often say these words to me over and over again. I, Di Chajie, am not a fool. I have also thought about it for a very long time. How can you tell me so easily that you like me, pamper me, and even say that you love me! Is that because you're completely sincere? Just like how you risked your life for me twice, even if you tried to serve me, it wouldn't be as simple as lying. Di Chajie, I actually believe that you love me, but I am also willing to believe that I also like you. We have the same kind of child, and we get along better than anyone else, so I like and familiarize myself with many of your little habits. For example, you subconsciously used your warmest chest to cover my hands, and if you were to use your own hands to warm them, then you would have to cover them before you could touch me. It's not like I don't believe you... "But for some reason, even until now, when I said those three words, those three words that represented my feelings and my promise, I just couldn't say it ??"
Di Chajie continued to stare at her.
If his eyes could eat people, Di Chajie would have already swallowed Yun Hanxiao whole!
This girl was so honest with her words. If it were another girl, who knew how happy she would be if she married him? The only one who could flatter him so much was her. To tell him this clearly, she could not say from the bottom of her heart that she loved him!
Yun Hanxiao continued to work hard to express her feelings. Although she did not like what she said, this was her true intention!
The voice was very close, but also seemed very far away, "Di Chajie, I asked myself many times in secret, as if I didn't know why myself, but I also seemed to have a little clarity ??"
"What exactly do you mean by that?"
"Yun Hanxiao was startled by him and tried hard to breathe. I ca
ot be scared by him, I need to work hard to express my feelings." I just wanted to tell you that I still can't say those three words. Although I do not know the reason, but I know very well, maybe I like you, maybe I am like what you said, maybe I am not even brave enough to admit that I love you, but Di Chajie, don't be too confident, even if there is love, my love for you is not enough, at least it is not enough for me to give up all my self-esteem and throw myself at you. "
Di Chajie looked at Yun Hanxiao, the domineering and intimidating gaze in her eyes was enough to cause a grown man to feel fear from the depths of his bones.
But the usually timid Yun Hanxiao stood there weakly, her eyes full of peace and seriousness.
He was like a child speaking his mind to an adult who he trusted with sincerity and ruthlessness, not caring if the thought hurt the person who heard it or not!
Di Chajie tried his best to suppress his anger, but that rage was so terrifying that it turned his heart upside down.
Yun Hanxiao, you seem to forget that I am also a person. When you stabbed me, you don't seem to remember that I can feel pain.
Di Chajie gave a forceful and cold snort, "Yun Hanxiao, do you know that there are two words in this world called 'perseverance'? As long as I insist on wanting it, I can get you! It has nothing to do with your pride, nor with your love! "
Yun Hanxiao said in a soft and gentle voice, "Di Chajie, do you know that there are two words in this world called 'patience'? Why hurt me for your persistence? Why ignore my self-esteem and love my happiness? "
Yun Hanxiao's words were completely different from those of the strong ladies who were tit for tat against men. It was obvious that she spoke with sincerity and gentleness.
"Yun Hanxiao, don't think that you're the only one who knows this word. There isn't a single person in this world who is strong enough to completely ignore this word, and it's just that to different people, these two words have different meanings."
Yun Hanxiao nodded and agreed. She continued to speak with that gentle yet determined tone of her: "You're absolutely right! These two words had a different meaning to everyone. You know, I've always been like this. For me, growing up to the point of having to have such a clear understanding! My patience is reality, my reality is life, my life has always been cruel more than beautiful! If I hadn't tried to put up with it, if I hadn't seen every random setback in reality as a reality I had to put up with, I wouldn't have had the strength to face tomorrow. I graduated from high school with no relatives and no relatives. I was pregnant with a child and lost my job! Di Chajie, everyone says that I won't be happy! No job, no education, no home, no family, no husband and a child! But I do not believe, I do not believe that my hard work so serious life will not have a happy tomorrow. No matter how much the world thinks I'm destined to live a life of pain. Or find an older man who doesn't care if I take Shaoze with me and have another child, who cries every day under the hateful gaze of his husband for the rest of my life. But I firmly believe that I will be happy! Di Chajie, I have always believed that I would be happy, that I would be able to live a happy life with self-respect and freedom. Although each new day begins with different difficulties for an ordinary person like me. But as long as I endure this moment and persevere, I will still have a lot of happiness waiting for me. "
Di Chajie looked at Yun Hanxiao. This woman had been with him for so long, this time she was the one who spoke the most.
He didn't want to laugh. Her words made his heart ache.
But in another sense, it made him angry.
Wasn't being with him a happy life?
Did he let her live without self-respect, without self-love, without freedom?
Di Chajie suddenly laughed coldly. Heh ?? You seem to think too much, who said that you are destined to be unhappy, how many women are jealous of your current life, and yet you reject me, reject happiness, and then loudly say here that you want to pursue happiness! Yun Hanxiao, don't you think it's too laughable? "
Yun Hanxiao looked at Di Chajie with a somewhat sorrowful gaze and she said in a low voice, "What I have said isn't fu
y at all, Di Chajie. Because, this is what I need to face with my honesty ?? "Life."
Di Chajie's face sunk. From the outside, it was impossible to tell how he was feeling ?? As if he was suddenly bored, he tore open a pack of cigarettes and lit it up ??
He had never quit smoking or drinking, yet he was willing to bear with it in front of Yun Hanxiao. Not only did he say a lot of sweet nothings, he also did a lot of considerate work, but this woman was even saying here with her eyes wide open. He had caused her to lose her self-esteem, self-confidence, and freedom!
What a fucking joke!
"Yun Hanxiao, what is your true happiness? What do you want? Reputation, wealth, status, love... What do you want? What exactly do you want... Yun Hanxiao... "As long as I have it, I'll ??" Di Chajie didn't know how to express her thoughts. That would be too petty, and he wasn't used to asking others for favors and love.
Yun Hanxiao shook her head, shaking it with all her might. Her expression was still as calm as before, and her silence was still strong: "Di Chajie, you're very generous. Because you have many, many things, you've always been too generous to me."
Yun Hanxiao looked at Di Chajie, her voice was still sincere: "Di Chajie, you should know that suddenly giving a poor person a huge pile of things, is not necessarily good for him, and may actually be harmful to him. When you want to give it to me, please be sure to give me what I deserve through my ability. Please don't give me too much kindness. You know, I've grown up, and in reality I haven't had as much luck getting as much as you give me. So, I have always felt afraid, afraid that these should not be I should get, afraid that one day you will understand, suddenly take back. I didn't get it by my own means, so when you take it back, I have nothing to say. But have you thought about how I should live on at that time?! "
Courage is a limited act.
She had Shaoze to raise and now had a baby in her belly. She couldn't be so brave as to not have tomorrow's love. She had to protect her own heart before she could give the children a relatively stable world.
It might not be luxurious and luxurious, but it was definitely stable and beautiful!
Di Chajie stared in front of him, and did not say a word.
During this time, Yun Hanxiao chose to remain silent and waited for his answer.
There was no rush. There was still so much distance between the two of them to travel, so there was no rush at all.
After a long while, Di Chajie finished smoking and extinguished the cigarette in the delicate stainless steel ashtray on the trash can. He looked at Yun Hanxiao and said indifferently, "How do you want me to treat you? What exactly do you want me to give you? Or, to put it bluntly, how long do you want to reject me from the bottom of your heart? "
It wasn't that he hadn't given her time, but this woman's stubbor
ess made his heart ache.
Yun Hanxiao suddenly stopped breathing, the pain in her chest caused her to be unable to breathe freely.
Di Chajie was so indifferent, so forceful, but from the meaning of his words, it revealed his submission and weakness.
No matter how strong he was or how much he had experienced, he had always wanted her, wanted her.
Sometimes love itself is a weakness that prevents people from being forceful in the face of their loved ones.
"Di Chajie, you're right, I'm afraid. I'm really scared, I'm really afraid, I'm afraid that once I accept your generosity, I'll slowly get used to this kind of luxurious life, and that's because I can't afford it with my own abilities, so I started to ask for it ?? If one day you ignore me because you're bored, my future will be miserable for me and I won't be able to control it! "
She spread out her hands, small yet white yet strong. "I'm too used to living by myself, Di Chajie, I'm too used to life being controlled by my own hands."
Di Chajie suddenly grabbed her hand, pulled her towards him, and tightly hugged her. Di Chajie steadily held onto Yun Hanxiao's waist with one hand, and lifted her chin with the other.
"Yun Hanxiao, no matter what you're afraid of, it will happen the moment it happens! Escape had never been able to solve any problems, and no one could stop things from proceeding according to their own rules! Including yourself! That includes me! "
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