Chapter 616 I don't want you in my life any longer
Day Seventy…
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Jane didn't expect that Nathan would respond to her kiss while sober. At this moment, Nathan was not under the influence of alcohol, yet he was kissing her back willingly. Her heart tingled when he smothered her lips with demanding eagerness.
Jane could only close her eyes and savor the moment. Her heartbeat was so loud in her ears.
Badum! Badum! Badum!
She anchored her arms around his neck, grabbing his hair as she pulled his head closer to her. With her action, Nathan deepened the kiss further, savaging her lips. All the emotions he accumulated when Jane was back in a coma were resurfacing, his body, his arms and his lips moving on their own accord.
His tongue began to trace the soft fullness of her lips, his teeth nibbling and biting her. As he pried her mouth open, he thrust his tongue inside her mouth, tasting and licking hers. Jane welcomed him as she intertwined her tongue with his. The two wrestled and danced inside her mouth, a soft moan escaping her lips.
'Damn it! Why is it that every moment without him feels like an eternity? I truly miss this guy so much. I can't stop my feelings for him any longer.' Jane's heart ached, her soul weighed down by the unrelenting yearning that had taken hold of her. She felt like a ship lost at sea, tossed about by the stormy waves of her feelings.
And just as Jane struggled with her emotions, Nathan was trapped in the same emotional turmoil. For an entire week, he had been consumed by worry for her, a gnawing concern that had settled deep within him like a festering wound. He couldn't help but wish for the day when he could witness her waking up from that coma state, a moment he had longed for. But this time, it felt different from the previous situation wherein he wanted her to live just because he was hell-bent to do his revenge against her.
Her absence for a week and the thought of Jane disappearing forever because of her illness made Nathan realize how desperate he was to keep her alive. The undeniable attraction he had for Jane was getting stronger and stronger as time went by as if their connection was an unbreakable bond, an invisible thread that bound their hearts together, refusing to loosen its grip.
He had been trying to fight and deny his feelings for Jane. But these past few days were like punishment to him. Nathan's yearning for Jane was a relentless fire burning within him, an ache that could only be soothed by her presence.
Who would have thought that they were two souls lost in a sea of longing, unable to escape the gravitational pull of their emotions? The ache in their hearts was a testament to the depth of their connection, a connection that neither time nor distance could diminish.
Through this passionate kiss, their actions spoke louder than words. But deep confusion was still bothering Nathan. How could he easily move on after his heartbreak with Abigail? He thought he was in love with Abigail, but why couldn't he resist Jane? The more he tried to fight it and deny his feelings, the more he was drawn to her.
'Do I start liking her just because she's the real Shining Star?' Nathan asked himself inwardly, still kissing Jane hungrily. He was drowning in the sweet taste of her lips. His desire resurfaced and it was unstoppable. Nathan was slowly acknowledging his feelings for her.
Not breaking the kiss, his hands grabbed her waist, lifting her as he made her sit on the surface of his table. He seized her mouth, his tongue continued to ravage the sweetness of her mouth.
Jane, on the other hand, could only succumb to the forceful domination of his lips. His rough kiss sent currents of desire through her, setting her aflame. She didn't want this to stop. She would like to enjoy this moment. She wrapped her legs around his hips, not allowing him to leave. Her soft breasts were now pressed against his sturdy chest as their lips and tongue were still connected.
In the midst of their intense passion, mere moments later, an unyielding need for oxygen forced Jane and Nathan to reluctantly break their heated kiss. But their eyes were still locked, staring intently at each other. Their lips reluctantly parted, leaving them both breathless, their chests rising and falling in rhythm with their desperate gasps for air. Nathan fixed her position as he rested his forehead on hers.
As they panted heavily, each inhale and exhale seemed to echo with the lingering heat of their shared desire. Their eyes, still smoldering with the intensity of their connection, remained locked in a mutual gaze. In that moment of breathless pause, their unspoken emotions and desires flowed between them like an invisible current.
It was as if the world had momentarily faded away, leaving only the two of them in their cocoon of desire and longing. Their hearts raced, and the world seemed to stand still as they caught their breath, both aware that the fire ignited by their passionate kiss still burned fiercely within them, a flame that threatened to consume them in the most delicious way.
Jane cupped his face, her thumbs caressing his cheeks. This was too good to be true. But Jane's heart constricted as the unpleasant memory of her past resurfaced in her mind. This was a painful reminder that she was unworthy of Nathan's love.
'I don't deserve him. I was touched and was taken advantage of by another guy… not only one guy… but many of them…' Jane thought she was touched also by Monica's men. Her stomach churned just by that thought. The magical moment had been ruined and she could no longer continue this.
Jane finally broke their eye-to-eye contact, leaping off the table and deliberately avoiding Nathan's gaze. Her sudden shift in behavior left Nathan puzzled and concerned. He couldn't help but wonder why she had suddenly become so cold and distant. His mind raced with questions, and he desperately sought to understand the reason behind this abrupt transformation in her demeanor.
"What's the matter?" Nathan inquired, his voice laced with deep concern. He extended his hand towards her, but Jane quickly stepped backward, evading his touch.
"I'm going to rest now." She walked towards the door, not looking back at Nathan.? "The kiss… just treat it as my sign of gratitude for saving my life today."
Nathan's expression turned grim when he heard that. The swift shift in her demeanor left him wondering if she was intentionally playing mind games with him. As frustration began to well up within him, he couldn't deny the rising annoyance and disappointment he felt. Jane had abruptly left him hanging, and it didn't sit well with him.
Determined not to let her manipulate his emotions, Nathan clenched his fists and made a firm decision. He couldn't allow her to get under his skin like this. He knew he wasn't accustomed to feeling this way, and it was unsettling. Without a second thought, he bolted out of his study room and into the hallway, determined to catch up with Jane and confront her about the sudden change in her behavior.
Nathan's patience had worn thin, and frustration bubbled up inside him like a simmering volcano. In a swift motion, he grabbed Jane by her elbow, effectively halting her from taking another step away from him. His voice trembled with a mix of emotions, his annoyance evident.
"Why? Why are you putting me through this?" Nathan asked her, his tone heavy with exasperation and confusion. He couldn't comprehend why she was putting him on this emotional rollercoaster, and the frustration in his voice made it clear that he had reached a breaking point.
He didn't know what to feel anymore. Nathan found himself trapped in a whirlwind of conflicting emotions, leaving him utterly bewildered and confused. He was having an internal turmoil that left him questioning his own feelings.
At one moment, he harbored a deep-seated resentment towards Jane, yet, at the same time, an unexpected tenderness had begun to bloom within him, a sentiment he had never anticipated. Now, his heart became a battleground where the lines between love and loathing blurred, and it left him utterly disoriented.
He had once believed he was in love with Abigail, Jane's sister, convinced of his affections, but this enigmatic woman had infiltrated his emotions in a way he couldn't comprehend. The confusion was a storm raging within him, and Nathan found himself lost in a sea of contradictory feelings.
Meanwhile, Jane regarded him with a contemptuous sneer, her tone dripping with disdain as she delivered her cutting words. "Nathan Sparks," she spat his name out with a bitter edge, "I suppose I've finally come to a clear realization—I don't want you in my life any longer." Her words hung heavily in the air, a sharp contrast to the once-intimate connection they had shared a while ago.
"Don't waste your time falling for me, and don't bother with your kindness," she continued, her voice laced with a cold detachment. "I've outgrown the need for it." Her declaration echoed with finality, signaling a profound shift in their relationship, leaving Nathan stunned by her sudden rejection.
Having uttered those words to Nathan, Jane abruptly withdrew her hand from his grasp and proceeded to leave him standing alone in the hallway, her departure leaving a palpable sense of distance between them. But unknown to Nathan, Jane left him with tears in her eyes.
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