Chapter 918 My Beautiful Monster Part 19
LUCIFER
He shakes his head. This life will be different, it has to be. If not the cycle will repeat again and he doesn't know if his body can handle another reincarnation. This life started off with him in his beast form, abandoned by his human parents in a forest. If the cycle repeats again. He is afraid that he will no longer be able to retain himself.
'Such foolish thoughts you're having. We share the same body, and soon our souls will completely merge.'
Lucifer grunted hearing the voice in his head.
'Be gone. I have no energy to deal with you today.'
'Now, now Lucifer. You have been blocking me for a few weeks now. It surprised me when your shield was suddenly down.'
Of course his mental shields were down. Since he was focusing his energy on trying to keep up with Sumire.
'I see the reason now.'
Lucifer's gaze dimmed. 'You cannot harm her. You tried to come out the other night didn't you?'
There was a moment where he lost control of his body and bit Sumire harder than he ought to have.? Whenever he drinks from her, he has been doing his very best to be gentle.
Another chuckle and Lucifer sighed. 'How did you find out?'
'Are you forgetting Lucifer, even if you block me from your mind. We still share the same body. You've been consuming her blood in only small amounts, but it was enough. I recognize that flavour.'
'Your wrong.'
His beasts playful tone vanishes and Lucifer feels a harsh tug in his mind.
'Do not try to trick me Lucifer. I won't forget that taste no matter how much time passes by. That woman is mine. How dare you hide her from me?'
'I would have told you eventually. But you should know that she has no memories right now and before you say anything. The memories I erased aside, she doesn't remember any of her past lives. She doesn't remember us, you.'
'Conduct the bonding ritual with her and she will remember everything.'
'That is too dangerous.'
Another tug, a harsher one.
'You better unleash me on your own and let me feed from her. Otherwise I will take over your body, for a longer time frame. I will have my way with her and you will not like my plans.'
He could recognize a threat when he saw one.
'Is there an alternative?'
'Drink from her seriously, unleash me. But I will allow you to keep your mind.'
'Very well.'
With those final words, Lucifer felt his presence leave his mind and a relieved sigh escaped his lips. His gaze fell back onto the training ring only to realize Sumire wasn't there. Lucifer stood up and panicked. Where did she go? How come he didn't sense her leave? What if she wanders to the other training grounds where the corrupt members of his organisation are practicing?
This panic only lasted a few seconds since he felt a pair of arms cover his eyes. "I disappear for a second, and you act like the world has ended."
If only she knew how true those words were. Even now he can remember it clearly. Her getting captured in their first life. How she was right there. How he was kissing her moments before, only to vanish the second he turned to speak to a guard with a message.
"Tell me something. Just now, it felt like you were talking to someone."
Lucifer froze. How does she know?
"Actually. There have been several times when I have been drinking your blood where I see a door surrounded in shadows. When I try to open it, it is locked. But I can feel someone behind that door." Sumire paused. "Just now, I felt that same presence."
It seems he has underestimated her current condition. Just because she has been behaving in a docile way since coming here. It doesn't erase her core nature.
"Will you tell me?" Sumire said softly.
At those words he turned around, causing her to drop her hands from his face. Lucifer gaze met hers. 'I can sense her distress. She must sense that asking this question is dangerous for their relationship. But, despite knowing this she is willing to take the risk.'
Lucifer nodded and led her to sit down on the steps beside him. It takes him a few minutes to compose himself. She must have sensed his nerves, since she placed her hand on top of his giving it a reassuring squeeze. Eventually he found the words, once he started, he found it much easier to tell her everything.
"So, there is another person inside you?"
"Not exactly. He is still me, but a much darker version."
As much as he hates to admit it, his beast is just a darker side of himself.
"So the other night, was that your beast side?"
Lucifer nodded. "I lost control of myself and hurt you. For that I have to apologize again."
Sumire turned quiet, and he immediately felt afraid. Is this it? Has he ruined it? Will he have to resort to erasing her memories of them having this conversation, just to keep her by his side? Lucifer felt sick at the thought. To his surprise she suddenly wrapped her arms around his neck and mumbled.
"Do you want to know what I was thinking when you behaved that way last night?"
Of course he wanted to know. The delight he normally felt when he woke up with her in his arms vanished when he saw her bruised neck. He knew he must have drunk from her, since the taste of her blood lingered in his mouth. However, seeing the bruises. He searched his memories and understood.
"I was thinking, how beautiful you are. My beautiful monster."
Lucifer felt his heart stop for a moment hearing those words. A memory from the past flashed through his mind.
'The moment I saw you in your changed state. I thought, this beautiful, selfless man has changed into something even more beautiful for my sake. This beast? This darkness only makes me love you more.'
It's the same, even if the wording is different.
"I don't remember much. But, I know that you're like this because of me. You're so beautiful."
Lucifer finally managed to find the words to speak but his lips trembled. "Are you telling me that you like me this way? That you're okay with me, even though I am a being of darkness?"
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