The feeling of losing herself in the arms of a monster that was awakening inside her.
The monster she was trying to suppress.
Though, it didn't help that the fact she was having pleasure from it.
In the end, the self-hatred she had for herself grew as she killed more and more people.
Because the guilt of killing others was slowly getting lost in that tingly feeling and thrill of killing others that came…
The last man she needed to kill for today.
It was a man that was holding the leashes of beast women…
A man that wanted to sell slaves.
Though she did not like the idea of slaves, she wasn't opposed to it either.
"Go."
With that signal, she confronted the man that was holding a cigarette in his mouth.
The man was her final target for the day.
Therefore, she jumped over and attacked the man with her face covered with a mask.
In the beginning, she was getting the upper hand.
And she almost had the decisive blow that needed to be dealt.
To end the man's life.
However, she hesitated.
Not because she didn't want to kill the man.
No, she had already gotten used to that feeling.
Though that also showed she was not normal.
In any case, the reason was that she didn't want to feel that joy.
It was that she didn't want to lose herself.
But that tiny bit of hesitation was what made her almost lose her life.
/TING/
Because the man in front of her used a magical spell…. A sound spell to interrupt her.
Magic that attacked her eardrums, making her head dizzy.
Her head was filled with the same tingling voice over and over again.
Which made her miss the attack aimed at her neck.
/CLANK/
Though she was saved in the end.
It was the same boy that was with her.
"You couldn't even kill him, huh? Even after all this time. What a disappointment."
However, the words that came out of his mouth made her feel a weird feeling in her heart.
Those words made her remember the things she wanted to forget.
"It seems we still have a long way to go."
And that phrase marked the end.
Those words she had always heard.
The words of disappointment.
She didn't want to hear the same words that were used against her over and over again.
'I don't want to be like that again.'
At that moment, something snapped inside her.
To prove herself that she was strong, she was someone that was not worse than others.
To show her that she was someone that was strong.
But, most importantly, to show the boy in front of her that she was not someone he needed to get rid of.
With those thoughts filling her head, she grabbed the shoulder of the boy behind.
"What?"
He asked without turning back.
With a tone that made her feel chilly.
A tone that felt like he was fed up.
"I will do it."
Without even an ounce of hesitation, she answered.
Hearing this, he stopped.
Her eyes, which were able to see better than before for some reason, were able to capture a brief smile on his face.
Which made her at ease.
"Okay."
And the answer came not long after.
After that, there was nothing complex.
Because she needed to do whatever she needed.
Though, inside her, two sides were clashing.
One side wanted to prove herself to the world to the boy in front of her.
And the other side, that wanted to cage those feelings.
One side with ambition and the other with self-hatred.
As she looked in front of the man that was sweating very hard but had a smile on his face, she understood, the man was underestimating her.
The man was looking down on her.
Though it didn't make it any better.
Because she still had inner turmoil.
"Don't reject the feeling in your heart. It is nothing wrong; just be who you are."
But, at that time, she heard his voice.
And saw the same red eyes.
No, they were not red…..
Those eyes turned something with a lot of colors.
A wide range of colors was turning in those eyes.
Those eyes felt like they could see everything.
"It is your own nature. Just accept it."
The words that came out of his mouth.
He was like he knew everything about her, which made her feel uncomfortable but weird at the same time.
"Accepting my own nature."
She mumbled, hearing him.
Looking at the eyes that knew everything, she felt comfort again.
'If it is him, then he might accept me for who I am.'
The girl was never accepted by others and was always compared to her sister.
It was the first time she had felt like she had found someone who knew everything about her but didn't reject her.
Then, a smile bloomed on her face for the first time.
A crazed smile.
And she felt the strength surging through her body.
The aura of grey was shining all around her.
The pillar of light shone over her body.
With her grey eyes shining.
Even though she hadn't noticed.
Because in her mind, she had only focused on one thing.
The man in front of her.
Putting the strength on his legs, she readied herself.
This time not underestimating the man.
/SWOOSH/
And suddenly appeared beside the man.
Because she had never thought she would be this fast, she was slightly surprised.
Slightly.
Though in the end, it didn't matter.
With her hand holding the dagger, she stabbed the man in his heart.
Making the blood spurt from the wound.
This time her hands were no longer shaking.
Because she had already accepted herself.
'It is not wrong. It is who I am.'
That was what she thought.
"Good girl."
Hearing this, the smile on her face widened.
The same hand that touched her before, that hand came to her shoulder again.
"Hehe…."
The crazed smile turned into more of a silly one.
Though no one else was there to appreciate it.
It was at that moment that the future villainess finally accepted her own nature…..
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