Chapter 265
After this, I ruled over my territory as leader .
That being said, honestly my duties weren’t much different from beforehand .
Each day I was pursued by my work, and hunched over a desk making my best effort .
Although...there were a lot fewer people charging into my room with dramatic announcements, so I had a lot more spare time .
I learned from Lady Letticia that she was officially succeeding to the throne .
Seems like after a year of mourning for Dean she was going to hold her coronation .
I would attend the ceremony as well as leader of my territory .
This would be the first ceremony I attended as leader...basically the first time I would appear in public as a territory leader .
A year, huh .
I couldn’t help but sigh .
After he was gone, several weeks felt like a long, long time .
Like Mother said, occasionally I would feel a streak of pain in my chest .
But now I even enjoyed this pain .
“Where are you heading, milady?”
When I walked out the room, I encountered Tanya who was walking over with files in her hands .
“I’m going to take a walk . I need to move around . ”
“Then let me come...”
“No, that’s fine . I’ll just walk around in the yard . ”
I left her behind and walked out .
The spring air enveloped me with warmth .
When I stretched, my bones made a cracking sound .
Sitting at my desk every day was making my body stiff . Thinking this, I gazed out at my beautiful garden to relax .
“The weather is great...”
Looking up, I saw the clear blue sky .
“Is Dean somewhere in that sky?”
I couldn’t help but say this to myself, clasping my pocket watch .
He was protecting me from above...it was a fairytale belief that I clung to .
No, I forced myself to .
“No . Not in the sky . ”
My murmurs were greeted by someone responding behind me .
The familiar voice made me freeze where I stood .
Unbelievable .
“It can’t be...”
I was already hallucinating voices, huh, I attempted to calm my shaking body .
But as if to mock me, the voice continued to ring out .
“I’m so sorry, milady . I always lie to you . ”
My tears began to fall slowly .
It wasn’t a mishearing or a hallucination .
“What kind of lie is it?”
The voice shuddered .
“So many . An identity as the son of a merchant from the merchants’ guild . Pretending to be calm when I heard about your engagement . And my death . ”
“None of it matters...!”
Turning around, I rammed into his chest .
It was him .
It was him...Alfred Dean Tasmeria .
His warmth, the heartbeat I heard in his chest, was enough for me to burst into tears .
He was alive...alive!
“As long as you’re still alive, I don’t need anything else...”
His hands wrapped around my back .
The shuddering in his hands couldn’t be a hallucination .
Engulfed in emotions, I hugged him harder .
I wanted the concreteness of him being right here, right now .
We hugged each other, enjoying the warmth of our bodies .
I wanted to see you...wanted to see you!
And yet I was powerless to do so .
Even if I knew I couldn’t see him again, I still hungered for him, chased after him .
Lightly, our bodies separated . I raised my hands to his cheeks .
“But why?”
“I was indeed injured by arrows, and was in fatal danger...but thanks to the doctor’s hard work, I survived . But by that point the news that I had passed away had already made it back to the palace . ”
“Ah...so you’re fine? Not in pain anymore?”
“I’m completely recovered, without any after effects . ”
He said with a smile . I sighed in relief .
“Is that so...that’s good . ”
“Only the doctor who saved me knows I survived . I asked him not to spread the news . ”
“Why is that?”
“Letty said I wasn’t suitable for the role of king . She wanted to be king, so I should just back down . I think that in some ways this was the right thing for her to do...since she was already handling everything in the palace anyways . If I went back it would just be more chaotic . ”
Dean chuckled .
“My sister told me to do something I wanted to do . What I want to do is work here . ”
Dean clasped my hands on his face .
“In the past I thought my only two paths were becoming king or dying . I’d never thought of any other possibility . Everything I did was to become king...and I only connected with the people around me for this purpose . ”
I listened quietly to his confession .
“But when I was here, it was different . My imagined future disappeared from my mind . I enjoyed my work here...”
“Dean...”
These words sounded like a declaration of love .
My heart kept leaping at his words .
“I couldn’t help but wish . I couldn’t help but wonder . At another future . I wanted to build a future I had never seen and never imagined with you . ”
His hands tightened .
“Although in the past you only hired me on a temporary basis, I want to work here forever . I am a ghost now . May I have this privilege?”
“...Of course!”
Indeed, since he was dead he had no status .
But what did that matter?
After tasting despair once, I was willing to labor at any cost . No, this wasn’t even hard work for me .
Clasping my hand, Dean knelt down on one knee .
It was like a fairytale, a knight to a princess .
“Hold on...Dean!”
His sudden movement made me shout, my eyes wide .
But he just smiled and shook his head .
His determined eyes fixed upon me . They stole my consciousness away .
“I love you . ”
And then his words stunned me .
No disguising, simple words .
But the emotion behind them was enough for my tears to start flowing .
“I’ve always been lying to you, this whole time . Now I’m a phantom with no real identity who can never step onto the stage of this world . I’ll create a lot of work for you, I’m sure . But I don’t want to lie to you anymore . I love you, from the bottom of my heart . Even if I know the toll it might take on you, I can’t give up . I want to walk into the future with you . Please, may I accompany you in the journey of your life?”
My face was hot .
Joy, happiness . My chest felt full .
“You care about these things . ” I took his hand .
“These things...It’s odd for me to say this, but they really are a lot of trouble . A man without an identity cannot be husband to a territory’s ruler . Plus, this man has royal blood, the rights to the throne...so he can never walk onto the political scene . ”
“None of this matters to me . Because this way I can be with you . I thought you were dead . Faced with a miracle like this, these things are nothing important . ”
He was wide-eyed at my response .
I pulled him to his feet, and buried my face in his chest .
Everything I should say and do as a lady, as the daughter of a duke, disappeared in my mind .
“That being said, this also means you’re giving up the crown for me? Even if you come back as king, I’m already the ruler of this territory . I have no intentions of giving up this position, no matter how much I love you . ”
“Iris...”
“I’m a troublesome woman too, Dean . Even if I love you, I have my own wants and refuse to stray from my path . Because I love this land, and I love the people who live here . ”
I couldn’t back down on this point, no matter how much I loved him .
“That’s exactly the Iris that I love . ” He laughed .
“Dean...”
We were gazing at each other, with only the other person in our universe .
“But you have to promise me this . ”
His earnest eyes sought elaboration .
“I’ve had enough suffering . Don’t tell lies that will make me shed tears anymore . ”
The pain, the suffering, the tragedy .
Feeling like my chest was about to be rent apart...I couldn’t handle those emotions any longer .
“Of course . I’ve had enough of the lies too . ”
His hands caressed my face .
I let his hands take me, looking up to him .
“I want to be with you . Closer than anyone else...I love you too . ” f(r)eewebnovel.com
Finally, I could say the words . I love you .
My true feelings, my intense longing .
A deep satisfaction overcame me and I sighed in relief .
His face approached mine gently . I closed my eyes .
And so our lips pressed together .
So touching and loving .
Grateful that he still lived, grateful for everything I had .
At the same time, my heart filled with a rash impulse .
I wanted to erupt, to scream .
I wanted him to be completely mine, to the point where I couldn’t think about anything else .
Hopefully he was satisfied as me . Perhaps we were thinking the same thought .
And then we separated
“Well then, let’s go back first . ”
If we continued we’d be far too immersed . My embarrassment didn’t stop me from making this suggestion .
“Yes . ”
He was blushing too .
It was an adorable sight that made me smile .
“Everyone will welcome you back . We were all so sad to hear you’d passed . ”
“How should I say this...I’m sure everyone in the financial offices will be a little more reserved . ”
“Indeed...”
We held hands .
The warmth at our fingertips made us shudder .
Was it possible to keep walking like this from now on?
“All right, let’s go then! Dean . ”
“All right .
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