As Isiah was holding Ciel he noticed that he lost a lot of weight in the last few weeks, he was already small and vulnerable but that worsen since they got to Emperium.
Ciel's panic didn't end right away, he was moving uncontrollably because he thought that he was suffocating, gladly Isiah was capable of containing his movements .
" Ciel, you are not alone, I am here with you, okay, breath slowly, deeply, everything is okay, remember, we are here in Emperium, you made it, you are now with me " Isiah said with a calm voice to him .
He avoided saying anything about his family so that he wouldn't trigger him again, after a while, Ciel just stopped moving and that encouraged Isiah to finally touch his golden hair to calm him even more .
" You are okay, Ciel, you are okay" Isiah repeated to him .
At that moment, Ciel just rested his whole body, he was not moving, he was not resisting and he was not to go away.
Isiah tried to remove the coat from him to see his face, however, he heard him saying while crying:" Don't"
Isiah was very surprised by Ciel's reaction, he thought that he would never look at him again, and here he was speaking again .
Isiah bit his lip hard then hugged him tighter then said to him:" I am deeply sorry"
Isiah rested his chin on Ciel's head while he tried to feel his warmth very close to him.
" I thought I could never feel anything towards a human after all that happened to me, you, Ciel, you are the only one important to me "
Isiah was speaking with affection towards Ciel, he thought that he could never feel that and Ciel proved him wrong .
Ciel didn't try to push him away like before, he hold on to him with his little arms from under that thick coat and said while still crying:" Isiah, I am scared"
The way Ciel was holding on to him was very tight, however, when he said that he was scared Isiah thought that he was scared of him so he felt terrine as he closed his eyes.
"I am sorry I scared you " Isiah said with a lot of regret shown on his face .
At that moment, Ciel removed his whole body so that he could look into Isiah's eyes, his blue eyes were red and Isiah hated to see him that way.
He was too vulnerable and he was the one responsible for that .
Ciel looked at him for a long time then said:" Not you, not you "
He even reached to Isiah's face and touched his cheek like he did before and this time he said :" I am scared to see them live a good life…without me "
Isiah looked at him very surprised, to hear a little kid say that was very strange and Isiah felt that he understood what he felt .
Isiah looked at him deeply and then said:" The fact that they left an angel like you proves that they are not good people "
" Angel ? What is that ? " Ciel asked as he wiped his face with his sleeves .
" The opposite of everything bad in this life, they are pure creatures just like you " Isiah smiled at him .
However, Ciel kept crying then he said:" Don't leave me, Isiah "
Isiah held the hand that was put on his cheek and then said:" I will never do that "
Ciel was not in his cheery usual state, he just said to Isiah:" Don't hate me"
" I won't, I will never do that "
Ciel's tears kept falling which made Isiah feel a tremendous pain so he just hugged him again and then said:" I will never hate you, little one "
Isiah kept patting his hair until he stopped crying after a long time, he even slept while being in Isiah's lap as he was hugging him .
When Isiah noticed that he carried him to his bed and covered whim with sheets then said as he pat his head for the last time : "I will never hate you, Ciel, sweet dreams "
Isiah turned around and went outside the room only to be surprised by both Heigl and Lexie standing there and waiting for him .
Lexie was still not looking at him.
" Is he okay ?" Heigl asked him with anticipation
" He is sleeping now, don't bring the subject when he wakes up" Isiah warned.
" It is your fault, you were the one who pressured him and wanted him to talk to you about something that is clearly upsetting to him "Lexie said impatiently.
Isiah glared at her immediately but she added:" You did that to him, you were the reason for all his tears and his sadness, he is a kid but you are treating him in an awful way "
" Stop Lexie, please go to your room" Heigl said to her at that moment, however, Isiah was so close to her to the point where he reached her neck and pushed her toward the wall until it hit the wall and she felt an immersive pain .
" Isiah stop, she didn't mean that" Heigl said again.
Lexie didn't resist him but she kept looking at him with angry looks until he put a lot of force into his hand.
"It…is …the truth…you …were ..the reason" She said intermittently .
even at that moment, she kept talking to him that way .
Heigl walked towards them and tried to remove his hand from her neck but he couldn't, Isiah was not weak to be pulled that way .
Isiah heard a scream coming from the room where Ciel was sleeping, he turned around immediately while pushing Lexie away from him to see what happened there .
" Ciel …Ciel …what is happening? "Isiah said the moment he entered the room in a hurry.
Ciel was not awake, he was still sleeping but it seemed like he was seeing some nightmares.
"Ciel, wake up, wake up " Isiah added.
At that moment, both Lexie and Heigl entered the room .
Lexie was trying to act strong however what Isiah did to her made her feel terrible again .
Isiah touched both his cheeks with his palms, he noticed that he was sweating heavily and having trouble to breathe yet he was still asleep.
' If only I could do what Eijar did to me that day when we are at the edge of Summit' Isiah thought while he was still trying to wake him up .
"Ciel, wake up, this is me , Isiah"
Isiah shook him very strongly this time, so he shouted for one last time before he woke up .
He opened his eyes while gasping for air and when he saw Isiah next to him he just threw himself at him while putting his little arms around his neck and then said:" He was here ? "
Isiah knew that he was talking about his uncle, but he didn't want to say anything related to that and just patted his back then said:" No one was here, only us three, no one was here, just breathing normally "
' Uncle? Why would his reaction be like this if he is talking about his uncle ? He was having another panic attack as he was asleep and it all started when I pushed him to tell me about what really happened to him when his parents leveled up with his brothers and sister.
It is related, and I am afraid that the pain I caused him is way more than I expected, she was right, like it or not, she was right about the whole thing '
Isiah put Ciel on his bed again then asked for Eijar to come closer without even looking at her then said :" You know what you have to do , make sure not to make it worse, okay "
Isiah then covered Ciel with the blankets and wanted to walk away but he just clenched to him and said while shaking :" Stay, please "
Isiah was just next to him while Eijar moved behind Ciel right to his head and sat there .
At that moment Ciel was holding on to Isiah's thumb as if he was holding on to life, Isiah smiled at him and then said:" I am here, I am not going to leave, close your eyes and sleep "
And before he slept again Ciel said :" Promise"
" I promise" Isiah said as he gave the snake a sign to begin what she did to him .
Eijar was more careful with him, she entered him in a state of sleep but that took her so many times, she did it easily with Isiah because he was connected to her contrary to Ciel .
Isiah didn't move for a second as he looked at Ciel finally relaxing and going to sleep .
" Is he okay ? " Heigl said from behind.
Isiah finally remembered that they were here, so he just said firmly:" You will be punished for what you said, don't think that I will let that slide"
" I knew that you will punish me, but I did it for Ciel anyway, I will never let anyone, even you treat him that way " She said as she started massaging her bruised neck.
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