"Yes... can you tell them that something urgent happened so I can't join them?" Ran Xueyi quietly talked on the phone. "No... everything alright here. I just want to spend more time with my family. That's all.... Thanks, Adelle. Let's talk again tomorrow."
She hung up and looked towards the L-shaped sofa where Song Yu Han was cradling Little Zhanzhan in his arms.
She sat next to them and reached for Little Zhanzhan. "You must be tired. Let me embrace him."
"I'm not tired. I didn't even do much. The one who should be tired is you."
Ran Xueyi shook her head: "I chased after my dreams and forgot to look around me. I wasn't even beside our son when he needed it the most. It must have pained him so much when I was working while he stayed home."
"Yu Han, I'm such a bad mother. I can't even make any excuses because it's my fault that my son's mind is too mature for his age. He became like this because of me. Oh god... how could I do this to him." Ran Xueyi hugged the little child in her arms tighter as she cried.
Ran Xueyi wanted to avoid the worst. The same situation she had been put through by her parents, where she had to do everything for herself without asking help from them. She only wanted to give him the best future and life she could offer to him. But because of this, she did the same as her mother did to her.
Ran Xueyi wiped the tears and lowered her gaze at the sleeping face of her son, "Baby, mommy's sorry. Really sorry. Mommy put you through a lot without knowing it."
"I'm a terrible mother. But I'll do my best now. I'll stay by your side and won't ever leave you again."
"My dearest boy, my sweetest little baby, mommy loves you more than anything in this world. You're my precious baby."
Ran Xueyi adjusted her position so Little Zhanzhan's head could rest comfortably on her shoulder.
Song Yu Han shifted in his seat and reached out to pull the two in his embrace. He carefully wiped the tears on her eyes and said, "You're not a terrible mother, love. You're the most delicate and beautiful mother in this world. The one at fault here is not you, but it's me."
"No, you're wrong. You have a reason to stay away. You're keeping us both safe back then." Ran Xueyi knew Song Yu Han's intention and reason why he couldn't be with them three years ago. How could she blame him? It was all her. It was her selfish desire to chase after her dreams that this happened.
Song Yu Han sighed helplessly and gently flicked a finger on her forehead, "You're arguing with me again. I said I'm the one to blame so it's my fault."
Ran Xueyi sniffled, "Wasn't there a saying that women are always right?"
Song Yu Han suddenly had an urge to kill the person who said that. Yes, there was a truth in that saying, but not in this case. He didn't want Ran Xueyi to blame herself. Not when he understood her situation.
Ran Xueyi was never a horrible mother. But there's no need to deny that she was also too busy because of the nature of her job as an actress. However, there's no need to erase the fact that she had been through a lot over the past few years when she was finally able to release herself from her parents' hands.
She was like a caged rabbit who was finally released. Moreover, because of the treatment she received from her family, Ran Xueyi did not know how to care for a child alone. Not when he was not there by her side? What was she supposed to do when the mother whom she could have depended on and supported her was not even a mother figure to her?
Song Yu Han lowered his head as he watched over the two sleeping figures who were wrapped in his embrace.
He was the one who was to blame for everything. He hid close to them, but it wasn't enough. He regretted his choice to hold back three years ago.
"...I'm sorry for leaving you."
"Sorry, because I wasn't there when you needed me the most."
He whispered and threw his head back to the backrest of the sofa to look up at the ceiling and prevent the tears that pooled into his eyes from spilling out.
...
"Aren't your men a bit too slow? We've been here in this damn country for three days and they still haven't send a message! I'm growing impatient from waiting for good news to come!" Jia Li impatiently paced around the room. "I can't wait any longer!"
President Yan was the opposite of her. He was dressed in a business suit as he calmly tapped on his phone screen.
With his attention elsewhere, Jia Li's nerves were struck. She stumbled forward and snatched the phone away from him before throwing it to the floor with a cracking sound.
"Yan Zhuhui, what's wrong with you?!" she creamed at him. "While I'm fuming and being impatient here, you're just going to ignore me and use your phone as if nothing happened?"
President Yan's jaw was set as he coldly glanced at her in silence. His eyes were too icy like a viper's eyes staring at its prey.
Jia Li felt uneasy and fearful when he looked at her like this. Then, she realized what she had done and quickly straightened her emotion. "I'm sorry, I was just too irritated. I saw the live broadcast in today's Ck show program and saw Ran Xueyi doing well. I was filled with envy so I couldn't control my emotions."
"You'll forgive me, right?" she lowered herself to sit on his lap.
But before she could sit on top of him, President Yan stood up and picked up his phone from the ground without a word.
"Yan Zhuhui... Babe?" Jia Li felt a void whisper in her gut at his reaction. Usually, he would hook an arm around her waist and tell her he forgives her. But President Yan prioritized his phone over her.
After picking up his phone and seeing a crack on the screen, President Yan's eyes turned colder.
With his back on her, he said, "Jia Li, you should stop your obsession towards Ran Xueyi."
Jia Li frowned at his words, "What did you say? Are you kidding me right now?"
"No," he curtly told her.
"You know why I'm targeting her! She knows my past! Everyone who did died in our hands. If she spreads my past to everyone, we will be separated. You don't want that, right?" She grabbed his arm and raised her eyes to look at him. "You love me so please get rid of her!"
President Yan gritted his teeth in hatred. How could he have not seen it? It was just as she said. He was the only one who loved her. In their relationship, he was the only one who's sincere.
Sighing deeply, he said, "You don't even know if she's really the one who sent that message to you. You have no proof it was Ran Xueyi. But you're obsessing about her not because of that, Jia Li. You envy her because she's better at everything..."
--Pa!
A hand struck him on his cheek. Even if Jia Li knew what he said was correct, she didn't want anyone to confirm nor say it to her face.
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Poisonlily has something to say: *wipes eyes* It's never too easy to become a parent. I feel bad for our main characters. QAQ
Ps. It's the end of the month already... I should wrap up Jia Li's case quickly. >.<
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